Belief@HazelCafe

Currently doing blog repair works. Shall not bore people with all those crap. I shall go explain them to the wall. It understands me better.

With immediate effect, blog updates will cease till further notice. Duration? If fast enough, 1 day. If slow, 1 year. It really depends. Who knows, it might never be up again. In order to do that, what I need is a one-line command in the database:
TRUNCATE TABLE `belief_diary`;

I have nothing interesting to blog about anyway. Nothing. Dead. Boring. Mundane. No life. Lame. Hopeless.

To all friends: thanks for supporting Belief…
To all foes: thanks for wasting your bandwidth on Belief…
To all troubled people: look on the bright side…
To all happy people: hope you will be happier…
To all sad people: cheer up…
To all angry people: cool down…
To all lovers: enjoy your love life…
To all heart-broken people: accept it and let go…

To myself: merry christmas… and a better new year…

I have removed the song that's originally placed here. Why should I put a song?

Maybe I shall start a sub branch next time, called Disbelief…

Hmm… Why?

… How I know?

Just feel sad for myself maybe. Sad for others. Sad for Elove. Sad for everything…

Why sad?

… Reminds me of Mr Yong's “very sad”…

To continue with my last post. There's one more type. The salesperson that knows how to avoid being asked. How to ask when the salesperson keeps running away? I have met this type before too. His face just have this “Do Not Ask Me” look. Some? You ask the question, and you wait for half a day for a reply…

你说没有人问你，但是，你有曾想过，你是否给于人机会问。。。

I think I shall go listen to the waves…

3rd time modifying this:

Cannot find any suitable song to represent… Argh…

Been thinking of too many things at the same time lately. Thinking tends to heat up the processor, and will make the overall internal temperature higher than normal, and can cause serious downtime problems, as in last week's sick days…

Why am I thinking of so many things? Why not I just ask? Why don't I just look for help from others?

It's like shopping for something. I've tried this out at Sim Lim before. I was there looking for a USB PCI card. I searched high and low, and finally asked the sales man, and he just went over to one of the shelves and fished out the stuff I was looking for. The second time I went there to look for some ball stuff, I decided to walk into one shop and ask the salesperson straight away. It saved a lot of time.

Yeah. People tend to overlook things. Or rather, I tend to overlook things. I try my best to look at all things, but I can't. I do need others' help sometimes.

Sometimes, asking is scary. I just need more practice. No matter what the outcome, accept it. It's like shopping for something too. If the salesperson says it's out of stock, don't stand there and grumble to him/her about how long you have been waiting for and the amount of time spent travelling just to get the stuff. Move on. Try again another day.

Of course, the salesperson has to be a friendly one. He/she has to respond to your enquiries. Imagine that you ask him/her about a product, and he/she gives you one-word answers (yes/no/maybe), or even worse, ignores you. Might as well I talk to the cash register…

What a crappy night.

Alright. Went all the way to Heartland Mall to collect back the BMT pics from Yuliang. He then drove me to Hougang, and I went inside Hougang Plaza for a walk before (madly) took 51 to JE… It sure was a long ride… was nearly asleep, but one bus conductor came to wake me up, asking for my ezlink card. Did not manage to sleep after that, and ended up looking at the night scenery. Saw many yummy spots… There was the road where the whole stretch was full of KTVs…

Swimming later. Whoever's going, whoever's not, I don't care. Just a good weather will be great. A slight drizzle is ok too…

Just my mood ba… Can't describe.

Was looking the things on my computer table. Lots of things. Good things, bad things, nothings… glass, plastic, wood, metal… things that remind me of other things, things that make me ponder over other things…

I really need a break under the water tomorrow… not necessarily a swim. Just a break under water…

Suddenly felt like playing the keyboard. Stick to C. But it's late. I cannot play.

Think I just try to sleep… See? Even my USB Bluetooth is against me…

Strange… Something has disrupted me. What is it…

Ok, today's final day for area cleaning. Going to buy another colour to paint the living room! No more blue! No way! I don't care if I am the one paying for the paint!

Thinking of going to collect the BMT photos from Yuliang later. It all depends on what time I finish everything. Missed those pics! I have to recover them!

Tomorrow? Swim maybe…

Something's still not right…. hmm…

Who will believe what I did today?

After bball, at nearly 4pm, Dennis and I took Zhenyao’s van to JE, where we alighted and walked over to the 176 bus stop. I was saying that if 79 came first, I will go JP straight. Otherwise, I will take 176 to Telok Blangah and change 30 to JP.

