Belief@HazelCafe

Nothing… nothing… nothing…

Yeah. Nothing.

Yes. Nothing.

Just that, the bus behind happened to bang onto the rear of my bus. I was thinking of trying to catch the 176 infront of my bus. Missed the bus, ofcourse, and got a complimentary ride ticket. Once again. This was my third time in this year receiving such tickets.

And just that, I happened to go swimming with dark clouds above me, which had decided to block out the sunlight for me. Once again. Swam around 10 plus laps, and felt that I might have a muscle cramp if I continue to swim, and so, decided to stop. I don’t like to get muscle cramps, especially in the pool. I got it once at JE, once in camp, once during bball. What to do? Sit there and wait for the muscle to recover.

And just that, I happened to want to go IMM again, to look for some things. Found some, and discovered others. Over budget, and so, decided to give them a miss.

And just that, I happened to go into Homefix DIY, and bought some stuff to add into the toolbox. Lots of things that I wanted to buy, but no, not now. Went up to Daiso, and found nothing.

And just that, I happened to enter Giant, and came out with a Akira Thermo Pot.

The uncle that was behind me at the cashier told me that he bought it at a price that was $10 more than mine.

And just that, I walked all the way from IMM to the 7-Eleven bus stop. Before that, I bought 2 packets of 菜饭 home, and a Coke-light with lemon from the 7-Eleven. Took bus home, and that’s it.

And just that, throughout, I was looking, waiting, staring. Nothing happened. No sound.

It’s drizzling now. And the sun’s out. So?

When time and again, things manage to tend towards the negative side, do you think that enduring and thinking positive will work?

But then, who cares how you feel, how you think? People will just think that you are a piece of crapp.

Crapp.

Received an sms at 6.58am. Ruifu ps me for swim.

Well done. He played games till morning, never sleep, thus cannot swim. Sounds familiar somehow.

That's why I keep asking him, “are you sure you can make it?” He gave me a positive reply. With that, I rejected 8am swim. In the end… oh well… looks like I have got to swim myself, or give it a miss. Decide later.

But then, 8am swim won't be possible too. JE pool's closed in the morning for maintenance. Closed means no swim, regardless of time…

It's hard to get people to change their minds. I am the exact opposite. Give me a good reason, and I can change my mind as easy as flipping a roti prata… erm.. hungry… breakfast time you see…

This is personality. Some people are willing to give up more than what others do. Some are more “stick-to-it”. I prefer to be flexible, changing my plans as required. Yeah, sometimes some really big plans need to change too, but then, if there is no choice, why persist?

With great anticipation comes greater disappointment. So, just don't be too excited over events until they have really happened.

Somehow, his ps don't affect me much this way. Just feel quite wasted. There goes my front crawl coach… Aw…

Errmmm… funny-looking tree… have to work on it… Lots!

But then, well, not tonight.

I know, and I understand. I contemplate. I…

Then I realise I thing. I don't really know…

Oh well. Sleep ba…

Still in the process of script testing…

Currently using leaves instead of snow. 枫叶…

I have an idea already. I think I can do it. Yes! I can do it!

Today’s bball was ok. 4 people only. Played with others. Left at 4. Nothing much, except that I have managed to lose one piece of skin from one of my right toes. Will recover fast I think.

Hmm. I better start working on my stuff soon. I hope to finish it by Christmas. Yes, 7 more days. 1 week. Should be more than enough. By right.

Hmmm… that siao guy have gone to Taiwan to take photos with 槟榔妹, and so, I am very free!!! Free until siao! Lots of places un-explored for this hols. Sim Lim (Bugis area included), Junction 8, Tampines Mall, Orchard, etc… Hmmm…

I have yet to find one thing. I shall search high and low. Hmmm… maybe I need some help…

“dunno, must ask”…

Hmm… testing some fun scripts here and there, and making changes here and there. Fun? Maybe…

Today's a nice day, with rain, and I did not go out at all! AhhH!!! Why?? Hmmm… but never mind. Stay at home and rot lor…

Count down 9 days. Ooooo… Maybe go drink wine with Zhenyao? Lol… mMMmmm…

Any siao activities anywhere? Those that are around JE area? Pool? Bowl? BBall?

