Belief@HazelCafe

After being 76% nerd (see previous entry), I have managed to finished up my lab. I was solving one stupid bug when Emmanuel came to my rescue. Suddenly saw him in armour… erm… *pukes* Anyway, thanks!

Stupid bug… all because of this sentence:
index + i^2, where i = 1, 2, 3, 4

I went to use the value calculated in the previous loop. I was supposed to use the original value. Felt cheated…. hahaa but then, awesomely excellent, so I don't care much already.

Strange, but I don't feel cold when doing this lab. It's only after submitting that I start to feel very cold… The temperature reminds me of guard duty, doing prowling duty in the middle of the night. Sleepy, sweaty, and cold. The temperature's so alike!

One down. A few more to go. Kill them all…

I've said, “to help each other”, so, don't worry, I'll be around. =)

I guess, for now, it's time to sleep. Maybe I shall talk about Saturday's happenings later. Nitez… Don't really feel tired… Mind's full of hashing here and there… omg…

Hmm…

middle ranking… still not that bad… ahhahaha

duhz

Happy holidays to all…

What I did last night was to watch 2 movies continuously. The first one was Miss Congeniality. The other was Bruce Almighty. The first one was interesting and nice! Wow… the second one, perhaps I was too sleepy by then, and I missed a few scenes here and there… the story's not that strong.

Woke up at 8am this morning! I slept at 1.30am. I wondered why did I wake up so early for. Did some Maths. Finished up tutorial 8. I was planning to clear up the whole lot of garbage of tutorials 6 and 7, but I needed some revision first.

Things done: Maths tutorial 8. What a great day to waste away…

Had to say this after reading about Kbox. The initial plan was to have a Kbox session. It had to be throw out of the window due to poor response. Not the first time. Perhaps the third. This makes me wonder if we are ever going to have another Kbox outing, even after the exams. It has always been the 3 Constants agreeing on Kbox outings…

Which leads me to this. Don't bother about Kbox, forget it. No Kbox? Never mind. I think, if I wanna kbox, I will just go look for my bball friends and campmates. No girls? Just avoid those duets, or act girl. What to do?

My plan was to go out for a walk, but in the end, I stayed at home and rotted away. Nothing much done. Watched TV, listened to songs, played some games, surfed some internet, and that's about it. Things I want to do, but I can't due to one reason or another. Things I don't want to do, but I have to, due to one reason or another.

How great can it be, if I can choose what I want…

How great can it be, if I can get what I want…

What am I thinking now? I don't seem to get a clear picture. It's like, I am trying to fit images from different places together. They don't really sit nicely side by side.

The brief late afternoon rain did not help much. I need a thunderstorm.

Another busy week being forecasted. MNO report, CTW final draft, CS accessed lab, WebAssign, more tutorials.

Was thinking if I should go on a holiday after exams? Just a short break, since budget airlines are here? But then, I am broke…

Maybe… I will just stay in Singapore and dream of going overseas…

Which makes me think of another thing. How true do you think this is: A more global education. Going overseas for studies? You have the money? Oh, scholarship? You must be smart then. No scholarship, but still can go? You must be rich then.

Sometimes it just makes me wonder. Education. Is it that, the richer you are, the more you get out of it? Because, you can afford all the extras, all the stuffs, whatever you want. So maybe education is about getting good grades, and getting a presentable testimonial on extra stuffs, so that you can smoke your way into a good job and be rooted there forever.

Well done…

Ok, I shall stop, in case I bring the whole world down in one night.

Yes! It's over! Presentation is over! Yay!!

*strikes off list*

But then, there's still a position paper to work on. Lots of things to work on, as pointed out by Ms Peggie Chan. Yeah, she did had a point there. We concentrated too much on technological recommendations. Things are there, but people must be around to use them.

Currently stoning in Audi. No one around. So sad. And I don't wish to move around. I just want to stone here, enjoy the aircon, blah blah..

Yeah! It's over!

And tomorrow's Friday! Good Friday!!!

Morning was quite ok. Woke up and attended the maths lecture. Looked fun, but the headaches will come later…

CS tutorial was ok too. I peeked at the classroom next door. There were about 6 people in there. That should keep him busy for some time. Emailing us will not solve the problem. First impression counts…

CS lecture. Alright. Seeing stars as usual. Nothing much to say.

Went somewhere after that. Changed my mind when I got to the bus stop at Science. I shortened my journey. I diverted my attention. I listened to my MP3s. I looked at the sky. Nothing much to say.

What can I say?

All I can say is: no point asking something when you are already at it.

Pressed the bell just before the bus overshot the stop at JE Library. Went to collect a book that I have read, but yet it was in my reserve list. Maybe I shall read it once more. Detailed reading they call it. It's only 200 pages anyway. Maybe, that will get something off my mind, but I doubt it. If it can do that, I will be already free when I read that book over the weekend…

I was wondering if I should start another Friends Theory. This one will be more on friends using other friends to get what they want. Friends that seem like friends but are they? Maybe I shouldn't.

