Belief@HazelCafe

Ok, 12am, 10 February 2007. There goes 9 Feb. Till date, I have had 23 days of 9 Febs…

When the clock strikes 12, it's time to evaluate what happened throughout this 9 Feb.

My initial plan was to have a slack 9 Feb this year, but due to unforseen circumstances (a lab, which somehow could not be placed anywhere else, and a project discussion), I had no choice but to make 9 Feb my most siong day for the current semester: 9am to 8pm.

Nothing much happened today, After the lab, we went to buy Subway. Then Joan called jh, saying that she and Edwin were at YIH… oh well, she called a bit too late, and we ended up eating our subway at the canteen. Initially, we were thinking of going back to engin and find a place to eat and stone…

After the lunch break, we went over to Career Fair. The most enthusiatic people were the finance sector, who were always here and there talking to people. Somehow, I don't really believe in me having a career in the finance sector, and definitely not in sales. Got some goodies here and there. That's all. I kept it short.

Lecture was, as usual, seeing stars. But I have to say that, after the morning lab, I understand slightly more…

Discussion was ok. They bought a slice of cake for me. Wow… so good… aw…

Thanks everyone…

When the clock strikes 12, everything will be history…

What I have got this year…

• Someone who was so kiasu to send out a bday card wayyyyyyy before February!
• A slice of chocolate banana cake, but not from Secret Recipe.
• A bday song from the EE3001 choir.
• Lots of smses, which kept me busy replying with 'haha thanks'.
• "Hugs and kisses" from someone.
• Being blogged about for bday… somehow it's like "i am the 1st to hit 24" sort of post… lol
• Incident-free and peaceful day.

What I failed to get this year…

• bday greeting reply from my twin. I think he might have stopped using that number. Never mind.
• "Hugs and kisses" from someone else, who refuses to do so. Never mind.

I have to re-iterate this point? I believe in hugs and kisses. Anywhere, Anytime. *hugs and kisses*. Simple.

I am an Aquarian anyway.

When the clock strikes 12, everything… is over.

24. Joining JR in the 2 dozen club… oh well. Any welcome gifts? Lol…

Wahahaha… once again, this topic will be here to stay until I (if I ever, that is) graduate and become a non-single.

Read in today's Urban. Oooo… There's one guy that has not have a gf for the past 28 years. Maybe I will reach this target in 4 years time. Yay.

Hmmm… is the above a self-proclaimed proudness, or a hidden failure? It depends on how to see it. I prefer the former. Lol…

Just… please don't give me the *stunned* look when you ask, and I say that I have not ever have a gf for the past 24 years. Lol… anyway, I might even find your stunned look amusing, and maybe so amusing that I might just take a shot of it and post it online or something like that.

Title for that photo? "Girl/Boy stunned at comment". No no. I need a more attractive name. Maybe, "ABC stunned for 1 week at comment". Sounds better.

To singles, soon-to-be-singles, already-singles, never-doubles out there, we all know that it's hard to remain single nowadays, unless you become a nun or monk, therefore, we have to be proud to be the minority few in this loving world.

Wahaha… lame consolation? Or what?

Never mind.

As usual, I say, I shall see how. I do not want anything, because what I want, I do not get. And so, I just leave things to fate. People that I am supposed to meet (first, or again), I will, sooner or later.

Lalalalaa…

Happy V-Day in advance!

Anyway, V-day is a huge market, even though it's only 1 day. It's the time when demand for flowers increases so much that there may be shortages, therefore the increase in price to control the demand. Venders get supplier surpluses that may be enough for them to sustain for the rest of the year (wahaha maybe).

The next thing to find: any complements (besides chocolates and bears) and substitutes (cheaper ones) for V-Day? Go find… Lol… and start earning some cash to pay Mr Law in the future…

I have to say this everytime, until the bus services improve significantly.

I rushed to the bus stop a few minutes before 6pm, only to see a full 183 bus that did not even bother to stop. Next I saw 188. No stopping. 33 was quite empty. Then another 188, which was also full, and a 183 that also refused to stop, and a 183 that stopped, but I could not get up. I only managed to get up the next one.

The time was around 6.30pm.

Yes, the waiting time was certainly less than 15 minutes per bus. But who cares about waiting times when I cannot even get up the bus and reach home by 7pm?!

They had 183A in the morning. Why not 183A in the evening too?

That's why I hated to go home at 6pm. It's either before 6, or after 7. But I do not want to stay in school. Not alone.

My life is already so boring, why add more boring stuffs to it?

And so, I reached JE only after 7pm. Had to have dinner alone (as usual), so I bought duck rice, and luckily the packing was fast, and I managed to board the 143 home.

Throughout the journey, I was listening to Tanya's "Beautiful Love" (don't know why, I just think the lyrics and tune are nice), and blasting some Linkin Park's old songs, some Nightwish, and 1 Muse, and some dunno-where-they-come-from mp3s.

Volume? 14/30.

If some people see things as simple, actually, how do they come up with the result 'simple'? The outcome is never simple. It's really complex. if it's that simple, we will be having computers that think for themselves.