Haa… bball at night… I think we will end up with black eyes…

Ok, I carry on with my experimentation… Hmm… maybe I should bathe first ba.. it's almost 1am… Aw…

Hmm… went for a swim this morning. The sun was so good! So good that, I am beginning to feel the effects now.. Just a bit. Not too much I guess. And after that, Zhenyao, Lijian and I stoned in Westmall till 3pm, just for the Sakae Sushi buffet… Yummy… But not too many variety leh…

And guess what, I saw Jiahui there! And Ryan! They were erm.. *ahem ahem* and I did not care much and disturb them anyway.. wahahaha!  It was so easy to find jh in a pool of people… easily identified. Lol…

Yeah la.. been re-describing lots of photos due to last time's coding fault. Imagine, I had to re-think what I put last time, and had to replace every description that says “Xinli, Yingfong, me” to that. Madd.. but has to be done. And so, I was done, and even added in JB photos! Get the link from me if anyone's dying to view the photos before they are hatched.. erm.. no… before they are ready to be linked.

What shall I do later? Free, off day? Aw… I want to do something, go somewhere! Anywhere! Flexi-locations. Flexi-timings. Just that I don't have a car, and is not entitled to any free transport unlike some lucky people, I have to reject all late night activities.

Sometimes, I wonder if it is good to own a car? Car for status? Car for convenience? Or car for buaya?

And so, why don't I have a car?

Ok. Face it man. I can't afford it. Yeah.

For those with cars that can be used for buaya, good for you all. For those with cars for convenience, good also. For those with cars to reflect status, go and face some wall and think again.

Hmm… what can I do if I lose to these car people? Nothing. That's one thing I hate…

Oh man.. I am starting to hate lots of things…

Hmm… today (or yesterday) was an early day for me. I have agreed to go to the market (the one opposite Ginza Plaza) with my mom. Woke up at 7.30am! And then washed up, and out we went…

Bought this, bought that. Nothing much actually. And back home. And I worked on my Belief…

I wanted to go out for a bit of jalan jalan, but then, I did not know where to go. No plans to buy anything. Or rather, see where I end up in, and then decide if I need to buy anything or not.

And hey, thanks for allowing me to tag along… lol… to explore the world of clothes and stuffs… wahaha…

No… of course I did not buy anything la! Can't fit me anyway what…. erm… duhz…

Reached home by 7pm. And it's back to TV and my Belief…

I still cannot decide on my background and the flash animation that I want to implement. What's the theme? What's the colour? What's the feel?

Don't know la… see how lor… waahaha…

Erm.. currently testing new stuff here, and so, feel free to play around, but anything wrong, just don't care first. I will make it right…

Erm… Soon…

I was wondering, why I don’t have the lyrics for this song here? How can that be? Cannot be!!! But anyway, here’s one of my favourite songs..

我知道你很难过

唱：蔡依林
专辑：Jolin 1019　第3首

[intro]
我知道你很难过

[#1]
爱一个人 需要缘份
你何苦让自己 越陷越深
别傻得用你的天真 去碰触不安的灵魂
每一天只能痴痴的等

[#2]
爱一个人 别太认真
你受伤的眼神 令人心疼
没有一个人 非要另一个人 才能过一生
你又何苦逼自己 面对伤痕

[chorus]
我知道你很难过
感情的付出不是真心就会有结果
别问怎么做 爱才能长久
这道理有一天你会懂

我知道你很难过
昨天是恋人今天说分手就分手
别问你的痛 要怎么解脱
多情的人注定 伤的比较久

[repeat #2, chorus]

[bridge]
爱若变成了刺 思念也成了痴
也许心碎是爱情最美的样子

[repeat chorus]

And how did I get to know about Jolin’s songs last time? Actually I heard her second album first, at Music Junction at Causeway Point. Went in and grab the CD. And I thought it’s very nice! And then I went back to some CD shop and bought her first album. That was where the above song can be found. Jolin 1019: Track 03.

