Ok, my leave starts NOW.

Just got reminded of the bbq later. 6pm. Oh well. Hahhahaa… ok lor… I did not plan for the day, so anything is possible.

I don’t like to plan. I prefer spontaneous decisions. (I said this lots of times I think…)

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So what’s up for my leave days?

STONE. AND STONE. AND STONE.

And think of things.

I was having a r/s discussion with one friend just now. It seems that her problem is similar to what I have seen a few weeks back. What the hell. What’s happening to all the guys?? WTF…

And I was updating her about mine. Oh well… not too hopeful I guess. LOL…

Sometimes, when you scale down your expectations of people, things get more acceptable.

I have thrown out ALL EXPECTATIONS…

The next thing I am going to throw, is my life…

…

JOKING LA!!! LOL!

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说了再见

唱： 周杰伦
词： 古小力，黄凌嘉
曲： 周杰伦

天亮了 雨下了 你走了
清楚了 我爱的 遗失了
落叶飘在湖面上睡著了

想要放 放不掉 泪在飘
你看看 你看看 不到
我假装过去不重要 却发现自己办不到

说了再见 才发现再也见不到
我不能就这样失去你的微笑
口红待在桌脚 而你我找不到
若角色对调你说好不好

说了再见 才发现再也见不到
能不能就这样忍著痛泪不掉
说好陪我到老 永恒往哪里找
再次拥抱一分一秒都好

天亮了 雨下了 你走了
清楚了 我爱的 遗失了
落叶飘在湖面上睡著了

想要放 放不掉 泪在飘
你看看 你看看 不到
我假装过去不重要 却发现自己办不到

说了再见 才发现再也见不到
我不能就这样失去你的微笑
口红待在桌脚 而你我找不到
若角色对调你说好不好

你的笑 你的好 脑海里 一直在绕
我的手 忘不了 你手的温度
心碎了一地 捡不回从前的心跳 
伤心过去我无力逃跑

说再见 才发现再也见不到
能不能就这样忍著痛泪不掉
说好陪我到老 永恒往哪里找
再次拥抱一分一秒都好

Ok, went to Ion Orchard for dinner, with ben oon, calcal, and junjie.

We ate at Itacho Sushi. I chose the place. I am waiting for a chance to try this restaurant out. And yes, the choice was not a bad one.

The food’s good! A bit on the ex side, but still, not bad wor…

And then, after dinner, calcal went off after a while, and the rest went jalan around. Went to kino, went to art friend. I bought something there for fun. Anyway, I have always been buying things for fun. Zzz.

And then, past by gramophone, and junjie and I bought jay’s latest album! Currently listening to it.

Was looking at the plastic bag: “without music life would be a mistake”…

LOL…

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The conference was…. ok la… quite sleepy at times. The lunch’s good I think.

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Ok, gonna try win tix to jay chou’s concert!!

Just… don’t want to go with me…

Just… like that…

Just… me… and me…

Alone…

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*slowly, the line extends itself*

Zzzzz… What a good morning to be on leave, to sleep all the way until 10am, to nua all the way, doing nothing else but stone…

…

But I am not on leave… yet.

@#(*&!@(&@! 8am expo…

Sometimes, I feel that, people don’t really like to talk to me online.

When the conversation gets going, it’s always work, work and work. Besides that, conversations end.

It’s either people hate me, think I am kok, or just cannot click with me. Or they feel that I am just not the person to share other information with. Or they just simply don’t care. Or they are just tired. Or they have something better to do.

…

And I just have to accept this conclusion.

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Been to YC. Yup… did some things here and there. Yup…

Been to 10 dollar KTV. Yup… sang some songs. Yup… pissed with myself for singing some songs. Yup…

Been to the wake. Yup… chatted around. Yup…

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It’s just how technology spreads. Last time, news were spread by phone calls. Now, facebook. Instant, fast, rapid responses. The news was out on monday, and just now, mandy, weibiao, sicong, and I were at the wake. And more others knew about it.

Yes… sometimes, leaving… is something hard to talk about…

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Really, I still think that people generally do not like to talk to me.

