I really don’t know…

For me, weekends are not weekends. Weekends are the best times for me to work on something that I have wanted to work on, but weekdays are just impossible to do that.

And so, I spent time working on my codes yesterday. And yes, it’s still not done.

As usual. LOL.

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Wednesday

We had a farewell dinner for Jeremy! 2 tables. 18 people. We had too much veggies left on the table (the other table ordered veggies, and the waitress happily assumed that the dishes be served to us too), and we ended up playing the number game. The setter has to write down a number between 0 to 100, and the others will take turn to guess the number. The aim is to avoid calling out the number. The setter will update the new range whenever a new number has been called, therefore, the number range will get smaller, and smaller, and smaller…

Etc… etc… etc…

The girls somehow got the most number of hits. Don’t know why.

Thursday

Thursday was definitely a stir-shit day! LOL!

Friday

On Friday, I was back in office for this TDSI roadshow. It was a double degree course. Nah.. not really interested in that.

Had hakka yong tau foo for lunch, after the buffet lunch. Heh. Talking about big eaters.Was in office the whole day, as I did not see the point to go back to site. Did whatever I wanted to do back there, and then, dinner was at east coast.  Hong Kong Cafe. We happened to see charlie there too! Hahaha! SMALL WORLD. After that, we went for some bear-catching action.

Yes, we shall have a bear collection corner in yc, to house our catch.

Saturday

Finally, went over to find Mandy at westmall! Yeah! New specs on the way!

I think, I just can’t get out of the red-black colour combination.

Tennis after that. Got chased away from the courts (the people claimed that they have booked), and ended up playing ‘squannis’ at the wall. ‘Squannis’ == Squash + Tennis.

Home lor, after that. Nothing much to do. Ended up watching Liar Game 2. Finished the show. Done.

Sunday

Watched 公主嫁到 ep 1 to 3 in the morning. Funny! Hahaha! And then went out to AMK, for baby Raphael’s baby shower! Hahaha kawaii nehhhh… I mean the baby. Wahaha!

And then, went home.

So no-life.

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So, is it wind, or is it tree?

Suddenly, this phrase came back into my mind, after so many years. I have forgotten when was the first time I read this story, but I think it’s nice.

Been looking for a nice nice webbie that will put this story in a very nice scene.

[To be continued…]

寂寞寂寞就好

曲: 施人誠
詞: 楊子樸
唱: 田馥甄

還是原來那個我 不過撂掉幾公升淚所以變瘦
對著鏡子我承諾 遲早我會換這張臉應對笑容

不算什麼 愛錯就愛錯
早點認錯 早一點解脫

我寂寞寂寞就好
這時候誰都別來安慰 擁抱
就讓我一個人去痛到受不了
傷到 快瘋掉 死不了就還好

我寂寞寂寞就好
你真的不用來我回憶裡 微笑
我就不相信我會笨到 忘不了
賴著 不放掉 人本來就寂寞的
借來的都該還掉

我總會把你戒掉

還是原來那個你 是我自己做夢你又改變什麼
再多的愛也沒用 每個人有每個人的業障因果
會有什麼 什麼都沒有 早點看破 才看的見以後

我寂寞寂寞就好
這時候誰都別來安慰 擁抱
就讓我一個人去痛到受不了
傷到 快瘋掉 死不了就還好

我寂寞寂寞就好
你真的不用來我回憶裡 微笑
我就不相信我會笨到 忘不了
賴著 不放掉 人本來就寂寞的
我總會把你戒掉

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Hmmm.. once again, looking at the lyrics. It’s a song filled with determination.

Yeah.

No one cannot live without the presence of another.

死不了就還好.

Yeah.

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Who is 田馥甄? Hebe from S.H.E….

The previous week had been great, with lots of sports time, eat time, stone time, and siao time.

Let’s go the opposite direction.

On Saturday, we went into JB for a session of siaoness and makan. Ok la, not that siao, but really, makan siao. Went to Nijyumaru for lunch, and then to Tebrau City, and then back to City Square. We had a total of 10 people. Shiok.

Ate like crazy, but not much people shopped like crazy. Some people shopped until owed me money, and some people changed money, but did not manage to spend much.

Just like that. Heh.

Overall, it was great!

Next shall be Genting. And maybe before that, another eating session. And before that, more things.

Work-life-balance. If the work does not balance it for you, D.I.Y.

