I have lots to say. But no one’s listening.
I have been on my own for so long. It’s starting to tire me out. Sometimes, it just feels strange, to be walking all over the place, alone, and with not much aim, just floating around, and wondering, what am I doing?
Often at night, when I am on my way home, I will look at the sky. Sometimes, I see clouds. Sometimes, I see stars. Occasionally, I see the moon. It feels so good to stare at the night sky.
“Stars, shiny shiny stars… twinkling twinkling stars…
Where is my love, whoever you are…”
Wahh… ok ok! Not emo mood ok… just random. Hahaha…
I have been living with the “life’s not fair” motto for quite some time. It’s always been like that. But then, we all do not know the final outcome. We do not know exactly the effect of whatever that has happened today, on tomorrow. We do not know the future.
And people say, plan for the future.
No, I don’t plan. I have tried spending lots of time thinking of what I want to do, and all my plans got disrupted due to one single happening. That is why, my decisions are often impromptu.
I work well with people who are somewhat like me. People who are flexible. People who don’t mind changes in plans. People who are just onz. And of course, I enjoy their company. It’s mutual, I think.
And sometimes, I think I care too much about others, so much that, I become the good guy. But no, I am a bad guy. There’s not much chance for me to show the world how bad I can be.
I am human. I need people to care about me too.
Does anyone care? Really? I don’t think so. It’s back to the same old question, about priorities. About choices. About preferences.
It’s just like, how, when I say something, some people can just never respond, while when another person say the same thing a while later, the response is spontaneous. It’s just like, how, when I say something, some people can just be pissed, while when another person say the same thing, the topic becomes a joke. And more, it’s just like, how, when I do something, people just negate my efforts, while when another person do the same thing, he/she gains credit. There are more, of course.
Eye, body, ears, head, legs, hands…
Life’s not fair, remember? And we won’t know the final outcome.
I think I am going mad. I need someone to save me. But I guess, only I can save myself, because nobody cares.
As usual. Lk. Saving himself from the darkness. Let there be Light…