Unhappy…

Lk is still unhappy.

But then, since when is Lk ever happy? Ever truly happy? He can laugh, he can smile. But, all these, are just some conditioned expressions.

Few people can really tell, when Lk is very happy, or very unhappy. But 1 thing for sure. People can tell, when Lk is neutral.

He is neutral all the time. Or rather, most of the time.

He does not like to throw tempers. He does not like to be sad in front of others. He will only be sad when he is alone, in his little room, thinking.

Most of the time, the questions will be: How did this happen? Why?

And of course, asking such questions to himself will not generate the answers.

But overall, Lk is never truly happy. Lk has his problems. His worries. But he never really shares them with anyone else. Why flood people with so many negative thoughts, he said. Just keep everything to yourself. Even if you have said it, people might not even appreciate, let alone on the same frequency as you.

Why waste your breath explaining?

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Lk has just finished dinner. Lk haven’t been eating early dinner for a long time.

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Lk is still unhappy.

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Sad…

A moment of concern, being interpreted as a hostile action.

So sad…

Just…

So sad…

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Sometimes I really hate myself: Are my words so easily misunderstood? Or are people really listening?

Hearing… or listening…

Whatever.

Never mind. Blame myself ba… people do have bad days. I just happen to pass by.

Suay ba.

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So sad…

Just…

So sad…

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Sunday! Sonntag!

Lol… had a funny game of chance today!

Took MRT to TBP! And then, took 33 to NUS!

Wahahaha no chance!

Crap…

So, before I left the place, I went into TBP, bought something from Self-Fix, and then bought a drink, and crossed the road to take 33. Was contemplating whether to alight at Queensway and change to 197, but decided not to. Saw 97 right infront of me, entering into AYE before 33.

Wahahaha no chance!

Zzz…

Anyway, played tennis as usual. With the same 2 other guys from yesterday. LOL… It was a hot day, even though I thought that it was going to rain, around 2.30pm. Zzz. Siao weather.

Not much people though. I think everyone has decided to stay at home to watch the Federer-Murray match. Anyway Federer won… LOL…

Good for him lor…

Wahahaha no chance!

For Murray to win, I mean.

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I am @)#&#!)@(*!@_&^# over Linux installations. F12 has some functions that has been deprecated, and I cannot install the network driver. Damn. And now, I am trying F10. Hope it works. If not, I am going to be mad…

It’s damn cham, when the hardware does not come with the drivers. Zzz…

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Documentation… documentation… documentation… shred shred shred shred… then no need to do….

Fat hope.

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Surprise!!!

Wow! I got a yellow envelope!

And in it, was a card! From my little sis!

Before I started opening the envelope, I already recognized the address! LOL!

And in it, she wrote 1 whole section of ‘essay’ wor… Wahhh…

Details are strictly for my eyes only! Or for whoever I think I can share it with.

Anyway, so sweet hor… sis sends me a card…

So 感动…

Thanks Joan! *muackz and hugz*… LOL!

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Saturday! Samstag!

Wahhh… I slept at 2am, and I still woke up at around 8.30am!

Spent the morning watching TV. Finished watching 仙剑3. This is the second time. I bought the DVD around 1 year ago. It’s quite nice, but I think, 仙剑1 was nicer. Hmm…

And then, went on to watch G-Force. Hahaha!

And then went out for tennis. Heh.

And then, we went to eat dinner at Xin Wang, at Anchor Point. Stoned around, and then home.

Let’s skip the details… LOL…

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Friday! Freitag!

Wow it’s actually Saturday now… well well…

Lots of things to write, but then, let me keep it for later ba…

Not now… Got to bathe… Just reached home!

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Thursday! Donnerstag!

I was enjoying the freedom of travelling around, without anyone asking me where was I.

Ok, not say enjoying. I did not enjoy paying the taxi fare though. And of course, the tools and such, from Sim Lim Tower.

Diaoz.

Spent hours in office, doing boliao things. It still crashed. Somehow. But when I was around, it did not.

