It’s another emotionally disturbed night.
Well, things that don’t go my way, I have them all the time. I just had one just now.
It’s possible for a KTV outing of 14 being reduced to 9 within 1 hour.
We had choices the day before. We were given a room for a minimum of 8 people. Somehow, the number of people grew to 14. I changed to a room for a minimum of 12. And what did I get today?
I really do not know to laugh, to be pissed off, or to be sad.
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LAUGH
Laugh, perhaps because I am always facing such problems. To laugh, means, to laugh at myself.
Laugh at myself, for being so stupid, to upgrade a small room to a big one, and believing that everyone who agreed to be there, will be there.
Laugh at myself, for believing in others.
Laugh at myself, big time.
PISSED OFF
Pissed off, perhaps because things happen at the last minute. To be pissed off, means, to be pissed off with myself.
Pissed off with myself, for not confirming with them in the afternoon. Those changes of minds came at the last moment.
Pissed off with myself, for being so nice to actually try to organize such things, and this was what I get in the end.
Pissed off with myself, big time.
SAD
Sad, perhaps because things did not turn out the way I wanted them to be. To be sad, means, to be sad with myself.
Sad with myself, for such things to happen.
Sad with myself, for being so nice.
Sad with myself, big time.
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In the end, what happened? Imagine, how will you like it, if you got to pay for 12 people, even when you only got 8? Let’s leave out the 9th person, as he came down as fast as he could, even though he had been busy.
If you are paying for 12, even when there’s 8, automatically, something will come to the mind.
Just fucking cancel it.
Consequences? Lots. I may just have earned myself an entry into a blacklist. It’s bad for people who actually turned up.
It’s just not fair.
But then, since when things have been fair to me?
No.
I am tired. But who cares.
Let me just put everything behind me. Make it a lesson learnt. Strange, but I have learnt this lesson long ago. I just keep on repeating the same old error.
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So how to prepare for things that don’t go your way?
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Just do more things, and see more things that don’t go your way. You will get used to it eventually.
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Who did we had today at PartyWorld @ Liang Court?
Pamela, Mandy, Josephine, Qiuxiang, Sean See, Yao Hua, Benjamin Feng, and Steven. And me.
Sang lots of songs! I just love duets! But some duets are just damn hard!
But I kissed goodbye to “Kiss Goodbye”. The song never got to be played. Too bad.
And so the 9 of us sang till the last song.
Thanks for all your on-ness!