Yeah… the best thing for me to do during examz is to act blurz. I am quite a good actor at “bochup”-ing things. Let's not affect the examz mood too much. Yeah. Any outstanding bills, settle after 30 April!
Felt like sleeping… but… I don't want…
Why I don't want? How I know…
I continue to act blurz…
The time spent by me to do a maths paper is atrocious! I guess, I have returned maths power back to Mr Leong already…
Last time, I usually took around 1 hour 30 minutes to finish a maths paper with minimum errors. Now, I took more than 2 hours, with reference to answer keys, and lots of stupid errors! And really stupid errors like, copying wrongly what was already printed in the question…
Oh no… How to survive on Thursday like that…
I still have a few days though. I have to recall back all my maths power. May the maths be with me…
And tomorrow's CTW. Oh well, want to prepare for it, but how? Maybe I will go look around later… main thing is still on Maths though… and MNO… and Programming. No letting go of programming! I hate theories on programming, but too bad, it's tested. I hate programming with limits too. Overall, I don't really like CS1102C. Supposed to be fun, but somehow, it's not fun at all.
Now where's my maths…
Wahsey, just after 1 paper, and I am starting to switch off! Noooooooooooo
Yay… spent some time writing some tunes…. still sounded familiar to me… Oh well…
And while I was thinking why didn’t Capitol Optical send me any offers for specs-related stuffs, in came the mail this evening! Warehouse sale right after my last paper, and it lasts 2 days! Maybe it’s time for a new pair of specs? This one I am wearing, which I am not wearing (huh?) because it makes me giddy just by walking around, was made a few years back. I used it during unit life, when I could not put on contacts due to those exercises that lasted a few days, and guard duties. And I am left with one pair of contacts! The last pair was supposed to be used in December… oh well… hahaha long overdued…
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Oh yes, recently some people have started to ask questions about friends, how they treat each other, and why they are like that. I believe that I have said it somewhere before, that people tend to remember friends when they need them? Yeah that’s just humans I guess. Everyone does that. Who dare say they don’t? If anyone dare swear that they don’t, well, I suspect that they are telling a big white lie…
Yeah, I admit I do that sometimes. Examples? When I need people for surveys, I ask them. When I need people’s help for some homework-related stuff, I ask them. Usually, I don’t really talk to them.
Yeah, sounds bad? It sure is, but, having gone through these experiences millions of times (a bit too ??? Oh well, whatever!), I have to realise 1 thing.
Not everyone has time for anyone. Some people have their circle of friends. Sometimes, you do not belong to some particular group, and you will feel left out. And when those people start contacting you for some purpose, you will feel that they are just looking for you to get what they want, and to achieve their aim…
Sometimes, people get caught in between 2 groups of friends. Yeah, it’s hard to make a decision, but one has to be made anyway. Opportunity cost, economists call it…
Of course, I am not killing everyone with one stroke of the bamboo pole (wahsey sounds chim). There are so-called “true friends” out there. Different people have different perceptions of “true friends”. Some take them as willing to help no matter what. Some take them as people whom they can share their problems with. Some are just friends having the same hobbies, same temperament, same ideas, and the list goes on… and on… and on… blah blah blah blah…
“True friends” can get neglected too… Yeah… I think I have lost a few over the years… oh man… got to get them back… hahaha… where are they? …
See? Looking for old friends when I need them… hahaha….
Ok, killed one subject (doesn’t matter who killed who), next!! Hahahaa… really happy mood… don’t know why also… think, must be this afternoon’s sun…
A visit to yf's blog reminded me of that CSS official opening ceremony, that musical production by the school. A very bad case of 'what-was-said-was-not-what-I-get'.
By 1998, I am already near the very high level of the AVA club (Hahaha.. I more enthusiastic for AVA than for Chess Club. More fun!), in terms of seniority at least. Well, sec 3 already! Then came the production. Quite looking forward to that actually, when it was first announced. Finally a production to take part in!
