Nice view…

Morning was a crazy rainy day! The rain was soooo heavy, I felt like sleeping already! Why was I awake? Hmm…

Anyway, met up with sally this morning to get all the handphones for her bf. ZZzzz. 1 sony ericsson, 1 nokia, 1 samsung, and… ONE NOKIA CHARGER… So interesting hor.. 3 phones, 1 charger. LOL… I still sms-ed her to confirm the contents inside the bag. She replied ‘yes, thanks’.

Ok lor… good luck to calcal. LOL.

Drove back to office in the afternoon. I felt like a delivery man. LOL. Delivered 2 empty biscuit tins, 1 computer, and 1 spoilt hardware. Brought back 1 screen, 2 full biscuit tins, some instant drink mix…

Saw the new girl. LOL… finally she has joined our team. Ok lor… only a simple hello la. No time to talk crap yet. LOL..

And then, once back at site, it’s shit job time as usual. I have emailed 5 suppliers regarding hardware issues, and I managed to get 3 back. Still 2 more. I need more information. LOL…

At least, some things work today. Heh.

Drove the van home today. Went to Esso at west coast to top up. I just love it when the van has a full tank. It just flies. Since I was at esso, I was too sianz to drive somewhere else to buy dinner, and so, I ended up buying my dinner there: polar puffs, and almond drink.

Yeah. 9pm already. Anyone in the right mind would have already eaten their dinner.

Ok, I need to sleep soon I guess.

I think… I will share a photo in the next post …

Peace… is when… writing software at a speed where no one will believe it can be done in such short time.

Peace… is when… doing testing at a speed where no one will think it is achievable.

Peace… is when… completing things in a way where no one will negate what you have done.

Peace… simply… is when… no one disturbs you.

But…

You get to disturb others.

LOL…

Crap…

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Went to Ichiban with LT for dinner just now! Hahah… I really love soups. Heh. I will always try to order something with soup. Hmmm…

Yeah I really love soups. LOL.

Ate, and then went Giant to buy 2 plastic drawers to be brought to YC. I want to test a new thingy. See if it works there. Heh…

And now… home. Stone lor…

Sleep…

Oh well. It’s saturday once again.

I am tired.

Worked till 8+pm. Then went west mall to eat with lt. Was too tired to really want to enjoy my food, so gobbled all down.

Even the sticky chewy chocolate felt so wrong…

Yeah. Home after that.

I am tired.

Tomorrow’s, or rather, later’s plan. Suntec. And then tennis most probably.

Wahh… had dinner with xinli just now wor… at TCC leh… nice place to stone leh… should go there stone more often wor.. lol!

Yeah…

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This morning, while walking to the mrt station, I saw someone familiar walking damnnnnnnnnnnnn fast leh. Like floating like that. Yeah lor, not the first time liao. But usually I will not bother to chase after that someone la, as usually this early, I will be taking the east bound train. LOL… But today, since I was going to bukit batok, I decided to chase lor…

It’s a task to chase leh… At one point in time, she actually RAN lor… wahliew…

Anyway, if you all see some girl walking damn fast at JE MRT Station, she might just be lin xinli.

Yeah lor. Managed to get into the same mrt. Then talk-talk abit lor… heh… then… I alighted at bukit batok la… 废话.

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And so, I ended up at BB super early. And so, I went to NTUC for some morning shopping. Bought pokka carrot fruit juice, a choco-banana pokey, a blackcurrent ricola…

And then, I nice cup of warm soya milk…

Oooo…

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Breakfast was at the same coffee shop again! Today, I had LONTONG! LT had mee rebus! Heh…

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Working on crap stuffs in the morning, as usual. Then lunch was at T3. Saw a damn familiar face while waiting over there. I think her name’s joanna. 1 year senior, nus. Duno… maybe. LOL.

No. I don’t know her. Wahaha!!

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More crap till the evening. And then fly down to suntec to meet xinli lor… Initially I already had this plan to jio her for dinner today, as I did ask her recently about meeting for dinner. And since I saw her this morning, and she mentioned it… why not? LOL… Yeah… once committed to a dinner, I had a reason to run away from site… LOL…

Yeah. It’s nice to meet up with old friends… This one’s  a friend since… when ar? 12 years ago? LOL…

kaoz.. was supposed to be sleeping by 12am last night, and I ended up sleeping at around 1am.

Then I woke up this morning at 6am.

Arghhhh…

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LT and I had almost conquered the coffee shop next to bedok 85. We had breakfast there on monday, tuesday, and today! There’s this hongkong dim sum stall that sells bao and some dim sum… mmm… not bad la. Hahaha… then there’s this lor mee and prawn noodle stall… yummy… and then there’s this prata stall also… ooo…

Next, there’s still a malay stall, a vegetarian stall, and a noodle stall! The cai fan stall doesn’t open so early, so that’s 1 stall that we will not be able to test…

Hahaha!

Morning breakfast, anyone?

