Belief@HazelCafe

Alright, end of Maths. Got 1 question wrong. Finished the others. Stupid mistake. Told myself to take note of that type, yet I have fallen into the same old trap. I must be sleeping… Argh.. whatever. It's over! Now let's go on to the next one: Physics.

OK, the wall of Physics is still quite high. That's the subject with the most traps. The higher you climb, the further you will fall if you are not careful (what logic is this??)…

I was actually doing programming lab 2 part 1 when I was supposed to do revision for Physics… I am always like this… haha… Well, did the idea just now at the library. Finished it up a while ago. It works, so far. I've added in some fun also. Lots of ideas that can be implemented, but I guess I shall not modify too much. Was actually thinking of doing some form of statistics display after a number of games played in a session to find out who's a better player and all that crap, but I guess not. Maybe next time.)

Now, back to Physics…

Update? Yeah on Belief…

Just managed to migrate my database over to merge with ELove Blogs. Makes it easier for me to manage my blog next time.

If this blog gets updated and displayed correctly, it means that I have successfully updated all my pages to suit the new location.

Well done then…

Wow.. Maths test later? Gonna be interesting! Heehee… Maths is not a nightmare, not until I see the paper later. Hopefully it don't kill. Tomorrow's Physics, however. Think that will kill me…

We shall see… no point concentrating on Physics and doing badly for it right?

Never mind the cold. Never mind the darkness. Never mind the chaos. Never mind the bitterness.

Looks like I am still me… after all these years, after NS, after passing the 21 mark.

Which may be good.

Me, as in, always relaxed mood, no matter what event. Me, as in, always doing things at the wrong time. Me, as in, always thinking of 'what ifs'.

I just have this tendency to touch on webpages when there's tests or exams nearby. I did that during 'O' and 'A' Levels too, if I did not remember wrongly. And now, I am touching on ELove Blogs. Think it's worst this time. I was actually doing Physics when tomorrow's Maths test…

Never mind. Never mind. Never mind…

Alright, back to Maths. I love Maths, but I hate it when I do not know what I am doing…

Looks like Programming Lab 2 part 1 is out already. So interesting… tic tac toe.

Studied for the whole afternoon at NUS central library. At least now, more information are getting into my head.

While having lunch with Emmanuel, Yingzi, and her friend, I found out some unknown facts. Yingzi had went to PJC! Oh know… and I always thought she was in SA… Opps… but then, her friend (what's her name again..) was from S81, but I had never seen her before (neither did she)! Well… I shall go and flip through the year book once more.

Reached Chapter 9 of the textbook. I hope to finish Chapter 10 by tonight, so that tomorrow, I can start trying out the questions, Maths included. Till now, I received no news about Maths test. Wishful thinking is that they have forgotten about it. The information should come by tomorrow. Let's hope it will come before Wednesday morning.

Just realised this morning that it's quite impossible for me to convert all my original CDs to MP3 format and store them into 1 single CD-ROM! Wow… didn't know I had so much songs. I only managed to squeeze in half of my original collection. Still waiting for F.I.R's CD package, and considering Fish's new album. Sounds nice.

Yes, I download them, but I support original too. What I did this morning was to create a backup copy of the songs ok. CDs tend to go bad over time you know…

Stupid reason.

Another day at the library tomorrow maybe…

It was a nice and sunny day, until late morning. The sky cleared up a bit after that, however. It was a good day to play bball.

Let me count how many times I was hit by something.
(1) Ball hit just below the eye. Still a bit painful. Hopefully it will not swell up..
(2) Ball hit face. Almost the same place. Managed to siam a bit, so less injuries.
(3) Hand hit mouth. Junguang’s hand! He used one hand to hit the ball away, and his the other one was dancing freely around. I was just beside him.
Ok, 3. Plus 1 more. Nearly sprained my ankle and right fingers. Not a very safe day for bball eh? But I survived, so nothing much then…

Ok, about yesterday. Went back to school to study. Was supposed to meet someone for lunch, but due to some unforseen circumstances… Never mind. ????. Emmanuel was around. So was Benjamin.