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Friday was supposed to be a makan night in town, but due to our sports time in the evening, and late discussions and work, we changed the makan place to T3. Ate at Crystal Jade. Did not know why, but I just like to order 酸辣拉面 everywhere. LOL. Some sides to go along, and that’s our dinner! Had a short jam at TPE on the way back home, but overall, it was nice.

We upgraded our bball hoop. LYP will kill us when he sees it on monday.

Got to drive Amy’s Hyundai Getz from the TMCC to SAFYC. Nice car. Easy to drive, damn sensitive startup acceleration, and woah, nice design overall.

Reason was, Amy felt sick while driving over. Jerm, Jo, and I went out on the van to check her out. I did not bring my wallet, so I drove her car back, and Jerm and Jo sent her to see a doc.

And so, lunch that day was from Bedok South Market.

Ok la, I mountain turtle lor, first time driving an auto car. And I mean civilian car, not those giant military V200. Well well, easy la.

Breakfast was mac. Got to be early that day. Somehow.

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Thursday was fun too. Our cardboard bball hoop managed to hold up for quite long. Crazy ball games. Nice though. Dinner was at IKEA tampines. It’s nice to crap and stone after work.

That was the second IKEA dinner in a month. Yay.

And moreover, it’s a free dinner (ice cream dessert included) from a SE whose treating session is seriously overdued. Thanks wor. LOL.

Breakfast was back at bedok 85 coffeeshop. It’s been some time since we last went there. Bought from the bao stall. Then got this strange old lady who started to talk to us, very friendly, then asked if we could treat her to some chicken leg, and then after some time, said that she was just joking.

-.-||

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Wednesday was an ok day. Had fun ding-dong-ding-dong on PO stuffs, as always. Policy and time just don’t work well with each other. Great.

What was dinner? Hmmm… I guess I have really limited memory. Hahaha! I think, it should be dinner at bukit panjang plaza. Oh yes. That day, we all brought shirts and shorts and sports shoes to do sports after 6. Heh. Bball and stuffs like that. Gym for some.

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Tuesday? Oh man. What was it?

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How about Monday?

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I guess, there’s not much significant happenings. My blog is turning so much into a daily record of happenings.

And I think I know why.

If I start writing chim stuffs, the posts will most probably turn nasty, or heavily emo, or makes no sense to readers.

Not as if people really read what I am writing.

People just read. They don’t really digest. They only see, huh, why this idiot is writing this? Or they will just ROFL.

Do they really go deep down, and think, what is happening to this idiot?

I guess not.

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Sunday was a boring day actually. Stayed at home, refusing to go out. Watched Liar Game. I still have a bit to go for the last episode, and the DVD is currently in the player in the living room. I started watching it last night. It’s like a marathon.

Ok, I split the watchings into 3 sessions: last night, I started off with episodes 1 and 2, and then, I continued in the morning. I paused around noon, and went off to watch a game of soccer. And then, I went back to watch again, until it was time to watch NDR 2010. Heh.

Finished reading “Congo” too. It’s about time I return the 2 books, or else NLB is soooo gonna strangle me with the fines. But I am reluctant to bring the books out to work tomorrow. Heavy.

…

I shall see how tomorrow morning, when I pack my bag for work.

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I look at the things I have now, and think: some things deserve better recipients than the originally planned ones.

I know that I am tired, when I managed to fall asleep on a taxi.

I am already tired, and yet, when I do my usual blog channel hopping, there’s so little things to see, so little updates.

I should sleep instead. So sianz.

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Did not know why, but I just don’t seem to find the peace to really concentrate on my programming stuffs. Alot of ideas are going through my head while I am doing any form of coding. I will write a section, and then think to myself, ‘why not do it this way?’, and then, I will change the code again, compile, debug, and then go through the same cycle over and over again. There’s always ways to improve on code.

I am constantly learning new ways, and implementing better ways.

If time permits.

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There are so many things to talk about.

If you find that you can only talk to one person about work, you both are merely colleagues. Nothing more.

If you find that you have some personal conversations to one person who is working in the same company, then you both are more than colleagues. Friends.

If you find that you know more personal information about one person than any other people who is working in the same company, then you both are more than friends. Good friends.

If you find that you know classified information that is not to be shared no matterwhat…

Hmmm..

Then you are CAT 1 cleared.

Duhz.

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Was suddenly looking at Maslow’s hierarchy of needs on Saturday. It puts ‘sex’ under the most basic needs, the physiological needs, and puts ‘sexual intimacy’ under love/belonging. Hmmm… The source’s wikipedia.

So… what does it imply?

Wahaha..

Duhz.

On this sunday, I lost a card.

