Belief@HazelCafe

Let me take a break…

And let's view some nice pics… there's more, but I have not been able to get them. And so, for now, here's the very few photos that I have taken last night, at Mandy's Wedding Dinner!!

The dinner was held at the Straits Ballroom at Rendezvous Hotel. Supposedly, she invited 5 of us: Yiling, Sheena, Youhui, Ivan and me. In the end, 2 of them did not go. Quite disappointing… it's so… so bad of them…

A friend who is entering another phase of her life, and friends who cannot even take out around 4 to 5 hours of their night time to share her joy?

Oh well….

Anyway, Yiling, John (Yiling's 9-year bf), Sheena and me were at Table 15!

And here's the menu.

On the same table, we had some familiar faces. Almost all were from PPS. Hmm… the group photo was with the photographer…

Yiling and Sheena!

Ok, class photo… duhz…

Surprised shot while I was testing some settings on my camera..

The 2, from another angle…

Sheena and me. Neighbours that do not really see each other that often… wahahaha…

Bearbear gift! I remembered asking Mandy jokingly if there's door gift, and she said yes. So this's the door gift… heh heh… If only they gave a pair instead of one.. Hmm… Doesn't really matter, but really, it's very nice!

Here's the bride and bridesgroom! Erm… flash too strong, her face too white… so… reflection on her face, and somehow, made her looked like some chinese play actor… opps I think I better wait for the photos from the professional photographers.

And it also means that, I will be thinking of a better camera next time.

The food? Omg…

Lots of complains actually, but then it's still edible. Basically, I don't think that the food is worth the price, but then… oh well…

Do I have to be so bad to complain about all the dishes?? No. I will keep the comments to people who wants to know about it. I shall remember…

As always. I always remember. The only thing is, do I really want to dig up the past? Let the past rest. It's over. It's a reference, not an option to look for blames.

But anyway, it's a good 'class outing'! That's my buddy, Yiling, whom I had hoped to have lunch with when she was still in NUS, and that's my next-block neighbour Sheena, whom I have not seen before! Lol…

And of course, Mandy, pretty pretty bride! Lol… hope you and Wen Jun will be happily ever after!! Hahaha… Maybe, Wen Jun, you can consider going for an audition for the next Superstar audition! I liked your singing… lol…

Yay! 2nd wedding dinner! Who's next??

What a busy day.

Went to play tennis at 8am. Went to attend lecture and tutorial. Went for biology lab. And now, back at home, and going out again soon.

Busy guy like me, free of any strings, is like that. Life's like this. What to do… Lol…

Alright, I will go and look at the nice nice bride later… Hmm… can't imagine… lol…

Finally, part one of the major project is over. Finally. Now it's time to look at some other things before I come back to this little problem of network gaming.

Get my little game here!! G.EXE

I was among the first to present, even though my name's quite behind in the list. Everyone else had decided to be on time, but I chose to be ahead of time, which proved to be a wise choice. Presented to him my code, and he had no complains, and that's it. Done.

After that, I went to meet Prof Ge at his office. And it just happened that when I was there, he was talking to a long-lost friend of his, and I think the call's from US, because he said goodnight before hanging up the phone half an hour later. I was free anyway, so I waited in there, enjoying the aircon. Quite sian actually. Should had brought my laptop along, so at least I can make some music in his room, or even play the musical game with his son… wahhhaaa… idea leh…

The talk went fine. There's one thing I knew after that, and that is: I won't be getting this internship. At least not what I have wanted. They are looking for people for sales, which is so-called commission-based. And I am so bad at advertising and persuasion skills. And he did say something about not being to pay for an intern as the company is not really making money yet, and that if I want, he can take me in and train me in technical skills, but unpaid…

But then, I think I need at least some money to eat. I told him I will think about it. In the meantime, I think I might be looking forward to round 2. Or backwards. Or withdraw. Suddenly thinking. Maybe, at current level, I should not be doing VIP. I am still not clear about my direction. Which field to go into? They are all very fun. Opportunity costs.

Haiz…

Everything has to be very clear. The concept must be very clear…

Hmm…

Well, shown him this webbie. He said that he don't think that it is very complicated here. I did not know to laugh or to cry, and I decided to just keep my thoughts to myself. This site, the complexity is… I also don't know how to say it. But then, PHP can be considered a script. How complex can a script get?

Basically, some things, people just do not see. Some things, people only see it on the surface. Some things, you have to put yourself into some other person's shoes in order to see properly. Some things look simple, but they are not as simple as they look.

Some things, ?????????.

Never mind about that. Come think of it, it's quite easy actually. lol.. PHP it shall be. Maybe one day, I shall make it in such a way that, an easy webbie is all that is needed to be successful. Why make your life difficult by making something that's complex? Think easy, think simple, and think friendly.