And so, 176 came. I took that with Dennis. On the way, I thought that wouldn’t it be better if I take 176 all the way to Bukit Merah, and change to 198 to JP? Yeah I did that! On alighting 176 at Bukit Merah Interchange, 198 came! And thus I started my journey towards JP…

Past by NUS. No SMS. So continued with journey… SMS came when I was about to reach JJC… Went to JP walk 1 round, found out that I had nothing in mind, so I called, and went back to NUS for dinner! This time I took MRT and changed to 96. Quite fast. around half an hour. And the MRT and bus did take their own sweet time to arrive… Finally refunded my the other EzLink card at Clementi! Got back the deposit and the remaining value. Got to buy a new one soon. Maybe when I go out the next time. Saw that there’s no queue at Clementi, and so I walked in and settled everything!

After dinner at Mac, it’s time for IMM! Travelled there by 188. Then walk walk around, bought some yummy food (hopefully the burbur terigu is yummy… later I will know…) and went home by taking 143.

Detailed enough? Maybe. In Singapore, how to get lost??! The good thing about buying the concession stamp in December. It’s like I own the bus companies… haha!

Hmm? My sickness? 95% recovered. Sports and sleep on bus and walking around help lots I guess… hahaa..

Well well, these are the tests that I’ve missed out in the previous blog. Found out that Xinli did more tests than me last night! When I am the most free people around! When I was online from 9am till 1am!

Looks like jh’s started a blogthings test frenzy! Everyone’s doing it! Joan, CJ… everyone go do! wahaha!!

Disclaimer: These tests are for fun only. Meaning? Believe at your own risk!

Did a small moderation to the board thing at the side. Now I can change the scrollbar colours! Yay! Anyone interested to use that board also, just tell me… It’s free for friends… wahhaha

Anyway, currently feeling ok already. Recovered while using the computer at 12am. Now, it’s 80% up. Great! Give me 1 more day…

Your Dominant Intelligence is Musical Intelligence

Every part of your life has a beat, and you’re often tapping your fingers or toes. You enjoy sounds of all types, but you also find sound can distract you at the wrong time. You are probably a gifted musician of some sort – even if you haven’t realized it. Also a music lover, you tend to appreciate artists of all kinds. You would make a great musician, disc jockey, singer, or composer.

Well, sick. What can I do? Slept from 5 to 6.40pm just now. Still don’t feel good.

Haven been helping my mom with the painting of the room, but with my condition, I can’t help much. The moment I woke up in the morning, I knew it. Something’s wrong with me today. And here I am, feeling slightly cold, with a headache, and a slight cough…

Well well. Bad things come at the same time, don’t they?

Did a series of tests just now. I am even more bored than jh.. haha…

If I don’t recover tomorrow, I guess I will have to give bball a miss… aw…

听了五月天的”温柔（还你自由版）”，觉得很不错。可以感受到那种伤心，很不甘心，却别无选择的感觉。等一下会把这首歌输入进我的手机。《神的孩子都在跳舞》。蛮好听的！没买错CD！哈哈！

希望我早日康复。希望大家要好好照顾自己。天气冷，要记得盖被子，别着凉了！要不然，后果可能会跟我大同小异。

You Are a Newborn Soul

You are tolerant, accepting, and willing to give anyone a chance. On the flip side, you’re easy to read and easily influenced by others. You have a fresh perspective on life, and you can be very creative. Noconformist and nontraditional, you’ve never met anyone who’s like you. Inventive and artistic, you like to be a trendsetter. You have an upbeat spirit and you like almost everything. You make friends easily and often have long standing friendships. Implusive and trusting, you fall in love a little too easily. Souls you are most compatible with: Bright Star Soul and Dreaming Soul

You Are From the Sun

Of all your friends, you’re the shining star. You’re dramatic – loving attention and the spotlight. You’re a totally entertainer and the life of the party. Watch out! The Sun can be stubborn, demanding, and flirty. Overall, you’re a great leader and great friend. The very best!

Your Element Is Air

You dislike conflict, and you’ve been able to rise above the angst of the world. And when things don’t go your way, you know they’ll blow over quickly. Easygoing, you tend to find joy from the simple things in life. You roll with the punches, and as a result, your life is light and cheerful. You find it easy to adapt to most situations, and you’re an open person. With you, what you see is what you get… and people love that!

