Belief@HazelCafe

Well, woke up at 7am this morning. I do not know why. Suddenly wide awake. Decided to go for a short run since it was still early. After the run, I went to buy breakfast. Lor Mee… from my primary school classmate's mother's sister (or simply, his aunt…). Found out from her that her son will be in NUS this year too. Forgot the name though…

Alright, sushi time once again. This time, I tried to spread the rice thinner on the seaweed. The end result was better. Have been looking for a guinea pig who did not mind testing my sushi out, but somehow, I could not find. Too bad then… 😛 you missed 'good' food…

Found a litre of Magnolia's low fat milk with apple juice. Nice unique taste. But somehow, it tasted a bit like honeydew…

Basically, besides the run and sushi, I did nothing much. I fell asleep once again while reading my book… hmm…

Another song that was missed out during K-Box session. I liked the lyrics. Quite sad actually…

我不難過

又站在你家的門口 我們重複沉默
這樣子單方面的守候 還能多久

終於你開口向我訴說她有多溫柔
雖然你還握著我的手 但我已不在你心中

我真的懂 你不是喜新厭舊
是我沒有 陪在你身邊 當你寂寞時候

別再看著我 說著你愛過 別太傷痛
我不難過 這不算什麼
只是為什麼眼淚 會流 我也不懂

就讓我走 讓我開始享受自由
回憶很多 你的影子也會充滿我生活

我並不懦弱 你比誰都懂 雖然寂寞
這會是我 最後的寬容

抱緊我 再抱緊我
這一份感動 請你讓我留在胸口
別在說是你的錯
愛到了盡頭 是非對錯
就讓它隨風 忘了所有 過得比你快活

我真的懂 你不是喜新厭舊
是我沒有 陪在你身邊 當你寂寞時候
別再看著我 說著你愛過
別太傷痛 我不難過 這不算什麼
只是為什麼眼淚 會流 我也不懂

不要再說 或許這是最好結果
現在分手 總好過你不愛我一拖再拖
鬆開你的手 離開你左右 我向前走
這會是我 真正的解脫

Played basketball this morning. Nothing much. It’s a usual bball session. Went with Dennis to Zhixiang’s house to collect some VCDs. In the end, we got invited for a buffet which was for Zhixiang’s father. It was his birthday! Felt a bit awkward for being there. We were about to run away already and were at the stairs when his mother rushed out and asked us in. Next, out came his father too… zzz… no choice… Since we did not prepare any form of gift, we just wished his father a happy birthday… awkward…

F.I.R. Westmall. Proposed time: 7pm. Actual time: 8pm. Proposed number of songs: 3. Actual number of songs: 2. Overall. Great! They had great voices, and they sang very well! Yeah they sang LIVE! That’s the way singers should be singing… 2 photos… can’t get the stage. I was too far away.

Lots of people. Lots of screams. And lots of inconsiderate fans stopping the escalators and using them to see their idols. But then, stopping the escalators will be better than blocking the escalator exit…

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Why a sudden so much words… I don’t know. Perhaps it was just the F.I.R session that inspired me to go on and write…

Just came back. Went out this evening for a primary school class gathering. It seemed like it was another normal small group gathering to me.

Met Junwei and Weibiao at 6pm. We went over to Heeren together for the supposedly class dinner. Met Waiman at her workplace: Eyeplay Optique. We were early, or so we thought. At 8, we met Ivan. Waited for another half an hour for 2 guys, Guohao and Kelvin. In the end, the 5 guys went to Marche for the so-called dinner. After that, Guohao and Kelvin left. Yaobang joined us then. Next to leave was Ivan. So, at 10, only 4 guys and 1 girl. We went down to Acid Bar for a drink. Then some games of pool. The end. I don't wish to elaborate further.

What went wrong. 1) Girls changed their minds (as usual) at the last minute. 2) Ye Zhixiang, the other organiser, was down with flu. 3) Mostly were simply not interested.

Sometimes, I really wondered, is it that difficult to take out a few hours to get together? Will coming out shorten your life? Will meeting for dinner kill your the-other-half? If your partner wants you not to go, let me tell you: you have no freedom.

