Belief@HazelCafe

Yes! Finally! It's 2006! Darn… going to be 23 this year… getting older… and older… and older… Hmm…

And, I failed to accomplish what I wanted to be done by 31/12/2005 23:59:59 +8 GMT. Sorry to the people who have guided me along, encouraging me, and hoping for me.

I think, I will evaluate my HopeList 2005 later in the morning? Hmm…

Nothing to do already! Time to have a good new year sleep…

Ok, went out this morning to help Eddy once again with the brochure distribution. This time, it's regarding IMM and JEC. Heavy stuff, but quite nice as it slots easily into the mailboxes. ooOooo

How many today? 35 + 40 packets. 100 brochures in 1 packet. 7500 brochures in total. Jurong West + Jurong East. Fun eh? Lol… And I got 2 minor cuts on my fingers due to the papers… ooo aren't they sharp. 

And that sudden, no, expected rain, but never expected it to be so heavy, caused me to be wet!!! And at one place, the carpark was slightly flooded! I had to walk through! And I was slightly wet too! Ahh!! And that Victor still smsed me… duhz…

Reached home at 4+, and have been stoning around ever since…

Tonight? Nothing's on. Stone at home ba… as always…

Never expect anything anyway.

Yeah.

Shall watch Hollow Man on channel 5, and just slack around, and enjoy the last of 2005…

I still have some time here, and so, some things that I wanted!

• Guitar! A cheap one will do
• Modem/router! To replace that siao siao Linksys one…
• Phone! K750i? Later people say I copycat. Nokia's hopelessly expensive and.. normal…
• Roller blades! Erm.. even though I do not know how, yet.
• Bicycle! Any one, with gears.
• Toyota Altis! Dream on…

Wahahaa!! There's more! I shall add them in somewhere, when I ever think of them…

Ok, time to get out soon…

Ending soon… Yeah!

Tried to play with keyboard, but no tune came out of my head. Tried to look around, but there's nothing to see. Tried to play games but lost. Tried to stone around, but sianz.

I think, I just go offline ba…

Sometimes, I do feel like a fallen leaf…

Alright… it's time for more new year resolutions! As usual, it's time I write my HopeList 2006! As for HopeList 2005, I will only evaluate it when it's 2006. 2005 is not over yet!

For 2006, I hope:

• to add more colours to my life,
• to be healthy,
• to bring the CAP up even more,
• to be as flexible as ever,
• to understand, to listen, to feel more,
• to not jump into conclusions too often,
• to bring happiness to anyone, everyone,
• to not wait for too long,
• to do what I think I should do,
• to continue to believe.

All are not listed according to priority. All are equally important. Some people may just brush it off as “nah…. crap!”, but I just have to believe. All are pretty indirect I suppose, and are able to branch out into more things. Alot of things, summarised by these 10 in this HopeList.

And a very important lesson to be learnt this year is:

Higher expectations bring about greater disappointments.

Surprises are more pleasant sometimes. Of course, there are nasty surprises, but overall, nasty surprises are mostly due to much ignorance, to high expectations, to stupidity. So, why not plan for a nasty surprise? At least if it is really bad, it will not be that bad, because it is expected. If it turns out good, then it is a pleasant surprise!

Yeah, same as what optimisation and run-time always require: Always consider worst cases/ scenerios.

Do I need to elaborate every of the 10 Hopes? I don't think so. Use your imagination. Feel. Touch. Hear. Look. You will understand. Eventually.

And I believe.

Anyway, stoned for the whole day today! Nothing on. All's not free for any swim. No one's online. No idea what modules to take. And nothing much to do at home also.

I think I miss out something last night? After the distributing of leaflets, Eddy and I went somewhere Jurong for supper! Nasi Lemak… not that good, but still edible. Hmm… And at night, I have this problem of identifying places, and especially when I am wearing specs. Where was the place?? Hmmm… Boon Lay I think… the newly renovated one. Very high ceiling. I like! Lol…

And yes, I received my notice to collect the coin. Since I opted to collection at the mint, I will have to wait till 9/1/2006. Within walking distance… haha… Yes, the 2nd coin for the series. 10 more to go.

I still have a story book to finish reading, a short story to read, a timetable to plan, a room to tidy up, a few things to buy. That trip to Ikea, frankly, was a wasted one. Not all were interested to give that place a full walk that day. As Jianliang had experienced, I buy things after really little consideration. And I buy things without much consideration if they are for people.

I like to see people smile. Never mind if it doesn't go both ways. That's not important.

