Skipped another swim session. Could not make it. Left office at 7pm.

Skipped.

Took MRT with calvin. Yeah.

Passed by BB. The time was 8pm.

Skipped.

…………………………………………

Got the letter today. Ok. Not much feelings, except that I can use that to clear off some debts here and there.

Looks like monetary motivation, is not really what I am looking for ultimately…

The strange thing is, no matter what, a balance is needed somewhere. You trade off something, in order to gain from something else.

For example…

You give up time, in order to learn something new.

You give up love, in order to focus on something else.

You give up hope, in oder to stop dreaming.

Etc…

Crap…

I just got reminded of the anime, full metal alchemist. “没有牺牲就没有获得 要想得到什么 就必须付出同等的代价”…

Well well…

…………………………………………

The song that was playing when I alighted from the bus, was 如果不想要, by Jolin. This song is from the “Lucky Number” album. Hmm… Nice song… quite sad too.

I tend to hit on songs that tell some story, every night before I reach my door steps. LOL…

Isn’t that great.

Yeah… 如果不想要,就不要.別假裝一切都好…

如果不想要

唱：蔡依林
词：？
曲：？

[verse 1]
你的視線　今晚有些改變　害怕你說出傷人的字眼
愛是苦辣酸甜　我都不能拒絕　陪你嚐一遍　無怨

[verse 2]
不想再見　卻又回到原點　掩飾不了雙眼流落的思念
愛是無路可逃　誰都不能忘掉　真實的擁抱　與哭嚎

[chorus]
如果不想要　就不要　別假裝一切都好
我也受不了　夢想太無聊　抓不住你的心跳
如果不想要　就不要　能這樣簡單多好
愛也愛夠了　傷痛太無聊　不要

[bridge]
夏天已過了　回憶有淚有笑　我站在失去你的街角