Or maybe, just one person.

It’s always like this.

It’s me.

Only me.

And me.

Stupid Lk is still thinking of ways to get around this. Hello. Wake up, will you?

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Ok ok ENOUGH!

I will use my leave days, nua days, stone days, to think about this.

Lines just have to be drawn soon.

See la, everytime, my ringtone’s emo… so now, I shall change it to a more happier tone! Encore Lala!!! Wahahahaa…

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I am still not too used to see Claire with short hair…

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It’s nice to see what can go wrong in a group, when a person is supposed to pass down a message… (wah damn random… don’t want to elaborate further)

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Yes, I compared my ‘performance’, with my emotions as the variable. It seems that, I ‘perform’ better when I am happy! Happy does not mean happy for myself. It’s generally happy! Complicated hor… Yeah lor… staying happy allows me to work better! Think better! Sleep better!

Huh…

Whatever. LOL.

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Worked on saturday AND sunday. On sunday, I drove the van. Shiok ar. And I drove the van back to bukit panjang to return it to LT. Even more shiok. It was raining like siao. I love driving in the rain, by the way. LOL. I siao 1 also. Yeah. How I drove back? Here’s the route.

– dropped jojo off at bedok road there.

– drove along bedok road, then entered ecp.

– continued to aye.

– should exit at clementi road, but exit at clementi ave 6 instead.

– gone along toh tuck. Up. And then upper bukit timah road.

– tada! Bukit Panjang!

Shiok leh…

After that, I took 180, changed to 333, and into IMM for a jalan jalan. Bought Claire’s new album, “妳，朋友”. Quite nice wor… And then, ended up at JE, and bought dinner home.

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Worked on monday (废话). And then went to bpp for dinner with lt. We had dinner at cafe cartel. It’s been some time since I last ate at cafe cartel. Ok la… the food’s not that fabulous. First thing was, my order was wrong. I decided to NOT accept the wrong order, and I got it changed.

Usually, I would have just eaten the wrong order. But this time, it’s COMPLETELY WRONG. Unforgivable! The number’s right, the food’s wrong!

But yeah.. the food’s not that fabulous. The calamari… you know, rubber bands, etc? Or hard things?

Gone home on 176.

Yeah.

Monday.

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Order’s in SIN! Yay! Tomorrow… tomorrow!!!

Encore LaLa

唱：郭靜
曲：陳偉
詞：湘潔

姐妹快來報到 OK就說好
Party的時候不能發呆叉腰
世界在燃燒 音樂正聒噪
我們大搖大擺準備出怪招

動作舞領風騷 看魅力發酵
路人甲乙丙丁請靠邊站好
下巴被甩掉 眼鏡快破掉
聚光燈下我們才是女主角

＊Here we go 放音樂一下全身搖
Be the Best 要將青春往天空拋
扭扭腰 自信的像隻野貓
See sexy back We r the sexy ma ma＊

姐妹快來駕到 Sweet剛剛好
像一杯特調上面的小氣泡
愛活碰亂跳 愛用力的搖
青春就是要無時無刻的鬧

動作舞領風騷 性感在發燒
Hey Mickey You’re so fine加油的口號
太陽不睡覺 月亮已拋錨
汗水變向日葵陽光下閃耀

Repeat＊

Dance with me 放音樂一下全身搖
Be the best 要將青春往天空拋
別害臊 快為我瘋狂尖叫
See sexy back We are gonna blow your mind

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Lol… rise and shine!!!

Ok, here’s my own blood type version, regarding my eyes.

Blood Type O: Wah… you got brown eyes!

Blood Type B: Eh you know ar this and that… blah blah… (nothing to do with eyes)

Blood Type A: *stares*

Blood Type AB: *stares* eh you tired ar? Why eyes so RED?

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[9am Updated, before I go out]

“Happiness is a voyage. not a destination.”

Had breakfast at T3 Mcdonald’s with jo and sean leong. Had not seen him for quite some time since I went over to yc. I met him at queenstown area, and took his car to T3. Jo was already there, stoning away… Had breakfast deluxe!!! Actually, I am getting quite scared of mac breakfast. Had been eating that for the past 1 week.