Maybe, I will need some time. Maybe… another 12 hours…

I was just wondering, whether hurt is a negative exponential of time. I mean,
Hurt = k e^-t, where k is a constant. Maybe call it love coefficient.

As time goes by, one will feel less injured when inflicted with the same amount of hurt. Maybe it's routine. Or perhaps, it will feel numb after a while as the feelings are all destroyed… From the above equation, it can be seen that, if k is large, initial hurt will be large too.

Let's do an example. Let k be 100. Initially, t = 0, which means, Hurt = 100e^0 = 100. As t tends to infinity, e^-t tends to 0, therefore, Hurt tends to 0 also.

My equation is too generalised. More cases are needed to be considered. It's impossible for Hurt to be totally 0. An amount will still be around.

Just scrape it. *throws into recycle bin*

While doing something to my hair at JE, I heard the CD store playing 2 songs. First was 痴心绝对. Next was 童话. Well…. what can I say? Heard the first song again, over the radio. Well…

Firstly, slept from NUS to JE on 183. And just now, slept while reading CS notes on AVL trees.

Am I that tired? What have I been doing? ZzzZzz

Think, I shall sleep… No point trying to study with half opened eyes…

Ok, tested and proven.

I only need at most 12 hours to recover.

Go ahead and make me angry and/or sad.

Hmm..

I .. … …. .. .. anything. If … … ….. ……. you …… .. …. .. read …. ……

Why .. ….. ….. … … …… .. …. me?

Try reading the above entry…

Updating blog in the middle of nowhere… What can I say?

Don't understand what I am saying? Then forget it.

I went to school this afternoon to listen to a lecture that I did not really understand. I really think that was a waste of time. But at least I corrected 1 error in the notes… that's all.

Before going to school, I spent some time queueing up. Bought some secret combinations of numbers (“shared investment”, by right). Donated to charity already.

I thought that I was going to be late, but in the end, I was among the earliest. In the end, I just stood there, reading a magazine picked up at the bus stop. Not many people attended the lecture. Weimin (surprised) was there. Next came my little sis, who was late as usual. A while later, Weimin left. Sis was sitting at the back row, behind me, so I had 3 seats to myself…

After the lecture, due to forseen circumstances (no spelling error. It's 'forseen'), I decided not to travel towards the west. I decided to take any bus that arrived at the bus stop first (except 33). 188 came. Took it to HarbourFront. Took MRT to Bugis. I decided at Outram Park, to replenished my CD-R supplies. After Bugis, somehow I ended up at City Hall. Walked around, bought CDs from HMV, and continued to walk, no destination in mind.

I was wondering why there was so many people today. I decided to follow the crowd. It took me to the Convention Centre. Then I remembered: 美食展. Went up to have a look. So many people! I could hardly walk around. And so much goodies! But due to the earlier shopping, I had only $8 in my wallet. Buy what? And I had not even had my lunch. It did not help much walking around, staring at food… I got out after taking a tour around the hall.

Decided to follow the crowd again, and walked towards Marina Square. One part of it has closed for renovation. So that explains why so many shops are displaying “moving out” notices the last time I went GV Marina. Nothing much. I somehow managed to find my way to the Durian.

Yeah. Navigation works best when one is aimless. I just walked. Somehow some places looked familiar, but I did not stop. I continued…

Finally, I reached the Esplanade. Should have brought my camera out. Nice view! And nice place to test my camera! Too bad… Wasted. The Durian, Sheares Bridge, Merlion, One Fullerton, CBD area, boats, Suntec, the sky, the sea….

Aw… felt so bad that I turned and walked away…

Took 97 all the way to JE. On the bus, I thought of things. I looked at things. I analyzed things. I evaluate things. Conclusion: I am wasting time.

Went home after that. Nothing much done. It's just a wastage of time.

It certainly looks like, I am going to miss another Creative Warehouse Sale… I've missed IT fair. And now I am going to miss the warehouse sale. Somehow, the reasons for missing them are about the same… And I think they will be the same, regardless of activities…

Is it just me? Am I just a wandering warrior? I don't think I am a warrior at all…

*closes eyes*

Emmanuel sent me a very nice MV that day. 童话. So sad, the MV. Thanks. Nice song. I like 光良's song. (1) Kbox-friendly (Quite). (2) Interesting MV, just like <<第一次>>.

童话

唱:光良

童话

歌手:光良 专辑:童话

忘了有多久
再没听到你
对我说你最爱的故事
我想了很久
我开始慌了
是不是我又做错了什么

你哭着对我说
童话里都是骗人的
我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂
从你说爱我以后
我的天空星星都亮了

我愿变成童话里
你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信
相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局

一起写我们的结局

你哭着对我说
童话里都是骗人的
我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂
从你说爱我以后
我的天空星星都亮了

我愿变成童话里
你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信
相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局

我要变成童话里
你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信
相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局

我会变成童话里
你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信
相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局

一起写我们的结局

Sad songs inspire me. 好感人 Maybe, deep inside me, I am sad…

Alright, started on a new file, and the first sentence is:
你穿着厚厚的避寒衣，什么样的风都吹不进你心里。。。