Oh no. It's back to the normal daily routine of waking up at 6, get out of home by 6.40, and reaching school by 7.40. Then it's one day of lectures and crap, and back home. It's back.
Time passes real fast when I switch myself off.
Fri, Sat, Sun, and Mon. Monday is V-day already. But… maybe… I just don't stand a chance…
“You never know until you ask. You never know the outcome until you try…”
Didn't I?
My belief is Hope. Keep that star shining brightly…
Lyrics introduction early in the morning… haha… fell asleep last night while stoning away infront of laptop… well done…
我爱你
唱：S.H.E
曲：Geoman/Villalon from Sweetbox
词：姚若龙
从你眼睛看着自己 最幸福的倒影
握在手心的默契 是明天的指引
无论是远近什么世纪
在天堂拥抱 或荒野流离
我爱你 我敢去 未知的任何命运
我爱你 我愿意 准你来跋扈地决定
世界边境
偶尔我真的不懂你 又有谁真懂自己
往往两个人多亲密 是透过伤害来证明
像焦虑不安我就任性
怕泄漏你怕 所以你生气
我爱你 让我听 你的疲惫和恐惧
我爱你 我想亲 你倔强到极限的心
我撑起所有爱 围成风雨的禁地
挡狂风豪雨 想让你喘口气
被割破的信心 需要时间痊愈
梦想缠着怀疑 未来看不清
就紧紧的拥抱 去传[递]能量和勇气
我爱你
我爱你 我想去 未知的任何命运
我爱你 让我听 你的疲惫和恐惧
我爱你 我想亲 你倔强到极限的心
哪里都一起去 一起仰望星星
一起走出森林 一起品尝回忆
一起误会妒忌 一起雨过天晴
一起更懂自己 一起找到意义
我爱你 我不要没有你
我不能没有你 绝不能没有你
Went out at 11am. Home by 4. Fast right?
New year for me is nothing much, except for the standard visits to 4 places. Later, I will be going to the 4th place. That’s all.
Yeah, people always get along quite well with cousins, but I don’t think I have that kind of ‘family’. I don’t really know my cousins. They are like those ‘see-once-per-year’ people, with some that I don’t even get to get for years! Basically, it’s like that. New year for me is just like any other day, the only difference is the aim of the day. I just go out, and collect ang baos.
Talked to one of my many cousins! Yeah, I have many cousins… lots… and almost all are so much older than me! Generation gap… =P This one the age gap is less.. haha … Rare occasion anyway… I will often chat with him if possible. Don’t know why, but I feel closer to him one way or another. He’s my ?? (if I am not wrong..). Blah blah about university stuff, jobs, and the importance of that piece of paper that I should be getting after 4 years… Not bad… He told me about some management things, which somehow, the name rang a bell in my head. Sounded like MNO… 
Finished my Lab3ex2 before I went out. I have been working on that since 8th feb 8 pm. It’s like taking a chopper and trying to solve that problem. Wrong simile… hmm.. never mind.
Yeah… 22 liao… so fast. I have wasted 22 years of life, just like that.
I have to ask myself. What have I achieve so far? I can tell you all, it’s nothing much. I have always been limited one way or another. The limits set on me when I was young have effects on me as I grow up. When I was in kindergarten, I remembered myself as a super-talkative and kpo person in class! It’s up till pri 1 that I have changed, due to the fact that the form teacher complained that I have been too talkative in class… well… what else can I say. Look at me now… Due to the lack of training since young, I don’t talk much nowadays. If that little limitation did not have any effects on me, maybe I will be some where else…
Next, limitation in sports. The whole world knows I am into basketball. I played, most of the time for fun. I am not the pro type. In primary school, there was this school bball training which I wanted to join, but in came the limitation: Mother would not allow me to. So sad. Why like that? If I was in the bball training/team, maybe I would have gone into bball in JC! Who knows…
Limitations have lots of effects on me. Even though now, being 22, there are not much limitations, but what’s the point? The damages have been done. No amount of repairs is going to fix it completely.