Yeah I took part. What I did? Or rather, what we did? Move that rostrum and flowers backstage after the speeches. The end.
And what was told to us before that, before everything started? Lightings and sound system.
And who 抢走我们的饭碗? The Choir people!!!!!!
Sometimes, I very anti-choir people, because of that principal who injected more money into it than any other ECAs (as they were called last time). And they went overseas every year! Of course, they had to fork out their own money, but that's an experience. Why am I working towards my past entry, where I said that sometimes, when you got the money, you get the experience… Oh well, back to topic.
The play. We stayed back to watch them rehearse. For what? Because we were told we will be involved. Days went past, we stayed in the control room, doing nothing. Note that at that time, there's no such thing known as “air con” in that room, only 2 fans. And one fine day, finally, we finally know that, we were not going to be involved in those electronic gadgets.
Too bad? No! If in the first place we were not going to be involved in those machines, what for we stayed back in the first place? To study for chemistry test in the control room?
No, it's not Mr Yong's fault. He did not know too. Oh well…
Ok, in the end we were given the task to move all those rostrum and plants to backstage after the speeches. Ok, we were still backstage crew. I have nothing to argue with that. But I don't like that guy who assigned us that job:
“Here comes the important people.”
Yeah, every backstage crew is important, I know that, no need to emphasize on that. Alright, he might mean well, trying to motivate (I studied MNO ok… oh no exams…), but at that time, I just felt that sentence was quite sarcastic. It's just the mood at that time, I hope… Yeah, I love working in teams, but certainly at that time, I did not like that team… But nevertheless, we did what we supposed to do (work ethics… ahh crappp) and the musical was a success.
It's been 7 years…
Yeah, talking about backstage, there was one time, when Mdm Aishah was the DM (after that “$-come” went off to somewhere), she had to scold all the students for failing to behave during assembly. At that time, I was in the control room, sitting in front of my favourite seat (Nearest to the lightings control panel). So, what I did? Switch it on, and put highest power at the spot where she was standing…. Hahaha….. in the end, she requested for us to off those lights. Yeah, those lights can be really hot… high intensity infra-red rays.. hahaha opps….
Last time, Mdm Aishah used to be living at the block next to mine, but she had since moved to another place… There was once when me and Herzberg were waiting for a bus at the bus stop near the church at Pandan, when she vroom past on her bike. Yeah she waved to us, and we waved back, and then we had some little discussion about “what ifs”, like, if she turned her head and drove into the drain or something like that…. hahahha
Yeah we were baaad…….
Hahah…. more stories next time. I've got a war to fight later…
Phew… just finished deleting around 100 SMSes from my phone! A really huge task, made simple by my bluetooth USB… hahaha.. Heng ar… or else it will take me at least half an hour to delete what I don’t want and what I want to keep.
Ok the problem with my login system is this. Sometimes, this will be shown instead of my login screen:
session_start(): Failed to initialize storage module
And most of the time, it’s around this time, at night. After exams then see how to correct this. And that is very irritating, especially when I have written a looooooong blog entry, and then something happened and that sentence is shown to me… then I will go )(@#*@#&!*!&@!@(*!
But smart me have learnt to select all, copy, before clicking on “update”…
Eh… not a very smart way to do things, but then, it’s for safety purposes.
After this exam, I shall see what else I can do… I still have not worked on HazelSky… oh well…. wait and see…
Tomorrow’s War Round 1. ?????