Maybe, I will go Ikea again, one fine day…

Oh well, Mr Law is going to charge me for webhosting next year! Eh… special rate leh… 1 month $1? Wahaha… I dream on…

Wah… I woke up at 8 plus… I wonder why… wahahah… nothing to do anyway…

And I was reading the newspaper, and after trying to read (or flip) everything, I read the horoscope as usual, and… omg… these few days have been really… like… what I am trying or thinking to do?

Well well… reading for fun. Just don't be absorbed by it… lol…

Who comes up with the horoscopes anyway? Hmm…

What shall I do today? Flexible…

Just like water…

Wow… just came back from hours of flyer-distribution! Hundreds and thousands of mailboxes, thousands of leaflets… quite fun… but at the initial stage, I was sweating like hell… wet!

What was it about? 香味肉干… lol… new year coming you see…

Yeah, thanks Eddy for jioing me for this little job. Been around JE and JW. Not bad. But at night, I do need some extra time to get my directions correct…

*yawns* time to sleep. Another day gone, just like that…

I was listening to 933 while distributing. I think what was being said is the thing that I should do. Yes, answers. I do need them, indirect or direct. I prefer the latter.

Let’s end this year this way… That will be good.

Swam yesterday afternoon, and swam today morning! How many swims do I need in a week? Today's the third time already. Yesterday, there were Zhenyao, Emmanuel, Yingzi and her friend, and today, Zhenyao, Jianliang, Weimin, Yingzi. Yesterday was home after the swim, and today, we, excluding Jianliang, went Ikea for lunch! Met Lijian there, and we went to the yummy cafeteria for makan… hmmm… no photos! I am not holding on to K750i. My mom is. Hahaha…

Hmm.. what did I eat? Some steak with black pepper sauce I think… Others had ordered poached salmon, some vegetarian fried rice or whatever… blah blah… and, swedish meatballs again!! Ahh!!!

After that, Weimin went back to school, and the rest went for a bit of jalan jalan in Ikea. Bought nothing. Then went over to Queensway Shopping Centre, and bought swimming trunks. Nothing much for me to buy anyway. And I could see that Zhenyao's getting sianz, and Yingzi's getting bored… No no… not caused by me ar…  Wahahhaa…

Home now. Perhaps, later will not be around… Hmm.. see how?

Aiya… who cares if I am around or not? Lol…

After looking around, I found out that, actually, I have been writing crap. Lots of it.

It’s the end of the year. Time to get a bit sad. Another year is going to pass.

And yes. I am still Lk. No change. Nothing Ever Changes…

Nothing Ever Changes

唱    ： S.H.E
专辑： 美丽新世界

[1]
嘿 不要不开心
我不是要离去 只是那来自远方呼唤的声音
要我 去探头看看生命窗外的风景
我去去就来你别红眼睛

[2]
My love 原谅我太好奇
但世界太绮丽
我怎么能不一一去经历
否则我一定会恨死我自己

[chorus]
Nothing Ever Changes
请快乐等待
等我绕一圈回来 还会是那个爱你的女孩
一样很容易 感动感谢感慨
你给我的爱
我永远爱

[3]
My love 要不是你给我 那巨大的勇气
我怎么会这样相信我可以
随著梦想留下美丽的足迹
串成了故事带回来送你

[bridge]
我答应你
等我看够美景就回来
交给你一颗更丰富的心

Sometimes, it’s so difficult to get answers. I don’t like to force answers out. But then, won’t it better to know? Yes, ignorance is bliss, but then, is it fair?

Oh, I forgot: Nothing’s fair.

I just have to live with unfairness. I have too many weaknesses to even it out. And I also need to let go of things sometimes.

But still, I need answers. 未曾拥有过，又何能放得下?

Hmm…

Went for a swim this morning… Yingzi decided not to swim, and smsed me at 9am. That's ok with me. That nua guy was still sleeping when I smsed him at 10. That's it. And a pig was late as usual.

Swam around 9-10 laps before a pig actually entered the pool. I think, if I did not stop to stone, I should be able to finish 20 laps within an hour or less. But I am a slacker…

It's tiring to swim and maintain that pace… My stamina's not there yet…

After that swim, I went home after buying lunch at JE. Watched DVD till almost 5. Nothing better to do. I still have 1 more to go. Hmm…

What's up tomorrow? Decide tomorrow ba… I don't know…

I am for hire tomorrow afternoon I guess.. Any takers? Rate is only 1 ice cream…. lol…