Belief@HazelCafe

Reached school at the usual time. Back to normal, for 1 day.

There's a lot of things undone. I've completed programming lab, did 3/5 of the webassign. I've not really touched on the tutorials, and later's my tutorial lesson… well done…

I wonder when I will be able to go over to Ikea. I need to go shopping to do. I've got a whole basket of things to buy. Lightings, photo holders, interesting stuff, snakes maybe… hahaha shop shop shop!!!

I've not finished reading the story book. I am taking 6 weeks to complete a book…. what can I say… Ok.. shall finish it asap.

It's 2am! Aw…

Another OK day later? Hopefully…

Somehow, I think something might happen later… I don't know if it's good or bad. Let's hope it's not too bad.

I predicted rain at 4, but I hope it will rain now. It's cooling. Nice weather to sleep then. I wonder if I will wake up in time later…

What will happen? I don't know…

*throws dice and flips card*

I have effectively 5 more hours to sleep…

Went for that Maths test. It's over. Finally. I am back to normal, or am I?

I have to be in school later. 11am. For MNO discussion. Going back to school on Sunday… for school work… wow… And after that, bball! Yes! Bball! Don't rain ok…

After today's test, we stayed back to touch on our CTW stuff. Somehow left my wallet at the benches outside LT7a, and only found out about it when I was at Clementi MRT station. I had to take 96 back to Engin to get it back.

Yeah, my Belief that the ones sitting at the benches after we got up are good people. They are! I got back my wallet! Wow… If not, I will have to make a police report, terminate all my cards, get new cards, pay replacement fees, eat grass for a few weeks…

Well, thanks!

Went down to Sim Lim (Again. This was the 4th time in 2 weeks!!!) to look for Hanwei. That camera's giving me problems. Showed him the problem, and he replaced it with a new set. Camera name? Ricoh Caplio R1. 4.8X wide zoom lens. 4.0 megapixels. It's a good camera! And it's so 巧! Saw that guy who held on to my wallet an hour ago! He recognized me! I was still thinking, why this guy looked so familiar, when he said about what happened, then I remembered! So 巧! Did not asked for his name though. Ahhh… but we shall meet again…

Walked into Bugis Junction after that. Found out that there's not much things there, and so, I took the MRT. Reached City Hall, and I thought of going over to Suntec, but was too lazy to walk. Next, I reached Outram Park, and I thought of taking 143 home, but thought otherwise due to laziness once again. Finally, I ended up at JE… Bought Honey! Not those made by bees, but the new album from Cyndi. 

Support Original! Stop Piracy! 

There's one thing I will need in my room: a really big CD rack for all my CDs. Or maybe I shall drill holes on the wall and set up my own. I just need to buy the materials from Ikea. Oh yeah, I have not bought the nice photo thing yet… next time ba…

When is next time? Who knows…

I think I have the answer to my question regarding “why bother”. I can't. I cannot leave things, or people, alone. They can throw me one side, and I will just be sad, for a while, and recover, and back to normal. I am a sine wave. I am a watery sine wave… Watery? Aquarius… I am water. People cannot reach deep into me unless they have a very good scuba diving suit that protects them from extreme pressures. Where to get that suit? I guess only I can provide that suit…

Things to do: webassign, maths lab, ctw, mno, cs lab, tutorials… … non-stop hits…

Why bother to wait for replies? It's always like this…

Why bother to stare blankly at screens (computer screens, handphone screens), and looking at screensavers, and looking at the clock as it ticks away by the minute?

Why bother to offer (help, or to help), when it's not required?

Why bother?

I have no explanation. Maybe other people have.

I don't.

Argh.. *close eyes*

I don't have time to do that.

But, how many times have you taken a lift? Level by level, goes higher, or it digs deeper. When the door opens, you might see things you don't want to see, and so, you press the 'close' button, and move on to the next floor. When you see something that attracts you, you will get out of the lift. You never know what you will see until the door's fully opened…

This is the Lift. 电梯. Bringing you to see things that you want to see, hope to see, or hate to see.