Fuzzy logic. That's why we have that, because we want computers to think like us.

The outcome of 'simple', when we look at things, is a rather straight-forward one. But then, if you start thinking of how you come to that conclusion, then it's going to be slightly different story. The conclusion 'simple' can make up of different things. It has a range too. And it's relative. Some things that I see as simple might be a mountain for another person, vice versa.

So, is simple really simple? I doubt it. It depends.

Highly dependent on other factors.

If you think the above is NOT simple enough, then maybe, you need to figure out your own logic or what.

I don't understand either. If I understand, I won't be here writing all these crap.

No idea for tunes and lyrics nowadays. No mood, no inspiration, no idea.

Because I am boringgggg… I am boredddddddd…

So sianzzzzzz…

Some things that I have bought last week…

It's time to change the overgrip to one from Wilson, for the tennis racket. The old one gave me blisters…

Time to see clearly in and out of the pool! New Speedo goggles…

And time to go back to school with a brown canvas shoes from Converse… Yay… Duhz…

Anyway, E3 classroom is cold…

Lalala…

Just let me freeze alone, while the 2 take their own sweet time to get over from biz, and 1 to slowly take the bus from science…

Freeze…

This looks familiar, but, whatever…

Your Hidden Talent

You're super sensitive and easily able to understand situations. You tend to solve complex problems in a flash, without needing a lot of facts. Decision making is easy for you. You have killer intuition. The right path is always clear, and you're a bit of a visionary.

So, don't blame me for being over-sensitive. I am preloaded with this 'ability'.

Siao.

Life today in school was boring. The most interesting thing was to receive an sms that is not supposed to be sent to me. it's interesting, because, when someone actually sends out a wrong sms to you, and it's sort of a negative one, sometimes, the negative comment is actually about you, and someone else is complaining about you, and the person who is trying to reply is giving advice.

Heh… please read the above. I am super-sensitive. Lol…

For each happenings, for each sms, for each msn message, for each tagged message, for each call, for each and every one of them unreplied, I will look further for a reason. I have learnt not to jump into conclusions, but then, let's not try to avoid the truth too much…

Reached home and stoned for some time already. it's time I take a look and some school stuff.

Monday, gone. Soon.

Online life is getting more and more complicated.

People who are away, but the status do not reflect. People who are not away, but are always away. People who are busy, but still can chat. People who are hiding in offline mode, and thanks to the new software, be able to chat with specific people.

It's a complex world after all.

Maybe that's why I don't seem to see anyone online… or anyone that I am trying to msn.

Anyway, some pics to upload. Another day perhaps. Too sianz to do anything else now. Got to sleep early, and then go to school to attend a one-hour lecture/tutorial, and slack for 3 hours, then FNA tutorial, and FNA lecture, and that's it.

Boring.

But I can see stuffs are starting to pile up, overlapping deadlines, tests…

The good news: I will be having 2 tests (same subject) on v-day.

The best news (3 days ago). FNA make-up will be on v-day evening.

The world's most exciting truth (erm.. -.-"): The above 2 are mutually exclusive with reference to me.

Yay! Wahaha!!! Hail all singles! May we rule the earth!

Ok. Siao.

Hmmm… nothing much happened actually lor…

Wednesday. Went for the GEK lab. Quite interesting to learn more excel functionalities that I did not know previously. Fun. Lol… After that, went for the lecture alone. Hmm… quite boring, one being alone and one being the lecturer's being montone… zzz almost fell asleep. After that, went for IPPT. Now at Maju, it's completely computerised! Oooo I love OTOT stations… Hahahhaa….

Still fail anyway. Lol…

Thursday. Went for project meeting, and then tennis. Tore off the grip after the game. It's time to change one. Supposed to have lunch with Grace and the others, but then, due to a schedule clash with Ruifu and boss and Emmanuel meeting, I had to forgo that. Aw… So Grace ate lunch with Ben and Lionel #2. Opps… Grace ar, another time k?

Me, Law, and Ben stoned at YIH Lounge after that. Shiok ar. Then in came Edwin Joan and Richard. Ben went for lecture, and we ended up playing some siao game there… Ed and Joan meeting Grace for some discussion, and Richard had cheerleading… oOooo…

Left with Law at 5.30pm. Home I went, and Law went to Kallang to be beaten up or doing some similar stunts…

Friday. Boringgggggg… Went for a lecture that I did not understand. After lecture, Ben went off to get his racket and then to Vivo. Stoned around at EA with jh till 6.40pm. Then IMM, then JE, then home.

Bought goggles and outergrips. Yes. Outergrips. Lol…

Interesting SMS exchange that happened today (almost exact wording and spelling in sms):
[law]: Has ******* been putting on weight? I thought I see someone like her but i bit plumper
[me]: How the hell i know?! Ask jh la duhz
[law]: you her good fren what'..
[me]: Since when? why i dunno?
[law]: Since last time… Haha
[me]: In my dreams ba wahaha! zzz

That law….. duhz…

Hmm.. I remember having a scorebook somewhere… that comes along with that keyboard of mine…

Hmmm…. I wonder where is it now. Never mind… one fine day, it will appear, somehow.

