I just happen to look at one of my 2003 entries, and I just can't stop myself from reading more. By looking through them, I find some things that I have forgotten. I almost forgot that M113 incident. I almost forgot that forced offs and leaves. I almost forgot some really important information about myself.
Say it out. It feels lighter that way.
That's one of the sentences that I have come across in my entries. Yes, say it out. But saying needs courage. Yes, I think I have the courage, but there's one more thing: Is there anyone interested to know? It's no use telling everything to a wall, and the wall just throw everything back at you milliseconds later… Yes, chances from people. Time for listening. Needed. If not, what's the point of saying it out…
I wanted to say something, but I am not granted an audience…
Life is full of choices, and most of the time, we can only choose one of them…
Another qoute that I have found. True. One cannot be greedy. One must learn to be contented. One have to stand by his decisions. Do not be brought around by some people who just don't care about you. Have your own stand. Have your own views. Make the choice that you think is the right one for you. Choose the path that best suits you, not your friend, not your buddy. They have their own paths to take.
What's my path? I think it's still covered with think snow, cold fog, and fallen leaves. I am still waiting for the sun to be up, to warm up the fog, to melt the snow, so that the water will wash away the leaves…
Back from JI for 1 day. Gonna go back later in the afternoon…
I love these types of long-duration stuff. It gives me lots of time to think… to decide… to plan…
Thinking of writing some lyrics about deciding to give up waiting or something similar. Maybe that's what I have been thinking about. I am not sure. The idea just pop out suddenly.
Later, perhaps…