My ez-link card. I thought I had it in my pocket. I was too lazy to trace back my path to find it back. And so, starting tomorrow, I will have a meow-meow ez-link card, which is my mum’s.

Meow.

Congrats to whoever that picks up my card. It has hell a lot of money in there. LOL enough money for me to survive transport fees for 2 weeks at least.

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As usual, I did not return the 2 books today. Let me calculate the costs that I will have to pay. 2 x 7 days = 14 days. 1 day = $0.15, therefore 14 days = 10 days + 4 days = 0.15 * 10 + 0.15 * 4 = 1.50 + 0.60 = $2.10.

Ok. $2.10 to the library.

Unless I manage to finish reading “Congo”.

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Took bus by paying cash today! LOL. $.120, from AYE bus stop to NUS. $.120, from NUS opposite block EA to IMM. $1.00, from JE block 134 to TG block 41. Trying my best not to touch on any bus transfers. Haha…

Walked through engin. Not bad. The temasek institute thingy was really a nice building. And oh yeah, nus sent me something about M.Tech in software engineering. It covers all the shit that we are trying to go through.

Looks like we have been doing shit blindly, without anyone who is really qualified and learned, to guide us in our quest for non-crashing software.

Crap.

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I still want to say, my software sux. I want to improve on it, but the software cycle is stopping me. Talk about innovation and creativity and whatever. If I go through the software cycle thing, it will take me months.

So now, the idea is, if it ain’t broken, try not to fix it.

So sad.

I want a total software revamp. It’s just so wrong to just leave things as they are. So wrong.

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Tennis was ok. Did not really play much actually. 5 person. As usual.

We really need girls in our tennis group. LOL!

Yes, Saturday’s gone. Just like that.

Spent the whole day at YC, looking at sea trials. At least they are all completed. I really did not understand why we had to do those. It’s simply not a requirement, I feel.

Crap.

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Met up with xinli for dinner! Passed the lappie back to her, plus a small small present which was supposedly the bday gift. LOL. Watched her mum perform before that, just outside westmall. Woahh.. dance leh… lol… dun play play ar.

Everywhere else was so crowded, so we ended up eating at the makan place (is it MyToast or something like that…) at the second floor. Her mum joined us for makan too. 1 curry chicken noodles (me), 1 nasi lemak (her), and 1 curry chicken with rice (her mum). Got a free scope of ice cream from udders! Thanks auntie! =)

After that, her mum went gaigai herself, and me and her just sat there and crapped till 9+. Then gaigai a bit then somehow met up with her mum, then went home. Er, they waited for The Transport. I went MRT. LOL.

Oh yeah, bought 初恋红豆冰! Gonna watch it later in the morning.

Before that, went over to je to buy a packet of fried rice. Duhz. hungry leh, somehow.

Did not manage to catch mandy at the shop today. Too badz.

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I still love ice cream like crazy.

And I think I can eat sticky chewy chocolate everyday. LOL.

…

I better not.

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Shit, books have expired. Gonna return them tomorrow. I hope I will do that.

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Ok, now is a time for a quick summary of what I have been involved, and what I think I got back, and what I expected, and what I had hoped.

The verdict?

It’s not worth it.

Forget it.

Next.

Maybe I should reconstruct my definitions of friends, good friends, best friends, colleagues, and fiends.

Soon.

On my way to work now. It’s drizzling.

Oh well. Lol.

Had an interesting dream last night.

Hmm.

Suddenly, I got this sudden urge, to just take over the f main software and revamp it all the way to my liking.

But then, I can’t do that.

I can only stare. I don’t wish to go that path.

Yet.

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Got to go YC tomorrow too. Yeah. Complete that stupid thingy.

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I wore timberland the whole day today! It drizzled for the whole day! So shiok weather to sleep. Zzz. I love my timberland. LOL.

Had some fun disturbing someone today. Interesting hor.

Dinner was at IKEA Tampines! Huat ar!!!! MEATBALLS!!!! CHICKEN WINGS!!! ICE CREAM!!!

Decided to go home slowly tonight. Lt dropped me opposite ten mile junction. 178 was right behind. Took it, and slept all the way past bukit batok. Alighted at JE library. 143 was right behind. Then home.

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As I looked at the things on my home table, I began to ask myself: why am I doing all these things?

And then, I come up with my own answer: I am challenging myself, to train my discipline. My endurance. My determination.

And what motivates me to do all that?

Nothing.

Yeah. Nothing motivates me now. I am currently doing things based on the strength of Lk, and not influenced by external factors.

Lk is more than what you can imagine.