Belief@HazelCafe

The stupid radiation is making me so tired…

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Had dinner near bedok camp there. Lots of stalls were not opened somehow. People who went: junie, ben feng, ben onn. Ate liao, then all the way to clementi, and then home from there.

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Tired… But I guess, I can still go on for at least quite some time. It has always been like this, isn’t it?

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Oh yeah, the goods arrived, finally.

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Was talking about going for overseas trips while in the car. You know, it’s kind of strange not to talk in cars, when most of the people are more or less, wide awake. And I dropped the idea of going JB to eat fat fat. It’s been a long time.

Come think of it, the original jb party gang of 4. 3 are flying off soon. Left me in sg. So, I am creating a new jb party gang.

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Come think of it. How much information do one share with so-called ‘good friends’?

I really have no idea. Maybe, I don’t seem to have much of such friends lying around?

Or maybe, I never really appreciate them when they were around?

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Sometimes, I really felt that I have let some friends down. I know myself. I tend to just… just…

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I really cannot go on writing. Maybe I will, when I really think through what I want to write.

I am sorry, friends.

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Oh yeah, same bus and train with that girl again leh…

Ok la, I also same bus and train with lots of other guys…

LOL.

Yes, for this week, I shall be ultra-positive about everything. From work, to friends, to relationships, to everything, and everything!!!

Positive makes my world go at 100 knots.

Let’s hope there are not much negative things to talk about. Anyway, negative things can also turn positive!!!

YEAH! RAWR!!!

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There are some things that I still cannot explain. I need help from power pros. How come when I use an isolated power source, it works? *Puzzled*

Maybe, I will call up OEM tomorrow to ask about something that I have observed.

Heh.

Perhaps, all the other problems are all having the same problem? Isolated power source. LOL.

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I am so gonna train my left hand.

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Reached home quite early, but my mom was even earlier; she went downstairs to pray and burn incense/joss papers at 4pm. -.-||

Alright, I had a busy weekend!

Let me go back in time, and start talking from Thursday.

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Went back to office for a kick-off meeting that did not really felt like a kick-off meeting. Was sitting there, stoning away. Wahliew. I think I might have better ways to spend my time than sit in there. But ok, it’s… ‘great exposure’.

And then, had discussions now and then, and more stone-arounds in office.  Lunch and dinner were both at seletar seafood (at night, nothing’s edible out there, except this). And then, home on taxi. Table tennis session was ok. Nothing much in particular.

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On Friday, we all cleared 1 day leave to go play badminton/table tennis and KTV. Note: we all took leave. No obligations, no ‘what-do-I-get-in-return’ questions. Some people, just don’t get it. I thought managers should be good at managing people…

There are exceptions. When there is an exception, people will start to THROW. All managers should know that. When a software encounters an error, it will sometimes, generate an exception. If the exception is not handled, the software crashes.

Software and human. They behave similarly in some ways.

Badminton was not bad. Made my hands and legs ache for 2 days. Zzz. Lunch was at Sakae, and then ktv at partyworld. Party!

At home, my 大姐 threw a bomb about going to bangkok end of next month… Hmmm… maybe I can make it…

Was busy stripping someone’s laptop at home after that. Strip… gentle and slowly, one piece, by one piece. Let’s not get hurt baby. WAHAHAHA!

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Saturday was alright. Went to queensway with huahui for some shopping. He went to restring his racket. I bought that jacket that did not seem waterproof. No, it is NOT waterproof. Dryfit stuffs, how can be waterproof. LOL.

Tennis till 5+, and then hopped down to suntec for dinner with eddy, jianliang and zhiwei. Yummy buffet at pearl river palace restaurant. There were 3 groups of people celebrating birthdays. Wow. LOL. Heard the birthday song 3 times. Heh. Oh well, some chui babes here and there, but then, there’s this girl that looked familiar somehow. Very familiar. But I just could not recall.

Oh well.

And then, coffee at starbucks. There’s this nice nice tumbler that costs $17.90, but I thought I had no use for it, so did not buy. Discussed about vietnam. Hmmm…

Interesting…

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Sunday was another tennis afternoon. Played until 5+ as usual, and then went over to IMM for some shopping. Bought nothing much actually. Was looking for suitable jackets/windbreakers. Went to New Balance FOS. They had a foldable/packable windbreaker, but I think it was a bit too thin. Went to World Of Sports and saw a Columbia jacket. Too thin too. And then, Timberland. Too heavy! Heh. I am very particular.

Ngiao.

MEOW.

At 9.30pm, received a call from my 大姐, saying she wanna ktv!!! 10pm! Wahliewww… in the end, only youhui and I could make it. And so, we chiong down lor, to clementi (oh well, AGAIN), and ktv till 2am. Zzz… We ordered a jug of beer too. Really party leh.

Reached home around 3am. Decided to stone around before I sleep. Actually there’s nothing much online nowadays.

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Woke up at 9.30am. I did not remember switching off my handphone alarm, which was supposed to ring at 6am. Duhz. Maybe it knew today’s hols?