Stayed in the office till late. 9.30pm. Really, office at night, is a really good time to do things at twice the speed. I don’t really work well during office hours. It seemed that, everytime I pick up a call, it will be me, to go do some shit things.

It’s really CCA. Imagine. Picking up a call. And you got to go downstairs, to ask someone to call someone back.

Wahliew.

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I am thinking… if, really, everyone’s gone, what’s there to stay for?

I don’t go for personal glory or such. I go for ultimate cooperation and understanding.

Chim…

Everyone is different in one way or another. I always try not to get pissed (too much) with anyone. It’s not worth my energy. Maybe I will be pissed for half a day. Maybe 1 day. And then, the piss-fulness will slowly decrease.

But I will still remember, somehow. Hmm… is that good or bad, I wonder? LOL!

Don’t care la… just be happy!

Yeah! Party!!! LOL!

Siao. Yeah. Me siao!

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Work, is like a debate. people are out to say they are correct, and you are wrong. In order to win, you have to prove that you are correct, and they are wrong.

Yeah! Prove it! Not just say it!

Same in a relationship. If you like someone, prove it! LOL…

Oh man that is so random.

Or is it?

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Heh… I confess. In my blog, I don’t think there is really anything random about anything.

Sometimes, I will write strange things, that are actually not strange to me, but are strange things to other people. Sometimes, I will write crap, which are really, not crap to me.

I think, I am really a strange blogger. LOL.

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Have you ever try this at night? Lie down on somewhere flat, with the clear sky above you, and look at the stars above? The surroundings have to be dark enough though. Then you can see lots of stars! Some are bright, some are dim, but still visible. And once in a while, you will notice the sudden flickering of really dim stars.

Even a dim star, has the ability to attract one’s attention: By a sudden flash.

Think about it.

Lol…

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Wednesday! Mittwoch!

While on the taxi back to AMK, I was writing a post, and I tried to send it.

It failed.

And the post was no where to be found.

WTH…

What was I writing about? Hmmm.. Let me try to recall a bit…

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Plans, are meant to be changed.

Promises, are meant to be broken.

Changes, everytime.

I change. You change. Everyone changes.

Things change. Feelings change. Emotions change.

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Then… I forgot what I was trying to bring across already. LOL…

Never mind. Forgetfulness, is also a great tool, when used appropriately. Heh.

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Solved 1 stupid thing in the program.

Yes, it’s official. “MALLOC” is bad for health… LOL.

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Went to AMK hawker centre to have dinner with the 2 Bens. Ate and crapped and shared ‘insider info’. LOL!

Actually not much la… but better than nothing.

Then bought some deco stuffs from NTUC, some stuffs from HomeFix, and then, home lor…

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It’s Mittwoch! Mid-Week!!!

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Tuesday! Dienstag!

Hmmm… tried to be really busy today!

But then, still not too motivated to work.

There are some things that I don’t think I have any solution for. Why will a process hang itself, when other processes are still running? And the thing is, it seems like the process suspended itself! All threads stopped!

Any crazy pros out there? Any insights for such problem?

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Went to Jalan Kayu for dinner, with tyh. Heh. And then took cab home. Tired. Somehow.

And I slept quite early last night. Hmm. Maybe I am just… tired, after all these crazy weeks.

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Tomorrow, will it be a better day, or will it be another tiring day?

The fact is, everyday’s tiring. Sometimes, I really wonder, where do I find all the energy to be not-that-tired. Maybe some strange force is driving me. Some strange force…

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Sometimes…

Sometimes, I look at myself, and think…

Hello Lk. What the hell are you trying to do? Are you gonna try, and in the process of trying, either succeed or fail, or are you gonna wait, and in the process of waiting, lose all chances to succeed or fail?

Do you want a repeat of history?

But then, from my own ‘Lk analysis’… sad to say…

Perhaps…

I am not there yet.

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Sometimes, I think, how did it started?

I don’t know.

I just did.

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Sometimes, I ask myself, how does it feel?

I don’t know.

It’s a strange feeling.

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Sometimes, I ask myself, what can I do?

I don’t know.

I am hopelessly clueless.

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