Yes, I know that organising such outings is a stressful and difficult mission. You have to make sure that all can be able to make it. And I thank you, Waiman, for that, although I don't think you are going to have the chance to read this (maybe you will.. lol). No it's not your fault. We are grateful for your eagerness to gather all of us. And I really hoped that we will have another better gathering soon…

Ahh… performed another trick while playing pool just now. The famous hole-in-one shot… maybe I should not play too much basketball… lol…

It rained just now. Sort of cooled down the temperature even more.

Went out today at almost 2pm! That was the first time I stepped out out the house. Was being too lazy in the morning to get out to buy breakfast and newspaper. I settled for instant noodles for breakfast. I made my way to the library. I must be dreaming when the bus passed by the bus stop opposite the library! In the end, I alighted at the next stop and walked…

Quite lucky. Managed to find the 5th and last book of the Belgariad. Currently reading it. Spent 1 hour at the library reading through 3 chapters. Got out in the end as I felt myself getting colder, and with the coldness, the hunger came… Was supposed to go for a swim, but due to some unforseen events, decided otherwise. Maybe that's the opportunity cost for finding the book I wanted…

Slightly after 3, I made my way to IMM. Decided to go buy some stuff. Jap stuff to be precise. I am going to try out my sushi skill again, maybe on Monday? Any guinea pigs around I wonder? -lol-

Currently, my hair's of a slightly lighter shade of brown. Made a slight change to the previous colour when Victor said he wanted to bleach his hair. We all asked him lots of time, 'are you sure you want to dye?'… Well, he's back to his black hair today… -lol- nothing to say…

Tomorrow's Saturday! Another weekend…

Went K-Box this morning. There was a total of 5 people. Quite fun.

Sang a couple of songs. None of them solo. At the end of the 3 and a half hour session, I am still able to talk normally, which simply meant that, hey, I did not sing much, did I?

Missed out some of my favourite songs. Did not touch on 纯真. Missed out on 勇气. Did not 'Fly Away' too much. Lots of others not touched. I wondered why.

Somehow, missed Dennis' singing… have to find 1 good Sunday to go K-Box again…

Singing was dead for me today. Singing a sad song as if it was a happy one. Wrong mood. Wrong song. Sometimes wrong key? Maybe.

zzzZ

听不到

夜 黑夜 寂寞的夜里
气 生气 对自己生气
软弱的电话 又打 给你

想 听你 那边的空气
有 什么 精彩的话题
你还是温柔 给我 婉转 的距离

我的声音在笑 泪在飙 电话那头的你可知道
世界若是那么大 为何我要忘你 无处逃
我的声音在笑 泪在飙 电话那头的你可知道
世界若是那么小 为何我的真心 你听不到

会 很会 伪装我自己
你 不该 背我的秘密
沉重都给我 微笑 给你
奔 狂奔 空旷的感情
走 暴走 暴走的伤心
透明的叹息 最后 还是 我的秘密

我的声音在笑 泪在飙 电话那头的你可知道
世界若是那么大 为何我要忘你 无处逃
我的声音在笑 泪在飙 电话那头的你可知道
世界若是那么小 为何我的真心 你听不到

听不到听不到我的执着 扑通 扑通一直在跳
直到你有一天能够明了 我做得到 我做的到

我的声音在笑 泪在飙 电话那头的你可知道
世界若是那么大 为何我要忘你 无处逃
我的声音在笑 泪在飙 电话那头的你可知道
世界若是那么小 为何我的真心 你听不到

… My song … one of my favourites. Perhaps it's true for me?

Went to attend the brief at NUS. Nothing much. The talk’s interesting. Well, the Engin Club’s President was ex-CSSian. That famous China guy… haha… knew that long ago, so nothing surprising.

The CORS Brief. Even worse. Not much. Expected some useful info. In the end just reading from websites. I also know that. And I don’t need a big projection for that either.

Maybe the best thing today was getting to meet so many old friends! From my secondary school’s to my JC’s. Some had changed a lot. Some no change at all. I even met my BMT bunk mate…

OK, signed up for Engin Orientation Camp. Don’t look back… Look the other direction.