Realised that I have more Sunyanzi song in my hard disk than previously thought…
开始懂了
唱：孙燕姿 词：姚若龙 曲：李偲菘
我竟然没有调头 最残忍那一刻
静静看你走 一点都不像我
原来人会变得温柔是透澈的懂了
爱情是流动的 不由人的何必激动着 要理由
相信你 只是怕伤害我 不是骗我
很爱过谁会舍得
把我的梦摇醒了 宣布幸福不会来了
用心酸微笑去原谅了 也翻越了
有昨天还是好的
但明天是自己的开始懂了 快乐是选择
Tonight, I Feel Close To You
唱：孙燕姿，仓木麻衣
Close my eyes and feel your mind
Time has passed
I walk like a shadow
Never knew what I am going through
You touch my heart and take my breath away
Whisper on the wind so softly
Let the bright stars fill our dreams with love
Reach for your hand (You're holding my key)
And you show me the way
Tonight, I feel close to you
You open my door and light the sky above
When I need a friend, you are there right by my side
I wish we could stay as one
I wish we could stay forever as one
All the tears that haunt my past
You promised it'll be better tomorrow
Play that song
You and I listened to
And let it gently ease our pain
Tender rain drops from the blue sky
Flowers blooming, life is so divine
Like sunlight on a stream (You're holding my key)
You show the world to me
Tonight, I feel close to you
You open my door and light the sky above
When I need a friend, you are there right by my side
I wish we could stay as one
So much love in this beautiful world
Search for the brightest star in the sky
You will find the meaning of love
Don't be afraid (Don't be afraid)
Just be yourself (Just be yourself)
We need this love… I've never knew
Tonight, I feel close you
You open my door and light the sky above
When I need a friend, you are there right by my side
I wish we could stay as one
Tonight, I feel close to you
You open my door and light the sky above
When I need a friend, you are there right by my side
I wish we could stay as one
I wish we could stay forever as one
Well well…. hmm… it rained… but only for a while. What I want is a storm, and what I get is a drizzle. Well, this means that, whatever one wants doesn't mean that one will get…
No use forcing eh?
Alright! Decided! No more screaming, no more thinking! No more troubles, no more worries! Stop giving myself headaches when other people are enjoying, and they don't really care! No way!
Settled! That's it!
It's just me. Me! Me! Yeah!
Back to war…
I don't usually blog twice within 12 hours….
But I am very disturbed with something. Very.
Sometimes, I just feel that, I am a loser. Loser in everything. And I am continuing with it.
People say, yeah, admit defeat when you lose out to something more superior, and learn from mistakes. But how, you tell me, when the race haven't even start officially?
What can I do to turn the table? No answer.
If only I had a basketball with me now… I can take a break. But, no basketball has dropped from the sky this year also… And I am losing out in basketball also! I am losing out in terms of fitness too! I am turning into.. whatever!
My mind told me not to give up on anything, as the Belief is still strong, but, the Disbelief is taking over. And fast…
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Who says guys cannot scream?!
ok! I’ve proven the theory correct again! Whenever I am at home, there will be construction works here and there!
At the park downstairs, workers were busy “destroying” the track just to put in a pipe, and then “building” the track again! Lots of digging and compacting work going on. Then, just below where I am now, they were drilling the ceiling! I could feel my ground vibrating! And ofcourse, I blasted my speakers away… but still lost! Luckily it stopped at around 3pm, otherwise, I will be out of home, to where, I don’t know, but definitely not back in school.
If I go back to school, I will be spending more time travelling than on studies. I don’t have that special privilege of being “escorted” around. Yeah, I have that license, but I don’t even own a bicycle! Well done… One thing for sure, I won’t forget how to drive… What’s driving normally when one has the experience of driving in heavy rain while the instructor is sleeping. What’s driving normally when one has the experience of driving cross-terrian up the slopes, down the slopes, across the rivers, blah blah. What’s driving normally when one has the experience of driving up the kerb in camp, when the road was soooo big and wide. Opps…
And I am going out of point. I was talking about being “escorted” around. Yeah, the fastest timing by me to reach school is 30 minutes, using public transport. Quite an acceptable timing I think. Of course, if I drive or am “escorted”, that time will be cut by half, and possibly more…
Although at home, I will be spending more time doing “nothings” than revising, I still think that, it’s better than staring out of the window in buses.