What a fat maybe.

Trained reflex: to turn off handphone alarm while still in dreamland.

Spent the whole day cleaning up my desk. Found strange things, and threw away strange things too. Found lots of cards. Actually, I keep all cards that are given to me during different occasions. Heh. Ok la, 1 person topped the list leh… what an old friend…

OLD friend who is celebrating her bday today. WAHAHA!

Ok la, this year, no card for you! Maybe pass you back your laptop as a present. =p

Ok I damn bo xim hor? … LOL

Ok… Looks like I am not done with my search. This jacket soaks up water… Lol…

The material feels water proof, but no, it is not.

Back to my great search!!! The design is nice though…

I am changing my colour scheme… Heh…

That time, I sent cjho a set of keychains via snail mail to france, and it took 3 weeks.

And now, I am supposed to be receiving something from Spain, and it has been 2 weeks.

1 more week to go, I hope.

Ok, not exactly blind, but, some things, I rather pretend I am not seeing.

I rather hide the truth, than go around expanding on it.

I rather keep the hurt to myself, than go cause hurt to more people.

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The above, is a sudden scenario that I have in my brain. Suddenly, I remembered a piece of song lyrics that I have scribbled somewhere, around 5 years ago?

Now, where’s the lyrics…

I have got to find back my motivation. I have got to find back my confidence. I have got to find back my luck. I have got to find back my determination. I have got to find back everything that I have missed.

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Wahsey… HTHT here and there today leh. I love HTHT, but those with only 2 person that type. Not those group HTHT. Group HTHT feels strange sometimes.

Anyway, HTHT topics are always classified.

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I am re-considering my decision to not get a new guitar this year. See how.

Paper Toss is an app, that I now use to gauge, how concentrated or distracted I am.

Yesterday, the score sucks.

Sianz, don’t really feel like talking more about this app currently. Maybe will talk more when I feel like it.

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It kind of sucks, when you go to site happily, and you wanted to hi-5 someone, and that person simply ignored your hi-5 hand gesture.

It kind of sucks, when people go to lunch without asking.

It kind of sucks, when people go off without informing.

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It kind of nice, when people say something or do something positive in the morning.

It kind of nice, when people ask you if you have had lunch. Even when they did not ask beforehand.

It kind of nice, when people ask you to go for lunch, but you can’t, and yet, they offer to buy food back.

It kind of nice, when people say ‘we are going off, bye’. Even when they never ever offer to go off with you.

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I think, I may be able to tolerate arrogant people. Actually, I would like to see themselves self-destruct. But of course, I won’t let them, if I am in my ability to help. Sometimes, arrogant people have their values. Without them, you cannot tell the difference between arrogant talk, and act-pro talk.

Act-pro talk, are those conversations that you listen to, and you just feel like laughing. Arrogant talk, are those that you listen to, and you just feel like slapping the person.

Whatever.

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Feeling sick.

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They have been having fun, poking fun of me playing emo songs at the container. Eh… most nice chinese songs are emo what… what you want me to do? LOL.

Then they start to look into song lyrics. And then speculate why I played that song. It’s quite a fun thing actually. Lyrics are just so powerful.

Some words are just, so true.

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*Cough*

What a quote, from none other than jerm jerm!

Isn’t that so true? Some things, you try to get hold of, but in the end, you get nothing. Some things, especially when they don’t belong to you. But, even with things that belong to you, that might also happen.

Yes. Letting go, is indeed a valuable skill. This is something that I have always failed to achieve. I find letting go a pain. I find letting go a hard process. I find letting go a non-viable solution. That’s why, I am always holding on. To that little bit of hope. To that tiny bit of light.

Indeed, I am wrong.

I read my horoscope for today. It says: “Stories from the past become eerily relevant today. Don’t repeat the same mistakes.”

Lk, stop dreaming. It’s time to wake up to the real world.

It’s time to let go.

I guess, I can only choose one path. I hate to say this, but, I think that will be the best way.

心锁.

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If I am alive on Friday, I have already thought of what songs I want to sing already. It’s all those same old emo songs. I love emo songs.

And I plan to swim at around 8+ or 9am.

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Had dinner with lt, cyh, and wc. Junie said she wanted to go home to sleep (duhz). Had mac. Wanted to eat hot fudge sundae, but I think I will leave that for another day. And then, cab down to je to take laptop from xinli. Then, 143 zoomed past, and I waited for 10+ minutes before the next one arrived. Zzz.

Always like that, the bus.

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Trying to get everyone to eat breakfast together. I always believe that breakfast, regardless of how little one eats, is very important. You can eat a piece of bread, a piece of biscuit, 2 eggs, or super big breakfast, I don’t care. Just eat something!

I am a promoter of good habits. I cannot force people to do whatever they don’t like. They have brains, don’t they? LOL.

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Beads, lots of them.

Straws, lots of them.

Collecting dust.

I have no motivation to do anything with them.

Not anymore.

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Sometimes, I wonder, how fake can I be?

Idiot Lk, you are freakingly a )@#*@)(#*(!@&! faker…