I need to fly. I need to be higher.
Went back to school for a 1/2 hour tutorial! Maths tutor just explained some concepts and that was the end of the lesson. And from what Joan said the day before, I knew they had something. And indeed they had. A bday gift for me! Well, it’s a nice little light purple wireless mouse! I was wondering what I can do with it. It is now sitting nicely on top of the shelf. Quite nice looking. Thanks Poseidon and friends… =)
Alright. It’s CNY! Enjoy everyone! Had quite a simple dinner just now. Watched TV while working on my lab3 ex2. Time passes real fast. I have been working since 8pm till now, and I am not finished with it! It’s just me, I guess…
My laptop’s still trying to sign in to MSN… looks like the server’s down again. This is the second time within 24 hours!!!
Wow! Did not have such a great sleep for a long time! It's great to make yourself so tired that, the moment you lie down on the bed, you are gone! I tried to read my story book, but in the end, I dozed off with the lights off. When I woke up, it's 2am! Wastage of electricity…
Would Have slept even longer if not for the 'wakeup call' at 8am! Woke me up for breakfast!!! And so I crawled out of bed, and brushed my teeth and all those standard routines… Strangely, I am really awake the moment I opened my eyes. Something must be wrong with me somewhere.
Yeah, strange dream also… Wierd… Strange people have strange dreams…
Have you ever encounter situations where, somehow, you feel that at the particular moment, you feel that you have gone through that moment before? As in, that moment happened once before, and you are going through it once again? I do have a few such situations before. Friends' house, discussions, whatever. It's like “knowing the future” feeling.
Currently doing Maths on one side and clearing up my computer on the other. Mdm Chang replied to my email this morning, and that somehow puts a full stop to the problem on my side.
When I wrote to this line, the song was:
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倒带
唱：蔡依林 作词:方文山 作曲:周杰伦
我受够了等待你所谓的安排
说的未来到底多久才来
总是要来不及才知道我可爱
我想依赖而你却都不在
应该开心的地带 你给的全是空白
一个人假日发呆 找不到人陪我看海
我在幸福的门外 却一直都进不来
你累积给的伤害 我是真的很难释怀
终于看开爱回不来 而你总是太晚明白
最后才把话说开 哭着求我留下来
终于看开爱回不来 我们面前太多阻碍
你的手却放不开 宁愿没出息求我别离开
你总是要我乖慢慢计划将来
我的眼泪却一直掉下来
过去怎么交代你该给的信赖
被你亲手缓缓推入悬崖
从我脸上的苍白 看到记忆慢下来
过去甜蜜在倒带 只是感觉已经不在
而我对你的期待 被你一次次摔坏
已经碎成太多块 要怎么拼凑跟重来
终于看开爱回不来 而你总是太晚明白
最后才把话说开 哭着求我留下来
终于看开爱回不来 我们面前太多阻碍
你的手却放不开 宁愿没出息求我别离开
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方文山 and 周杰伦, the ultimate combination…
Going to school later for this one-hour tutorial! Hopefully the tutor appears, or else…
Sunny day now. Will it rain later? Should I go get my ice blended? Should I step into somewhere today? Or should I stone at home after 3pm? There's no one to play bball with, and I do not have the ball with me. There's nothing I can do today!!! Can I tear down the house and rebuild it?
Wierd… it's wierd…
No coffee for me… only plain water, and milk, for the whole day…
I flew from place to place today. First destination was CSS. I took 188. Went to collect the cards. Somehow, they misprinted one card, and it looks like I will have to bother Mdm Chang once again… opps… Total time at CSS: 5 minutes.
After that, I flew down to Great World City on 188 and 51. While waiting for Dennis, I had a quick lunch at Yoshinoya. Someone please remind me not to get Salmon bowl next time. I suggested we go to Harbourfront after I took a walk inside the shopping mall myself. He arrived in a cab, and off we flew to Harbourfront. That was our shopping siao mode. Shop like siao… $$ also fly like siao…
After that, I decided to take 188 to school. Well, while waiting for the bus at the bus stop, somehow, I realised that, there's no 188 at the bus stop as it terminates in the interchange! And so, I crossed that bridge to the interchange. Reached school. Went in for less than 10 minutes, and out. And what did I have after coming out? A bottle full of water from the water cooler. Took 188 again, and changed to 97, and then 143 to home.