I believe in friendliness.

After school, I played the bus game again. 188 never arrived, but 183 did. I was sleeping all the way, and I woke up in time, before the bus stopped at the bus stop before it went into the interchange. But I was so sian that I decided to take the bus all the way in, and walk out. Jalan jalan a bit. Nothing to buy. IMM? No 188. JP? Too far for a Thursday late trip. Another day ba. Monday, maybe? 10am dental, then jalan jalan…still have to go Orchard to collect my electronics voucher…

Met Meimei in school just now. She was meeting Ben, and then ?? return my policies to me. Well well… lol…

Met Kelvin just now. I was having some little problem in looking for names to sabo… no.. to give him to introduce some really nice plan… But he's the type that doesn't believe in really selling. But many people still think that insurance agents and financial advisors sux, and so, I decided not to give away too many names. I don't like people to turn hostile to a friend just because he or she is having such an occupation. 

I wondered why people siam from all these people. I always meet them with a mentality that I am just there to listen to their talks, and provide them with feedback as and when needed. I treat it as a meet-up. A friend chat session.

Which also means that, I will not really meet anyone I do not know.

So far, I have met 3. 2 are the really nice ones. 1 has been blacklisted by everyone.

And I met 2 of them on the same day. Well done.

And tomorrow, there's a 2011 quiz. I am not ready. Just like today's 2004 quiz. I left a question blank. I don't understand. No point copying something that I don't understand. Might as well leave it blank, and then I will find out the answer, and I will remember.

To me, what are marks? Statistics. We all have led very statistical lives. Everything is numbers…. what to do…

Been writing non stop these few days. It's hard to work on a single question, when, while you are trying to look at a section, suddenly, out of no where, some incoming meteorite comes crashing onto your face.

It's hard to work with lots of ideas in the brain. The ideas are there, but the time just refuses to fit in nicely. For my project, I should have completed it on Sunday.

What happened, I don't know. Just slow.

And because of this project, I am behind, for my GEM tutorial. Did not even try. And luckily, I have written the homework last week.

It's hard to help everyone with everything. I will like to help, but then, how can I help so many people at one time? Impossible.

And I myself have not been saved yet.

Time… time… time…

Found the last can of Tiger beer, and drank it up. Nothing else to drink anyway. Hahaha…

No no… not ????. I don't have any ? now. But I am still thinking….

Yes, the Choice is correct. There are some things that I cannot do, and cannot provide. It will be better, to just look in the opposite direction. Things that I have missed. And things that I have neglected.

Time won't wait for me. People won't wait for me. Even I won't wait for myself. And so… just look around…

I will survive.

Went for an interview at 5pm. When I reached there, the time was 4.25pm. Grace was still in there! Haha… Her timing was 4pm, 1 hour before mine.

One thing for sure: we were both super overdressed for a saturday afternoon interview. Duhz. I simply hate wearing formal. I sweat rather easily, and that long sleeve shirt sure retains heat. But then, I quite like the shirt actually. It dries up very fast.

Hmmm… I felt like an Ah Beng trying to act ??…

After she left, it's my turn! Lol… I gave them no rest time. Haha… Went in, and listened to blah blah blahs… quite interesting actually, the things they did. But then, it's an interview, or it's a product presentation?

OMG…

And I showed them all my work online, including the 2 company websites, and ofcourse, my HazelSky System here. No no, didn't mention it's called HazelSky System, but, whatever la… this whole site is by me, and me, only and only.

And a few hours ago, we received an email, telling us to make an appointment with the director. Hmmm…

I am still thinking. Let me think.

But firstly, I think I should get back my sleep first. Fell asleep a few times while watching <<??>> just now. Aw… And currently, I am having this stomachache. Must be something that I have eaten just now… Hmmmm…..

Hmmm… slept at 4am, woke up at 8.30am.

Well done.

I want to sleep!!!!

Haiz…

So many things to do, so many things to complete. Let's shift some of them into the trash bin… lol…

Went to play pool once again. We had much more people today, and we opened 2 tables instead of one. In the end, the cost was still very low. Good.

Who was there? Zhenyao, Linchuan, Junguang, Xiuli, Lijian, and me.

I wondered what was I thinking about while playing pool. Bad day I guess. Tiring day. Bad day. Whatever. But overall, it's a good night.

????????????????

Wahhahaaa!!!

Dual coffee tonight. One coffee with milk at the pool place, and another Nescafe Latte from the Mobil petrol station at Taman Jurong area. Coffee has virtually no effects on me. Somehow the trip to JP reminded me of some trip some time back… A really sad trip actually.

Whatever, it's over. But it seemed like it happened only yesterday.

Yeah. Time flies.

And who says that Time can heal all wounds? As long as you remember it, no matter what, the wound will still hurt. And so, the best way to heal a wound is to forget. How to forget? Bang the wall or what, get your brain damaged, or until you get amnesia.