Did I break my rule about not blogging until the history page is up? I don’t think so… there’s the workable, but not very presentable history list…

Have you ever talk to anyone who gives you replies using less than 3 words each time? Will you feel like you don’t want to talk anymore?

I sure do. And that’s a sure way to irritate people. Very effective.

And, in an attempt to think positive, why not put it this way: the person is very tired. He/she had a long tiring day. He/she does not want to talk about things that are unimportant to him/her. He/she wants to rest. Give him/her a break.

One might think: why not ask him/her about it? Well, you can try. Some will talk. Some will continue to irritate you more by their less than-3-word replies. One might say again: carry on to ask and try to get something out. Hmm… bad choice I think. Offline/away/busy/be right back mode in MSN. Saying an early goodbye during outings.

So what to do? Keep quiet? Say byebye? Look for something to cheer them up abit?

The choice is yours.

Mine? Keep quiet, and let things take its course. If something’s not to be shared with you, no matter how hard you try, you will still not get what you want…

Maybe I am bad/mad, that’s why.

Went to Park Mall just now for dinner with Eddy, Jianliang, Zhiwei, Yap, and Ho. We ate buffet at Kublai Khan. Not bad, the food and the price. Talked crap as usual. Went over to HMV after that. Bought ???’s new album:????????. Haven’t really listen to the CD yet, but I think it will not be a bad choice, as it tops the sales chart. 15 songs. 1 VCD.

Did I say before that I did some area cleaning some time back? Now my room’s in a mess once again! We are throwing away some furniture, and some’s in my room, where my stuff were placed! Now my room looked like a storeroom…

Think I shall sleep early… haha…. 12.50am. it’s really early…

Will not be updating until I get things right.

Don't try to get any past entries.

IT WON'T WORK.

Good night.

Was singing this song just now. It’s just so full of meanings, and it somehow reflects my thoughts sometimes…

It’s the same for IRC, ICQ, and MSN. Who knows if the other party is laughing or crying? Who knows, he/she might be planning a great story to fool you. Who knows, he/she might be just out there, trying to get your attention. Who knows, he/she might be irritated by you.

And on the other side. Who knows, you might be hurt or tickled by something said. Who knows, you might be believing in or adding on to the story. Who knows, you might give your attention or simply ignore and reply as and when you like it. Who knows, you might also be irritated by his/her attitude towards you.

Sometimes, helpfulness can lead to total disaster. Being too helpful is not good. Bring not helpful is worse. Which side do you want to be? Choose 1. You want people to die, either themselves or with you, or you want people to survive and letting you die instead?

If you choose the former, will it make you feel better if everyone dies together, so that you will have company? Or are you ready to let them fall and you hop on happily to the next stage? Are you ready to be selfish?

If you choose the latter, will people ever appreciate it? Or are you willing to be sacrificed without any gratitude from people? Let people forget about you, and come back to you only when they have problems?

Sometimes, people just have difficulty in listening. They just can’t decipher what you are trying to bring across to them. Some might get the wrong message. Some? You can label them as totally deaf… No matter what you use, even a loud speaker, they still cannot hear anything…

Or even better. They are pretending that they heard nothing… Running away…

听不到

词曲：阿信(五月天)

夜 黑夜 寂寞的夜里 气 生气 对自己生气
软弱的电话 又打 给你
想 听你 那边的空气 有 什么 精采的话题
你还是温柔 给我 婉转 的距离

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我的声音在笑 泪在飙 电话那头的你可知道
世界若是那么大 为何我要忘你无处逃
我的声音在笑 泪在飙 电话那头的你可知道
世界若是那么小 为何我的真心 你听不到?

会 很会 伪装我自己 你 不该 背我的秘密
沈重都给我 微笑给你
奔 狂奔 空旷的感情 走 暴走 暴走的伤心
透明的叹息 最后 还是 我的秘密
(#)

听不到听不到我的执着
扑通 扑通一直在跳
直到你有一天能够明了
我做得到 我做得到
(#)

KBox just now. Feeling’s not right. No enthusiasm to sing. No motivation. Maybe head’s full of nonsense thoughts. I blame it on the lightings. It was not. It was something else. I might look happy, but my thoughts might be somewhere else… Just don’t feel right singing just now… quite wasted…

Just realised from Victor, that I did not have any links to past entries! Isn’t that great… I will settle that later in the day. I am too tired to do anything else now. And no mood too.

If I ever display my mood for this entry again, let me tell you. That’s just routine smilies…