Oh yeah, I went for my dental appointment at NUH on Monday. Typical 30-minute journey. Fulfilled my wish of walking in the rain. The rain got heavier TWICE and I thought of taking out my unbrella TWICE, and the rain died down TWICE while I was thinking of that! So, the rain liked me to be in the rain… ahh crappp…
The clinic opens at 2pm! Luckily I brought my Physics book along, so that I would not be caught looking at the cute girl working there… haha! Hmm… yeah that place is quite good for studies. No, not because of the good view…
Nothing wrong with knowing more friends around my age right? Hee..
And that girl working at the 7-eleven at JE has cut her hair! OMG! From long become short, but she looked good with that new hairstyle… It’s very interesting to note that, the 2 working around the 3pm shift wore braces too. So me, with braces, paying for my can of drink and newspaper to someone with braces… Hmm… what is the point here. No link.. Maybe not that interesting after all…
I am just crapping around! Oh man…
Been working on a new melody. Sounds familiar to me as usual…
Ok, they stopped work a while ago already. Peace… For the night…
Well, what a quiet morning, so I decided to on my receiver, and heard Sly's song on 933. Not bad. I remembered seeing his face at SoundBuzz.com, and so off I go…
A search for “Sly” returned no results (expected). Another search for “Sylvester Sim” gave me what I wanted. Click and click. I realised that I don't have membership with SoundBuzz, and so I signed up. Smooth and easy.
I chose 2 songs after previewing them, “所以” and “第一个原因”. His voice is like, a mix of David Tao and Jay Chou, but more towards David. I have been listening to them, and well, am I listening to David or Sly? Ok, not bad!
I took a look at the file's license, and it states:
This file can be played an unlimited number of times
Collaborative play for this file is not allowed
This file can be burned 3 more times
This file can be synchronized 3 more times
The license for this file can be backed up
Does that mean that, if I send this file to others, they will not be able to listen to it unless they have the license? Hmm…
Ok, overall shopping experience. Good, fast and easy. Payment is made to WorldPay, and it's very smooth. So easy, that I feel that it's too easy! Received a transaction receipt at my registered email address within 5 minutes. There's no mail confirming my account with SoundBuzz.com yet though.
When SoundBuzz started out, I cannot find any Chinese songs in it. At least now, I can see Sly, Coco, David, JJ, in it. It's improving.. yeah. But then, I will choose to buy the album if it comes with free gifts…
And talking about gifts, it's really very frustrated when you buy a CD one day and the next day, they come up with 庆功版, with all those DVDs and MORE freebies, and the early birds don't get them! Why??! I bought 梁静茹's 燕尾蝶, and out came a version bundled with DVD MVs! I bought 五月天's 神的孩子都在跳舞, and out came their calender-bundled version. I bought 王心凌's Honey, and after 1 month, out came the MV version. Makes me wonder if it's worth it, buying the CD at an earlier time. Ok, for 梁静茹's CD, I've got a poster. For 王心凌's, I've got a handphone accessory (used to have.. haha) and a file. 五月天? Nothing. Oh well…
Never mind. I will still support original. Stop pirates ok? But then, Pirates of the Caribbean 2 is coming, but that's another story, nothing to do with CDs and such…
Hmm…. $4 charged to my card…. hmmm…..
Online shopping reminded me of that survey last Friday. Easy money. $8. Go there, click click, and get the money. A very biased survey. I don't always go online shopping for flowers. And the question used words like “parents” and “friends”. Usually, people don't buy flowers for males? Or maybe it's just me? Never mind about that. I have just spent half the money on online shopping already…
Back to revision. HA. Still have to go dental later, at 2. Think I will just go for dental and back to home. Don't think I want to study in school. Or rather, don't think I will be able to find a suitable place to study. Or even better, don't think I will want to study alone in school. It feels so sianz, sitting there alone, inevitably watching others around you, mugging together, while there you are, alone. When taking a break, you have to bring the laptop along, and assuming people do not want your bag (or the stuff inside. They should not know what's inside!)…
Will it just rain? They I can cross the bridge at NUH in the rain… Interesting…
Siao…