??

?? on the keyboard still sounded strange somehow.. Hmm… I got no coach available near me, and so, well, at least it still sounded like ??… somehow.

Für Elise

This Beethoven piece… well… I can say that I only know the starting part… Aw… There's one part that sounded sooooo chim… and fast… Never mind ba… people only remember the beginning. Heh… Ok this is playable by me. Lol…

Some More Songs

I also don't know what's the name of the song, but I have learnt it through the keyboard's built-in tutorial. Heh… quite an easy piece, and I am sure it's not that short.

Chopin and Such

I wonder why am I looking at classics… Lol… There's this song that's named 'Etude' in the keyboard.. A search returns me Chopin… Hmm… TOO HARD…

Next one was displayed as 'Norturn~' (lack of space on LCD screen.. lol). That's also Chopin? Norturne in E flat (no no, not advertisement) B flat F major whatever? Oh well…

CHIMMMMMMMMMMM….. *pengz*

Midi versions are damn nice lor… oh well… Here's a list of files: http://www.kunstderfuge.com/chopin.htm.

Ok ok… music noob shall stop complaining about how chim music is, at least for today.

I think Tuesday's Econs tutorial has broken NUS tutorial time record, to finish 1 tutorial within half an hour! Wahaha… So fast! But ok la… MCQ and 2 short answer questions. Quite managable.

Lectures were getting more and more chim. And more and more fun. And more and more assignments and deadlines coming in. Yay…

Siao.

New things?

• No more buying of unnecessary sweets.
• Less stoning around and waiting for replies that never really come.
• Less holding on to handphones since it does not really ring. Using it to play games will be better.
• Evaluating fitness functions for certain people and certain things.

I am, afterall, a form which neural networks have tried to imitate (only to a certain extent)…

About Bball…

Bball was resumed at 3pm today. The rain stopped and the sun came out. So good.

And now, I think I know why there's no improvement when I was playing team games. It's not that I did not have any idea how to be in the team, but sometimes, I just happened to be in a team that did not really care if I ever existed. Sometimes, I really felt that I should just walk out of the court without any of my teammates noticing. It makes no difference actually.

Some people, once their hands are on the ball, it's gonna be their ball. Die also won't pass. But really, I enjoy such shows. It's so fun to look at them struggling around, while I just stand right at the corner, unmarked, laughing in my mind.

What else can I do?

About Parents…

While walking towards JE Central after the bball session, I saw the parents of someone I know. Just walked past them. Unnoticed. That's normal, because I tend to remember faces that I thought are important (or not important, depending on how you look at it) somehow. Usually people don't remember who am I. That's normal too, because I am so low-profile everywhere. It also shows how insignificant I am to their child (true). Lol. So interesting… ok I take back the last sentence. Not that true maybe.

I can walk past people I know just like that. In school, there's one particular person that I can just walk past. Tested and proven: I am transparent. "Don't know me" will be a lame excuse. "Never see me" will mean that I am not in your circle of noticable vision. Blind spot.

Outside, whenever I see some older people I know, I can just stand next to them without them noticing. Either that they could not recognise me, or they just cannot be bothered. I think it's the former, because they always say so. Hmmm… I believe so.

About MapleStory…

Been playing quite a lot this weekend. Lijian is playing also, and I talk to him in there sometime. At least someone I know in there. Lol…

But life in there can be quite sian because everyone else is so young. The oldest stranger that I have encountered in a 15-year-old girl. We happened to be on the same ship to Ludi. That's all. Lol.

I will still play that, as and when I have the time…

About Rain and Flu…

Since when I have become so weak? A bit of rain also cannot stand? I used to be walking in the rain with no effect. Why now, the situation is so different? Is it because I have no more "power" to accept the rain's cleaning effect?

Alright, I am crapping. Nonsense. Just weak I guess. Damn weak.

I aim to recover by tomorrow morning. It may become worse though…

Aw… who can show me some care and concern by giving me hugs and kisses? Omg… oh well, just forget it.

About Siao Things…

Currently I don't see any siao things happening around me. No life. As the semester goes deeper, things change. People change. I may or may not change (I am constantly changing to suit everyone's needs anyway).

it's quite sianz to not be able to import people from NUS for bball. They just don't share my interests. It's also impossible to import anyone from NUS for swimming. They don't share that too.

Oh well. We are just different in some ways. Maybe many ways. Lots of ways.

So be it lor. What to do… I ended up in NUS… what to do…

I am wondering if I end up in NUS because of one particular reason? I don't think so. That reason is not that great, but perhaps it was in my list of reasons.

But then, I am still glad I am in NUS. Lol.. If not, I will not have met certain groups of people. Love ya all. Wahahaa!!!

If you think that you reading a wrong blog, do not fret: It's Belief. I just want to crap. Thanks for your attention up to this line. Lol.

Sometimes, it's interesting to see how some people try to make a wrong seem right. Lol… As in… from one point, it is wrong, but after some explanation, it seems right.

That is an art.

It is quite hard to master that skill though. Hmm… People who use that are pros. They should go and become an insurance agent. Lol.

Ok… full stop for now.