Yeah, crapped till 10+ wor… we told lt to reach at 10am, at yc. opps.

He sent us into yc, ofcourse. Yeah. And he stayed for a quite, kop-ing movies la, etc…

And it’s back to work for the rest of us!

kk arrived with lunch at 2pm! Yay.

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Looking at it, it’s quite funny. Yesterday, someone said ‘have a good weekend’ to the 3 of us. And now, we were spending our weekend (at least saturday) together.

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Well, I had ‘fun’ troubleshooting the serial link chain. Again.

1) Pin wrong, on the vehicle end. Got to swap.

2) Pin wrong, on the land end. Got to swap.

I was so happy when finally, things start to blink the way I expected them to be. But no, it’s not done yet.

3) Hardware configuration wrong, land end. Got to open up the hardware, connect up, change settings, disconnect, put it back.

4) Since land end already wrong, vehicle end most probably was wrong too. Got to open up the hardware, connect up, change settings, disconnect, put it back.

And finally, finally, finally, things start to look normal.

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Yes, I am helping with installations.

Funny hor.

And I am troubleshooting.

Even more funny.

And I get things to work.

It’s the joke of the month.

Never mind. Not everyone understands my ‘joke’. Ok, rephrase. No one ever understands my ‘joke’.

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Got to do some more installation work before the sky got dark. More to go later.

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Went to bedok 85 for dinner. Had sugar cane drink, lime drink, stingray, sotong, bbq wings, and bak chor mee….

Partying after a day of work.

Just the 4 of us.

Yeah.

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I see my tennis racket on the floor.

It’s been 1 month.

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Ok, maybe, I am not that tired. I am more disturbed, confused, disappointed, sad, demoralised, unmotivated, etc…

Just reached home. Got out of YC at 8pm. We decided to shut down everything, lock everything, and get out of that place by throwing all the keys to the person. If we continued to stay in the container, who knew when they were going to end?

And when the person came out of the restaurant to get the keys, he said “have a nice weekend”.

What is “weekend”, I wonder? i gave him the _|_ face but I did not think he noticed it, due to the dim lights.

…

There is no weekend, when the week is not going to end.

…

There’s this farewell dinner. And yes, a few of us were not invited.

Doshite?

This is a kind of ‘drawing line’. I hate to draw lines, but, if that’s the case, draw lines ba. I don’t care already.

Everyone was behaving like thieves, in my view. Secretly gone off, hiding, avoiding…

I really give up on all of you.

And I really give up on myself too.

…

And so, lt, kk, and I got out of yc. We dropped kk somewhere along the way, and went over to bpp for dinner. Called cyh down. He did come down. Heh. Ate at xin wang taiwan cafe. Yummy wor…

It’s nice to eat together, after a tiring day. Just chill out, talk about crap stuffs, and eat. Not everyone enjoys this, definitely. I enjoy this. I don’t like to feel tired, and I still end up eating dinner alone. That’s so sad.

If you don’t enjoy the company, that’s just too bad.

…

Took 176 again. Slept all the way to JE, and decided to carry on the journey, and walk home instead.

…

不敢: 我不敢。我觉得，我自己是没什么机会的。我感觉不到希望。我总是在想，我干嘛一厢情愿地等候着。。。

不会：我不会。我不会逗人开心。话从我口中说出的，总是被忽略，被轻视。话从别人口中说出的，总是有和我相反的效果。我干嘛这么努力地改变。。。

不该：我不该。我不应该选择这一条路。上一次不是已经走过了吗？怎么还不吸取教训？我干嘛要这样折磨自己。。。

不要：我不要。我不要再像个白痴，等着某一个人。我干嘛要等。。。

。。。

我知道我在等的原因。。。

。。。

就是无缘无故的喜欢上嘛。。。

。。。

叹。。。

…

Maybe, I will spend some time later, thinking of what else to write. But I think, I should bathe first.

And maybe, sleep will be next.