Morning sian-ness.
Rest a while.
I thought I will be able to complete this semester with a different mood. I was wrong. I thought I will be able to do extremely well for this semester. I was wrong. I thought I will be able to accept. I was wrong.
I was wrong about many things. Too many to be listed. It takes too much time. If it was possible, I would like to go all the way back to secondary school. Lower secondary, and stay there for a while.
Looks like my mood and feelings for this semester is still the same as any other semesters. No change. And it looks like some things, I will never understand.
Frames shall remain empty. Stars shall remain capped. Seeds shall remain buried. People change. Me too.
For people who do not know much, please, update yourselves. Focus has changed, or rather, reduced. It's better to pull back a little.
But I have not wake up completely.
Last time, I used to go through exams thinking of happy things that may happen in the future, after the exams. This time, what can I think of? My mind has been robbed of a dream. Suddenly, it's empty.
I don't even have the mood to write new stuff already. Lyrics, musics. No.
It's scary. It's hard to concentrate and remain happy when there's no aim in mind. No goals. No objectives. It's like studying for an empty cause.
But nevertheless, I shall survive. Even without my dream, I shall stand firm.
* close eyes *
Let me be.