Went over to Clementi Transitlink Office to apply for the EZ-Link card. A fast and easy transaction. Gave my IC, she scanned, paid $5, got receipt, and told me to collect it 2 weeks later from the school.

After that was a few hours of no-direction. After going our separate ways at Clementi, I took 285 to West Coast. There, I took 30. I did not get off at my home. I went to JP. Spent some time there walking around, hoping to find that ‘something’, but failed. Time is running out. Went into Popular to buy some stationary, and yet forgot to buy a roll of scotch tape to replace. Went down to TS, NTUC, DIY Store. Nothing. Went back up. Decided to give myself a break. Coffee Bean. White Chocolate Dream. Regular. Great. Felt better after that. So easily contented. Me.

Bought some curry puffs home. Had to run from one end of the interchange to the other to catch 79. Did not expect myself to run that fast. Yeah, Coffee Bean Power! Haha…

It was 5pm. A rather bad time to take 79. The bus was almost full when it reached Penjuru Road. I had to wedge myself at the back seat as one auntie decided to allow another younger lady to sit with her at the back. Imagine. Back Row. 7 people. Luckily I only had a few stops left.

Once home, I took out that ‘ice cream’ that I have made last evening. It had became too hard! I had quite a difficult time digging it out. Here’s the picture. Not very appetizing though…

Countdown to the start of school… maybe I should set up one…

After putting my photo albums behind ELove Lock, I will now move on to other things. I will be back, concentrating on the overall ELove look. To start it off, I have modified the main logo a bit.

Found the book that I have been waiting for at the library! Book 4 of the Belgariad! Before I got that book, 1 guy was holding on to it! He was like standing at the shelf, reading it. When I went over to the shelf to hunt for the book in vain, I turned and saw him holding a book. The first letter I saw was the big 'C', and I knew that he was holding on to something I have been searching high and low for! I 'loitered' around the area, hoping that he would put the book back to the shelf. He did! Phew…

Going to attend the talk at NUS later. Hope it won't be too boring…

I have always said that ELove's giving me headaches, but I had a real one on Sunday afternoon, after that bball game. I must be due to the afternoon sun. When I went home, everything was alright, until I showered and continued reading my book. Then the pain came. Could not concentrate on reading. Gave up eventually to have a 20 minute nap. Now? Still hurts when I walk around.

Are there any happy things for me to think of? I doubt it.

Was talking to Zhenyao about girls and relationships, and his experience… and I wondered, hey, where's mine share of experience? Maybe, I am still waiting. Perhaps, I already have someone in my mind. Or… am I already in someone else's mind? This I seriously doubt it. Radar detected no incoming target…

I don't really like the waiting game. I feel that I have always been waiting. I think I will be a great 'waiter' next time…

Headache, but I still hope I can finish the book by tonight…

Actually fell asleep at 8 plus! I was reading the story book that I had borrowed on Tuesday. No, it's not that the book's boring. It was quite nice. It's me.

I fell asleep too this afternoon while watching TV. I was just closing my eyes when it was commercial time, and in the end, I was in Z land…

Aiyo why like that? I only played basketball in the morning… and it's not a really tiring session too… Got hit on the upper lip by a flying bball though. Last time, it was a lip and teeth collision, and it bled. This time, it was lip and metal collision, and it bled even more. I was quite used to the taste of blood in my mouth and actually thought that my blood carried a little sweetness in it. Ew…

On 20 July, there will be a Dean's Welcome Tea at NUS. Think I will attend. Even though I might be alone. I will find myself some other people to go with me…

This is bad. While I am writing this, I feel like I am getting the flu…

Went to swim this afternoon! We postponed from 1400 to 1430 to 1500, all because of the dark clouds! It did rain a bit. After that, it was dark clouds here and there, and suddenly the sun came out from nowhere, and the swim was great! Cold, cold water! Liked it! Haha…

Suddenly felt like going to K-Box! Long time no sing! Although the braces will be in the way somehow, I think I can still sing… I am having some minor problem whistling now… hmm… Till now, I haven't try out Fly Away by 梁静茹 ( not the one by F.I.R…) and probably will want to try 欧得洋：孤单北半球!

Ok, end for now…