Belief@HazelCafe

The phone rang at 1515. One guy told me about recall. The phone rang again at 1520. Another guy confirmed it. I changed quickly and got ready to return back to camp. We had been activated, and I had until 1700hrs to reach camp.

I shared a taxi with Eddy. We reached camp, scanned our 11Bs. Our time was 1602. That was fast. We were not even standby force.

We drew our rifles and brought all our stuff down to wait for further instructions. Then it rained, and we went up to the lecture room to wait. It was really boring.

The few lucky ones were picked for a full field pack check. I was not one of them. The rest of us waited in the lecture room for what seemed like hours.

Everything finished at around 1930. We listened to CO's 'inspiring speech', all expecting what he would say. We got most of the points correct, including the one about offs: he did not mention anything.

After that, we sent arms, brought our stuffs back to our bunk, and waited, this time for arms to be cleared before we were allowed to book out. We waited till 2115hrs, and got scolded by our BWO for nothing. Sometimes, people just have to get their facts right before they open their mouths…

See? One weekend burnt…

Just had my first practical driving lesson today. It was great, but it looked like I have forgotten most of those basics. I will need some more time to recall everything.

It's just too bad that we were not given LWE. My intuition had been correct, and today's trip all the way back to camp was not wasted. However, it's still very early, and I am rotting away in camp. Maybe I should go for a short run later.

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Nothing much today. I am clearing one off day, just to stay at home and relax, doing nothing much the whole day.

Played Gunbound in the morning. Getting more pro at it already, but I still have a long way to go…

Looked into my PHP programming again in the afternoon. Looks like I still have a long way to go. My organisation of certain details needs to be brushed up a bit for me to work efficiently. I found that I am always moving in circles in order to achieve something, making me giddy. At least I planned the database structures this time round. Less headaches.

Currently still reading The Tamuli: Domes Of Fire by David Eddings. Finally managed to borrow this book at the Woodlands Library. I have another book on XML that I have not touched on.

Surf into my class homepage(4s3) just now. Looks like I love to do things halfway and then leave them around like nobody's business. I have not label all the photos there! Oh no… lots of things to do…

However, I shall do them slowly. No hurry at all.

Impatience and hush make me erratic. I just want to relax…

Home at last, after 11 days…

I was allowed to clear my LWE tomorrow, and my off on Monday was approved. This means that I will only book in on Monday night. Yes, it's about time I rest, after 4 days of wet outfield, including the weekend that had gone into the drain at Jurong Island…

Went to have an a-la-carte buffet dinner at River City Restaurant at Excelsior Hotel, which was located beside Funan The IT Mall. The 6 of us paid around $24 each for the meal, which we all thought was an acceptable price, looking at all the stuffs that we had eaten. We almost could not walk! Can you imagine how much we all ate??

Yes, I do recommend this restaurant if you are interested in a-la-carte, eat-till-you-siao buffet. Nice place, but it's just a bit too hidden from outside.

Looks like I am advertising for them? Haha.. ok here's the URL:
http://www.rivercity.com.sg/

Looks like I have many other things to do. I have not even finished designing and preparing the forum includes… and it's been almost a fortnight since I touched those files…

Oh no… have to reload my memory… haa…

^_^

Yeah, supposedly. RTU. Return to unit. Today.

Perhaps the rain will stop us. We shall see when the time comes.

The unit toilet is waiting for me. My bunk is waiting for me. Come think of it, I have not gone home for the past 10 days…

And about some other things, I still choose to remain silent… Yeah keep it that way, for the time being…

Nothing much over here, except that it rained while I was sleeping, at around 3am. It rained again later in the day a few times. This rain is really giving me a headache and making me feel feverish.

More duty later… My main purpose here, besides taking care of the vehicle, is to perform sentry duty. The rest of the stuffs (although I do know some) are left to the others.

Went cooking with Eddy just now. It was great, except for that funny-tasting “shark's fin”. That little cooking made me think of the days during field camp in BMT… How we used to gather around at night, heating up water for coffees and cereals, cooking hot maggie mee, eating and joking together… That was so memorable…

No, I never hated BMT… It was fun…

Maybe it's time for a bunk mates gathering…

Here we are, stuck in a V200, caught in this early morning rain…

A better shelter for us? For example, the landrover? No…

And they talked about caring for soldiers… Stop all their bragging…

They just leave us here in this leaking vehicle… What's this?

Nothing much… Just disappointed. Very.

No, I can't.

I cannot tell the truth and express myself yet. Not now. The time is not right. Moreover, I admit that I am not the type that can take these things lightly, especially when they turn out the way I want.

No, this is not about any crime or whatsoever. Don't misinterpret.

I guess, I will just have to keep everything to myself. No, you can't get anything out of me yet… I am going to zip my mouth up. No talking. Not letting the cat out…

Thoughts are in chaos. Mind is blue…. I am lost.

Yes, I know how to handle this. I've been there before… This is somewhat the same scenario…

Survive I must. I can't let go now… Maybe I am just jealous, or perhaps I am too afraid… I don't know…

Shh……

Something happened to one of our drivers just now, at around 10pm.

He was still alright when the rest of us went out to buy some things. But when we came back an hour later, he was gasping for breath, some sort of like an asthma attack. Some of the guys tried to calm him down, but in vain. I just stood there, not knowing what to do, wondering what's wrong with him. He was struggling, and there was fear and tears in his eyes.

But what could I have done to help him just now? I do not know much.

I felt useless.

The only thing I had done was to help pack his basic items like toothbrush and shirt. Nothing else. He is now at Ngee Soon Camp for further observation…

Yeah, life is precious. You never know what will happen tomorrow. Maybe I should learn to appreciate others more……

It had rained almost the whole day! And here I was, sitting at home, burning away my off day infront of my computer, listening to MP3s, with addition effects by water droplets hitting on hard concrete outside.

Currently still working on the Forum. Just now, I had accidentally saved a blank file over one of my finished files! I had to redo that file from scratch. Lucky for me, I got quite used to my own style of programming…

Will be booking in later. And, I guess, the next time I get home will be next Saturday. I will be going off somewhere if nothing goes wrong. Unit requirement. I will try to update my blog from that place. Till then, I am not going to reveal much about that place.

I think I've got another idea for Elove! I am going to include short stories, in different languages! These stories are mostly about everyday life, and will be having some little relationship with Love… yeah I plan to make Elove into a special site, for myself, for other people. I want the site to be hot! That's the aim I have started out with for all my sites…

All this cannot be fulfilled by my sitting around in my room and daydreaming about them! And besides, as an old saying goes, “easier said than done”.

I will work towards this goal. I hope to get this done before I ORD.

Yes, “Prove it, Prove It To Me!”