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Went for a team gathering this evening. It was a farewell dinner for the IA students. So fast 6 months already…

I have been working, and working, and working, and days, weeks, months, just fly past…

All the things I have missed. All the things I have gained. All the things I have lost.

All the things, are so precious to me, in one way or another. And I appreciate each and every one of them.

LOL.

What will be, will be.

快乐是选择。。。 =)

我选择快乐。 快乐会选择我吗？快乐会嫌弃我吗？快乐会讨厌我吗？

干嘛。。。快乐就快乐呀！想那么多干嘛？！

开始懂了

唱：孙燕姿
词：姚若龙
曲：李思菘

我竟然没有调头
最残忍那一刻
静静看你走
一点都不像我
原来人会变得温柔
是透澈的懂了
爱情是流动的
不由人的
何必激动着要理由
相信你只是怕伤害我
不是骗我
很爱过谁会舍得
把我的梦摇醒了
宣布幸福不会来了
用心酸微笑去原谅了
也翻越了
有昨天还是好的
但明天是自己的
开始懂了
快乐是选择

Happy thoughts, to make one happy?

Tried last time. It lasted as long as the thoughts are there. LOL!

Don’t think about it? Impossible!

Wahhahaa…

I think, I will redefine my Belief.

Yeah.

Ok, I shall change my BLOG LOOKS soon.

* kaoz.. random siaz*

Looking from another angle, now I am more like myself. Heh heh heh…

It’s nice to block out all nonsense from my ears, and blast the music at crazy volume, and just look at my computer screen. I did not care what’s happening around me, and I did not really want to know. I just want to hide in my own world for a while, to stone, to really complete what I wanted to do.

Work, is something that I think I can do. Others, I think I can forget it.

And so, I listed to Linkin’ Park, Jocie, Jay, and Mayday, and then some instrumental albums, and stared at my screen non-stop for hours.

And I still did not manage to finish what I wanted to finish.

Stayed at YC till around 8pm. Trouble-shooting shit once again. It’s so fun to do things when the sun goes down, and everything gets dark eventually, and you risk all sorts of things like insect bites, slippery floors, items placed on the floor but were too dark to be seen, etc.

Went to bukit panjang. Was too sianz to be always taking cab at tanah merah to go home, and somemore alone. It’s already sianz enough, no thanks. And so, ate alone at LJS. The stupid timing was too stupid to find a makan buddy.

It’s hard to find makan buddies nowadays. Everyone has his/her priorities.And maybe, it’s my fault too: I keep finding the wrong buddy.

I was so sianz, that I decided to eat in. Ate the sawadee set. Ok la… tasted like tomyam…

And then, took cab home, alone. Sianz.

Maybe that’s what I am good at: being alone.

Tomorrow… more shit. I am not looking forward to tomorrow. It’s not just tomorrow. It’s every tomorrow. I feel so unmotivated. I feel so tired. I feel so sianz. I feel so unhappy. I feel so irritated. I feel so pissed. I feel so sad.

See… so negative. This, is the real Lk, maybe. With so much negative thoughts, I wonder how I still managed to smile everyday…

How fake.

Had dinner with weiya just now. A bit… strange wor…

I have not seen her for quite some time. But then, she was like… in some faraway land sometimes… It just felt strange. Maybe she had some unspeakable things in her mind that she was going through. Hope she’s ok ba…

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Overall monday was alright. Had so much fun rerouting the cables all over the place. And had fun removing a hardware for repair. And had fun tracing dangling cables. And had fun fixing a loose cable. And had fun tightening screws.

So much fun for a day. What a monday.

KNS.

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Monday was a bad day for programming. I totally had no idea what I was doing in front of the computer. I was staring at it. Wrote something, and then negate that myself. WTH. It’s bad! It’s a total waste of time. That’s why I ended up doing those fun things that were described earlier.

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I don’t know, but having no expectations, make me a very cold person. That’s how I feel. But who cares how I feel?

Who cares if I knock my leg against the hard edge of the engine compartment? Who cares if I start feeling numb on my knees? Who cares if I am hurt?

No one. Despite that, I will go on. I am strong. I believe I am.

Initially I wanted to sleep, but then, after thinking for a while, I want to play some piano instead. Damn it.

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After thinking through again, I think I shall only play abit of piano. Then sleep.

Yeah, timing is not important. Who cares what time I play piano, what time I sleep, what time I eat. Who cares whose timing?

The key… is never about time.

Never mind. No one understands. That’s absolutely normal for messages that are passed by me.

Played tennis in the afternoon. Like shit. LOL…

Ok la.. not bad la. Still got balls to hit.

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If I say that I am not disappointed, will anyone believe?

Maybe.

I am that type. Happy-go-lucky. Whatever will be, will be. Whatever that will not, put an end to it. End the sufferings, be it one-sided or what.

How long will I take to recover? Soon.

Somehow, as one gets rejected more and more frequently, things get easier to accept.

And it’s also not easy for me to like someone.

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Resetting expectations to none. Reconfiguring actions and beliefs. Sending all previous actions to the recycle bin. Restoring hope.

The sky… is quiet once again…