Clear screen. CLS. Dos command. Learnt during Sec 1, in a computing class.
Wished that I can also run this command in my system. CLS. Forget everything. Start from origin. Erase all traces, all histories, all experiences. Revert to the past.
Wished that I had not done a project using HTML in sec 2. Wished that I had not had my SingNet account in sec 3. Wished that I had not gone into IRC on a Saturday afternoon that year. Wished I had not started on my webpage. Wished that I had not signed up for a ICQ account. Wished I have not learnt HTML, JavaScript, ASP, and PHP. Wished I had not registered the domain apptika.net a few years ago. Wished I had not registered Commonwealthian.Net. Wished I had not used EnchantedLove.Net as my main webpage and contact email. Wished I had not upgraded my computer during NS. Wished I had not brought the electronic keyboard. Wished I had not ….
So what's the point of saying so much? They have all happened. CLS don't work in real life.
No, I can't hate. I can't bring myself to. I may be angry with a person for 1 day, but I can't maintain my anger for more than 48 hours (so far)… I've been called 'Roger Rabbit', 'Teacher's Pet' in primary school. I've ever lost a few hundred dollars. I've even allowed someone to steal my 2-week-old handphone at night in camp, without me finding out whoever that person was.
So what? I cannot be angry all the time. I cannot be angry with myself too. I am just trying to be myself, and while being myself, I choose to believe in everyone. Yes, sometimes, people will tend to disappoint me, but what can I do?
Forgive them, since CLS don't work in real life…
You can pile things up, but deep inside, you know that particular thing is still there. Invisible, yet visible… not displayed, but stored vividly in memory…