And before that, you need to ask yourself: is it worth it? Does the loss of memory justify the healing? Will it be better if you remember, and that will somehow protect you from future harms? Or will it over-protect you in the long run?

One solution. Many consequences.

Went over to IMM on Thursday, after the 2005 test. Nothing much to buy actually. I just wanted to walk around. See-see, look-look. And it seemed that, my probability of going IMM on Thursdays is quite high. Thursday is virtually the only day that I will take a bus from Engin. That's the only day that I will have a higher chance to end up at IMM. And so, on Thursday, I was planning to go there.

I have to draw a line. I have to be very clear of my actions. ??.??.

Bought a little Lux Spa Awaken shower foam, the one with the orange smell and the mint feel. Very cooling. I was using it after my swim on Friday morning. Shiok ah.

Besides that, I was actually looking at watches. Nothing much caught my eye. Just a very brief look. Not much chance to have some very detailed look. Never mind, I shall open my eyes big next time. Somewhere out there, there's one waiting for me.

No. I don't believe in birthday wishes and valentine's day wishes and christmas wishes and whatever wishes on whatever days. They don't exist. At least for me. I don't expect anything to drop from the sky. I don't wait for things to drop from the sky. It's too disappointing. I don't want to render myself hopeless ever again.

Sometimes, events and happenings can make one stronger. At least, it will look like, from the outside.

After tutorial on Friday, I decided to play the bus game again. This time, I think that, actually, I should end up at Ikea or Queensway, as 33 came first, but I did not board it. I was still thinking whether to play the bus game. In the end, I took 188, alight 1 stop later, and 197 was behind. Took it. Somehow, nowadays, I liked to alight at the JE library, and walk all the way through JEC and come out from the other exit. I wonder what's that for. Fun? Maybe. Went home instead, since 197 meant home trip.

And now, I am stoning around. I need to smile.

Smile.

??, or ??? Neither.

??.

Oh well…

Minus 10 marks for nothing, just because I am not so pro in explaining and using Euclid's Postulates….

Minus another 4 marks for nothing, just because of a stupid mistake. Drawing 6 dots instead of 2. My calculations was correct: 2 dots. My drawing was wrong. Duhz.

Minus 2 marks due to some stupid guess. Should be 1000BC. I guessed 2500BC…

Minus 2 for forgetting how to write '1' in Hebrew… Thought he said he also could not remember, so just forget about it… duhz…

Explained 'algorithm' halfway. Minus 1.

Minus 1 for wrong symbol used for Roman representation.

The whole test was 100 marks. Stupid mistakes… wahahhaa

Whatever. I passed. Lol…

Never mind. Kill all of them during the final paper…. heh…

Tomorrow will be one last mid term. After that, it's completely into ASM coding. 24/7. And hopefully, the end result will work.

When it's done, I think I will upload a copy for boliao people to play… lol…

I got lots of stories to tell. But not now. Not free to type it out. Lalalala…. cya…

Stupid lab report… didn't know that's so much to write about. But nevertheless, it's completed. Half an hour ago.

So sianz. 1 lab report. Spoils all my plans.

I have nothing else to say. For now. Sometimes, the more I say, the more I will think I am stupid.

But indeed I am stupid… so I think it doesn't make any difference at all.

Whatever.

I rather sleep. For now.

Went to watch Final Destination 3 with Eddy this morning. While walking around before the show, Eddy saw ??? at the Lai Lai Kitchen, with a girl which we did not manage to identify… Oh well… he's cute la… as in, small size, happy happy type… lol…

But anyway, we noticed the girl first before we looked at the guy beside her… Wahahha

Regarding the show… It's an OK show, NC16, a bit gross, but not too scary. Somehow, if I were to edit the movie's audio, maybe I will put some music similar to those at Happy Tree Friends, and I think, it will turn into a comedy! Wahahaa!!!

All the scenes… falling from great height, body slam against metal, being burnt alive, head crushed by weights, nails poke through the back of the head and protruding from the face, being crushed, etc etc etc… Ew…

Doesn't it sound just like Happy Tree Friends?

While at JP, I nearly wanted to buy a watch for myself. But then, I don't really see anything I like (yet). Quite limited, the brand that I am looking at. Took a look at the watch store at the JE pasar malam. $5. But then, not nice also… Aw…

Keep on scanning ba… I have some things to decide: rollerblade, guitar, watch.

I want all of them…

After that, I went back to school for a makeup lesson. 2007 is getting more and more fun as time goes by.

2005 is also very fun! And whenever I think of 2011, I will be very excited, but being excited doesn't mean the question will be solved… wahahaa… I see 2004, I start to sweat…

Oh well…

Tomorrow's lab day… once again… haiz..