The Lift can bring you surprises and shocks. Happiness and sorrow. Regret. Content. It's all up to you…

Whatever…

Well, stepped into NUS at 7.05am today! What am I trying to do? But today's not me. The bus decided to came slightly later, and so I got on the bus. Tried the expressway method again. Changed to 198 and then 188. Smooth change of buses, with waiting times of less than 2 minutes for all. Ideal travelling. Got out of home at 6.35am, on the bus at 6.40am, and reached school at 7.05am. It's a record-breaking 25 minutes for travelling.

Next time, let me try out the Pasir Panjang way, alighting and walking from bizad, or alighting and change to 188. Let's see which way's faster… I am sure the Pasir Panjang way will lose…

Almost every morning, there's this girl from New Town Secondary, taking the same bus as me to JE. Today is of no difference, except that we took the same bus, and alighted at the same stop at Clementi… well… don't think wrong direction… The point is… so 巧. But then, I knew that long ago… I know my way around Clementi area… hahaha…

Back to stoning in Audi… place cold, people cold…

I better not think about latter at this point in time…

Programming test tomorrow. Maths test on Saturday. CTW stuff on Monday. MNO Project Discussion on SUNDAY!!! What a no-life week.

Can't even I have a rest after the tests? Can't even take a break from all these things? And most probably, not even a Saturday off? Worse, no bball on Sunday for me???

Ahhhh!!!

See the results of procrastination… I have lots of things undone. I need to get them done as soon as possible. It's easy to say. I am always distracted by other things. Other things are not games. Games don't really attract me. Unless it's really fun, and there's someone who wanna play. Games can be quite boring if played alone…

Till now, I am not really sure what distracts me. I just cannot get the frequency right. Maybe it's something deep in my mind that's awakening. Something that's disrupting my daily work. Something that can be good, or can be bad.

What's that something…

Till now, I am still not really ready for tomorrow's test. Lot's of things unclear still. And lack of practice. It's easier to talk my way through programming, but it's hard to write out the code. Typing the code out is a lot easier than writing, as the editor can guide me along as I type, telling me my errors when I try to compile. Not for a piece of A4-size paper, it won't.

Yeah, it's open-book. So? Does it matter? I still do not know what sort of funny questions that might come out. No idea at all. But I believe programming is dynamic. I might use a stupid method, but in the end, I can still get what I want.

Oh man… what's that something…

I am in school now! I reached at 7.10am! Am I mad or what…

It's been only a few hours since my last posting. Currently stoning outside LT7a, waiting for 8am, so that I can go up to have my breakfast… Reading programming textbook.

I missed 3 buses this morning. Buses Theories: Buses like to crowded together. 3 buses. When will the next bus come? So I decided to try something new by taking 97 and 188, and here I am…

Feel like taking a nap…

No, I am not.

I am unprepared. I am unsure. I am not as ready as I have been.

I am slacking.

I am not ready for Programming. I am not ready for Maths. I am not ready for a lot of things. But things keep on coming in…

My lift needs a bit of repair. It has been overloaded, and the repair man is taking his own sweet time to repair it.

How I wish I can go for a midnight swim now. Cold water to wake me up, to bring me back to where I am, and to be ready to face colder scenes.

And here I am, emphasizing on my Belief:
I can do it.

I certainly hope I can. I am awaiting the arrival of Saturday, so that I can start concentrating on other things that I have neglected.

I want my ice blended from Coffee Bean. I want my movie. I want to experiment with my camera that I have just bought just now. I want to do lots of things.

But first, let me believe in myself.

A lot of people are also very stressed, sad, frustrated. No, they are not alone. Everyone's pressurized. We all are. The winner is the one who survives through it. The loser is the one who gives up totally.

Me? Where do I stand? Somewhere in the middle, but tends towards the winning side. Fight it out. And lose happily. No regrets.

千万不能放弃。继续坚持住，加油！

Went to discuss MNO with Ben at YIH. Nice place (to sleep, as shown by CJ…). Suddenly, it rained! Rains are unpredictable nowadays… The programming tutorial was very clear. I love that tutor! But that's not my official tutor. The class decided to volunteer for free transfer after the first lesson… haha