Yeah, I guess, sometimes, I really don't understand. Why things are done this way and not the other, why decisions are made this way, why choices are picked this way…
It's just how people see things.
People see things differently. For example, a simple conversation in someone's daily activity may be seen as something more in another person's perceptive. A normal dinner may be seen as a candlelight dinner…
Many things… shows, outings, rides, walks, etc etc etc…
I look around, and I see things the way I see them. People who really care, will try to explain. People who don't, never mind. I try not to mind. But don't start blaming me and say that I don't understand. I AM trying to understand. YOU are the one who's preventing me from understanding.
Why? Who will bother to explain things to me, once they have labelled me with a flag that writes “one who doesn't understand”? Who will really care about such things? So what?
Ok…. stay calm, boy… that's no need to be so worked up…
But, it hurts…
Went to school for a make-up tutorial. Quite ok I think. I like the way the tutor explains things. I think he can go and become a very good lecturer. He will get a very good appraisal from me in April I guess.
Actually, all my tutors are good this sem! Wow… Now I will have a fun time writing appraisals…
After that make-up, we went to have lunch at Engin canteen, and then went up to the lab. Lab opened only at 1.45pm, and we sat at the bench outside, doing whatever things we wanted. Went in, and I completed my soldering of the 2 wires. I was playing around with programming till 5pm. Went over to Co-op to walk around, and bought semi-log graph paper for any future uses. Stayed around Arts till about 6.30pm, just sitting there, talking crap, enjoying the breeze, and at the same time, thinking of nonsense. Wondering. Prediction. Hypothesis. Intuition.
Going home was smooth traffic. I reached the Archi bus stop, and 1 minute later, 188 came. I alighted after the bus turned into the expressway, and 97 was right behind. Got off at JE library and walked around, to 7-Eleven. Bought a can of root beer. I seldom buy drinks that are so sweet. I only drink very sweet drinks when I am having some siao siao problems here and there… it's a replacement for coffee ice blended. Auntie Bee Choo (today then knew her name) asked me to fill in the duno-wat card… seen before, but did not really fill in… I just fill 1 in for her lor.. heehee… next time fill for the rest.. wahaha
143 came when I was still drinking root beer. Drank fast, and boarded the bus. Home.
I still don't know what I am really doing.