That's the life of someone who does have a class 3 license, but just cannot afford to have a car…
Bus companies must have hated me alot, due to the number of buses I take EVERYDAY…
Somehow, my plan for coffee at IMM was… how to say it… I will just use the word “destroyed”. Maybe that's too strong a word…
It's just me, ok?
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Song recommendation time:
痴心绝对
唱：李圣杰
想用一杯Latte把你灌醉
好让你能多爱我一点
暗恋的滋味 你不懂这种感觉
早有人陪的你永远不会
看见你和他在我面前
证明我的爱只是愚昧
你不懂我的 那些憔悴
是你永远不曾过的体会
[chorus]
为你付出那种伤心你永远不了解
我又何苦勉强自己爱上你的一切
你又狠狠逼退 我的防备
静静关上门来默数我的泪
明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会
我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天
直到那一天 你会发现
真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲
[bridge]
曾经我以为我自己会后悔 不想爱的太多痴心绝对
为你落第一滴泪 为你做任何改变 也唤不回你对我的坚决
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Yes. I should stop wasting my time on things that are not worth it.
This, let it be my BDay wish…
Yes, I am the Quiet One. I sit around, and 'look'. I might seem that I do not know, but, well, I know! I know what's happening around me ok.
My problem is, maybe being too observant is no good. I see people's facial expression. I see people's movement. And I try to put a reason to that kind of thing. Sometimes, I put the wrong reason, and it's bad…
Maybe I should stop doing all those things, and try to think of something else…
Being too observant can be quite disastrous. Sometimes, a simple problem can be thought up by me into a really complicated one, with various outcomes, when the most straight-forward solution is to just ask. It will require lots of effort to find the answer if I do it that way. It's also very time consuming.
Conclusion: I should ask more.
Having seen lots of things, I think that it will be great to share my views to others. But, having views that are different from people, I seldom speak up, unless people in that group know me well enough.
Conclusion: If one find me crapping more and more, one will know that, we are not really strangers.
Maybe I should go take a course on psychology? No…!!!
Alright, enough of crap. About bball today! It's a really hot day! Victor, Dennis, CJ, Fucai (rare player), me, and another ah boy from the shop at the void deck (he won't tell us his name… who knows why…). Wear my bball shoes for the first time! Nice! Can fly! (夸张…)
It's really interesting to note: why people can play very well while in some particular teams, and they just don't seem to do the same while in others? Some people just don't pass the ball. Either: (1) They are not looking, (2) they are confident of themselves, (3) they cannot find anyone to pass to, (4) they have no confidence in their team mates, or the worse one, (5) they are simply selfish. Not looking, I accept that, but not in the long run. Confident? Yes, it's good. Cannot find any one? Good excuse also. No confidence in their team mates and the selfish ones are the worst. Some matches, I can just stand there and watch. I have nothing to do. I just pass the ball back, that's all. That makes me feel more like a referee.
I can write a whole essay on bball behaviorial and technical observations, but, I will take the whole night to write these crap, so I shall stop for tonight. No more crap!
Tomorrow is a predicted travelling day! Got to go back CSS to collect 2 alumni cards, and also to go shopping with Dennis! He PS me twice already! And ZX, after getting his GF, had forgotten about our shopping agreement last month. Never mind. It's good that he's attached.
It's only 3 days away from the new year, and I am still not done with the shopping. Well done.
But it's ok for me. There's no lessons (most probably) on Tuesday anyway. Poor NTU friends… hahahhaa
And… without any notice, I have shot past my 500th blog entry??!! That's a bit fast…
Can you believe it, but JH used that Ampere Law song at her bloggie!! Listen to it over at her bloggie!
