Everyone, including me, keeps secrets. Yeah. There’s nothing wrong with this. A secret, is not meant to be shared, unless, there’s mutual trust and understanding.
I have my own fair (or unfair, whichever way you choose to see things) share of secret trading. When I let a cat out of the bag, that person must have gained my 100% trust. I share secrets, in order to see things from others perspective.
But sometimes, this is not mutual. Yeah. Or rather, NEVER MUTUAL.
I simply hate it when someone knows something that I don’t know, and then, instead of finding out behind-the-scene (which is something I think I am extremely gifted in, especially online), I ask directly, and I get a wall.
Common replies that I get are as follows (in no order of hatefulness, in order of memory)
- 秘密
- you know know 1 la
- you don’t understand
- it’s a long story
- heehee
- bleahh
- you guess lor
When I get any of the above replies, the first emotion will be hurt, the second one will be anger. Maybe, it’s a mix. There’s something that I do not know, and I am not required to know. It’s like a missing piece of jigsaw puzzle. Actually, I won’t be angry, if the reply is one that has a bit of sincerity in it. I hate it when the reply is peppered with smugness, with arrogance. It’s like saying ” yeah I know something that you don’t know about. Neh neh ni bo bo.”
So be it. You can say that I am ill-tempered. I don’t care. This is Lk. Lk is kpo by default.
Maybe I am just…. not trustable enough.
Lk style is as follows: everyone deserves 80% trust. It’s easy to reduce this trust, and hard to rebuild it up once it’s lost.
Very, very hard.
Is there still anyone out there who can have my 100% trust?
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And I don’t know why, it’s been so long, and why are they still harping on suchthings? I have already told them the result, what else do they want?
The result is like this. No matter what you all trying to stir out, to encourage, to help, the result is still like this. I have spent time and energy trying to get into something, and now, I am trying to get out as soon as possible. It may take months, even years.
So please, I beg all of you jokers out there. STOP IT.
Lk is all out of luck this season. Lk is a sentimental piece of shit…
Sounds wrong, but who cares.