And I carried on to support her songs, supporting originals, through her contract problem and her comeback, with even better songs and vocals. Wow…

I am renovating my blog layout. For now, let me just keep it plain. And I mean it. Currently I have no idea what to do with it, but then, I will come up with something, soon. For now, nothing.

This afternoon’s swim was great. Swam at least 15 laps, and lost count, and decided to slack. I really need a new pair of swimming trunks. Should have bought one at Queensway that time. Darn… Now perhaps I will have to make a trip back there…

Soon.

This session’s swimmers were all ex-CSSians: Yingzi, Lijian, Zhenyao. Oh well, all CSS 2E ‘1997. Are we old or what, but it’s been 8 years, so to be 9. So fast. And we were still keeping in contact, which is a good thing. Of course, there are others, but less contact, except maybe Victor…

Singapore is already a small place, but yet, we go around seeing people that we know in JB. I saw my SA OG friend, Wenyao, and Sicong, my old old friend since kindergarten! OooO! Of all places, but JB! JB is not that big afterall… I mean City Square. And Jianliang met his friend on our way back on the bus, and I saw another familiar face… Hmmm…

神奇, isn’t it?

And I have uploaded some pictures of the shirt and shorts that I have bought. I think it’s nice…

Body Glove! Lol…

And I did talk about shopping like crazy in Ikea?

Are these 2 bags big enough? No? Hmmm…. It’s big enough to give me problems while taking the bus though…

I was doing some tidying up of my room, and I was looking at this just now. This were my PAE choices.

To be clearer…

See? My first choice was SAJC. I put HCJC at 6, behind NJC, JJC, AJC, and PJC. To be frank, I never liked top-end schools. Sure, they produce top students, but then, is it due to the teachers, the management, or the students, and the chances they got?

By taking a look at some scholar list, one will be able to see that most are from ‘elite colleges’. Why is it this way? Does that mean that, students that are more capable should end up in some higher ranking schools?

To me, no. No point going to some place just for the name. It’s one’s own education afterall. One knows where is the best for his/herself.

I know. That’s why my first choice was SAJC. Not other choices. The rankings behind my first choice were just randomised filling up, with no high-end colleges in mind, until I run out of options.

Yes. I still believe I made the correct choice. I would not have survived too well in other colleges. One reason that I had considered then was the travelling issue. Bukit Timah is a nightmare. Pasir Panjang is very accessible. Flexi-travel for me. I just don’t like to be restricted to one and only option maybe…

Up and On! And the school is moving already… Hmmm…

One thing about school though. School is not about paying school fees. There are many other things in school, besides school fees. School fees are the minor problem that people will face. The more challenging stuff are enrichment classes, overseas trips, whatever this and that, performances, blah blah. And did you say there’s Edusave? Ok, Edusave does help a bit. A bit.

And it’s also about the ability to adapt. Some people just can’t get along with certain class of people, no matter what. Why put yourself in 2 years of misery just because you want to be among the best? In the end, all are still sitting for the same paper. All are equal. Go by feeling, not by pressure…

I think these can be applied to choosing secondary schools too. Why I chose CSS? Because friends did talk about this school. Because I just had to take 176. Because I qualified to be into this school. Because I feel I should be in there.

No. My parents have never force me into any choices before. I am free to choose. I choose my own path. No pressure.

Ok… I have written a long story. It’s time to stop…

Hmm.. I think I will need a new headset + mic. I have thrown away the old and problematic one already. It’s good though, thus it’s quite wasted. I need one, but for now, I shall stick to this creative mic that came with my sound card last time… Hmm…

Sim Lim? Bugis? Plaza Singapura? Hmm…