For those who want the Mp3, here's the link:
http://www.haverford.edu/physics-astro/songs/AmperesLaw.mp3
For those who do not have enough of Andre Ampere and Maxwell, here's more:
http://www.haverford.edu/physics-astro/songs/
There's even one on Gauss's Law??!!
Ok, plan for today:
Design and implement an ADT for mail. Name the class MyMail. Functions required are:
->MyMail() – to declare and set up some private variables.
->Mail_Sender($name = “”, $email) – to set the sender of the mail. If name is empty, use the email as the name. X-sender will be set to the same values.
->Mail_Recipient($name, $email) – to set the recipient(s) of the email. Same as MailSender, If name is empty, use the email as the name.
->Mail_CC($name, $email) – carbon copy.
->Mail_BCC($name, $email) – blind carbon copy
->Mail_ReturnPath($email = “”) – sets the Return-path for undelivered mail. If unspecified, Mail_Sender value will be used.
->Mail_MIME($mime= “1.0”) – sets MIME version.
->Mail_ContentType($type = “text/html; charset=iso-8859-1\r\n”) – sets the content type.
->Mail_Headers($headers) – additional headers to be added to the mail.
->Mail_Subject($subject = “”) – sets the mail subject name.
->Mail_Content($content) – sets the mail content.
->Mail_Send() – attempts to send mail. If successful, returns true, false otherwise.
More will be considered in the future.
I must be mad about programming to do this kind of planning… OMG… But it's clearer this way, ain't it?
Well well, something's done today, at least! Went back for MNO make-up tutorial. We were late, or rather, Ben was late, resulting in me being late also. Listened to interesting discussions and learnt new things as usual. It's a fun module (so far)…
After that, Ben and I went to buy Mac for lunch, and we ended up at Engin Foyer planning our CTW stuff for Monday. At least work was done. We actually got something going, so it's not that bad. Stoned there till around 2-3pm, and left for Queensway!
Bought my bball shoes! Not a very great pair, but still, they are wearable! Helped Dennis bought his Le Bron shoes as there's an offer. And he should clear his debt soon I hope…
Did nothing much after that. Was stoning at home. Actually fell asleep while watching TV just now! I must be really tired in order to do that! Think I shall be 乖 and go to sleep early for a change (wow). Actually, it's just that, there's not much people online for me to disturb…
晚安。。。我明天还要早起,和妈妈去买菜。。。
tomorrow's a standard Sunday routine… bball!
Yes! For the first time ever since I changed my blog layout, it rained quite a substantial amount this evening! I was on my way back to Central Library in Edwin’s car when we realised that the sky’s quite dark. I did tell him that it would not rain, but changed my ‘verdict’ after second thoughts. And indeed, it rained while I was in the library!
Found no one else in the library, except for Brandon, who had been there almost the whole day. I sat opposite him, trying to solve my programming crap. Gave up at 5pm. Just not in the mood to solve problems. Something else was on my mind…
Left the library and made my way to the bus stop. Took 183 instead of 188 when I have half-decided to go IMM to shop! In the end, I walked from JE interchange to IMM. Shop like money’s water as usual and almost spent a blue colour note, and it’s just at Giant! Would have spent even more if not for the plastic bags I had to carry once out of the supermarket.
???Mdm Chang of CSS called me just now! It’s regarding the alumni card! Finally, after almost 1 year, there’s news! Well, she said that I did not go and collect, but I did not know, as there wasn’t any notification to me. She checked with me my address, and said that she will mail it to me. So nice of her! Thanks Mdm Chang! =)
Ahh… 14 February is approaching… what will I do on that day? Or rather, what can I do on that day? This just reminds me of some crap that we wrote in camp, called “?????”…
So, most of my group people are already attached, and so I guess they won’t be that free…
Maybe I shall walk around in school with my specs on that day… so that I will not see too clearly what’s happening around me?
Going for makeup lesson later! for cosecutive weeks, I have been going back to school on Saturdays for makeups. Lectures, tutorials, blah blah. But what to do? It’s CNY…