Maybe I should not have asked. Somehow I knew somewhere, that the outcome will be this way…

If Emmanuel and Ben were not around that day…

Why couldn’t I put in Physics information into my head that afternoon at the central library…

Argh. Forget it.

Attempted to cook udon this afternoon! I think I used too big a piece of chicken stock, and the soup was… erm… quite undrinkable. And due to time contrain, the noodles were not very well cooked too. But overall, it’s nice! This is attempt #4 for japanese food! First one was maki sushi, second was soba noodles, third was the hard hard green tea ice cream, and now, udon. What’s next?

Was reading through Physics for the whole afternoon. See stars. Tried the WebAssign. More stars…

Anyway, I will be leaving soon… but let me finish 1 more question…

Yeah, added in 2 pics into my photo section! It's under a new heading, called 'NUS'. There are only 2 photos there, but at least they are there… About Poseidon photos, they are in Yahoo! Groups, and the quality being used there was… erm… appalling! Not Yahoo's fault lah… they need to save on space.

Was supposed to work on ELove this afternoon… well…zzz

Ok, going to school tomorrow!!! Lunch anyone eh?

Oh yeah, people don't worry yeah. I just liked to complain about lots of things over here. And I did say before: I cannot hate or be angry for more than 24 hrs. See? Unless something/someone really really really really disappoints me lots, so much that I cannot take it. Yesterday's case was only around… 10-15%? Small case…

Yes. It's over. No more KBox as OG outing later. What an exciting news.

No point. It's always Junrong, Lionel and me. The rest? Up to them.

This is a fact we have to accept. Free and easy package. Pick it up when you are interested. Drop it elsewhere when you are tired of it.

Initially, we thought we are the constants, and the rest belong to the equation of a circle, or eclipse. From further observation, I think that we 3 are more like dependent power sources, giving out energy only when there's other sources joining in to give an initial boost.

Never mind. I hate to organise things. Especially when things go the wrong way.

I was supposed to read up on my electrical notes. See what I have done. Nothing. Spent time discussing about it. Spent time asking people the same questions over and over again. It's been 1 week. Hello, people took 1 week to decide against the idea. What a fast decision.

Guess I shall just save on my SMSes. I think I will prefer sending out crap SMSes to people then sending questions and waiting for replies. Like a despo idiot.

See? Now I have to spend even more time writing all these out.

Someone commented on my previous entry. Well, sort of explained it. But not exactly the way I should have explained it. Maybe… not sure… somehow surprised when you came asking about it…

Friday. Engin Day. Haiz…

Clear screen. CLS. Dos command. Learnt during Sec 1, in a computing class.

Wished that I can also run this command in my system. CLS. Forget everything. Start from origin. Erase all traces, all histories, all experiences. Revert to the past.

Wished that I had not done a project using HTML in sec 2. Wished that I had not had my SingNet account in sec 3. Wished that I had not gone into IRC on a Saturday afternoon that year. Wished I had not started on my webpage. Wished that I had not signed up for a ICQ account. Wished I have not learnt HTML, JavaScript, ASP, and PHP. Wished I had not registered the domain apptika.net a few years ago. Wished I had not registered Commonwealthian.Net. Wished I had not used EnchantedLove.Net as my main webpage and contact email. Wished I had not upgraded my computer during NS. Wished I had not brought the electronic keyboard. Wished I had not ….

So what's the point of saying so much? They have all happened. CLS don't work in real life.

No, I can't hate. I can't bring myself to. I may be angry with a person for 1 day, but I can't maintain my anger for more than 48 hours (so far)… I've been called 'Roger Rabbit', 'Teacher's Pet' in primary school. I've ever lost a few hundred dollars. I've even allowed someone to steal my 2-week-old handphone at night in camp, without me finding out whoever that person was.

So what? I cannot be angry all the time. I cannot be angry with myself too. I am just trying to be myself, and while being myself, I choose to believe in everyone. Yes, sometimes, people will tend to disappoint me, but what can I do?

Forgive them, since CLS don't work in real life…

You can pile things up, but deep inside, you know that particular thing is still there. Invisible, yet visible… not displayed, but stored vividly in memory…