For once… posting on some tagboard did bring about some changes. Wahahahaaa
That's fun… Oh well I must be mad.
Anyway, currently getting some time to breathe. But the air sux…. ew…
Suddenly in musical mode! But it's night leh… hmm.. see how ba. These few days, I have been taking out my guitar, my keyboard. I am still trying hard to get my F chord correct. Sux leh… without F chord, it's bad…
Oh well. Things happened. Things happened, and I could not do anything about that. How bad could that be.
I still hold my ground. As long as I don't have the full picture, I will not say, ask, accuse. I will just see the show. I could have intervened, but it's between the 2 of them, and I did not know anything, so what to do.
No one's telling me anything. No one's saying anything. No one. And all these just bring back my memory of a past blog entry:
"…then you have to realise that you might not be the person to be told, to be given in, to be allowed to catch up…"
Now, thinking about it, I think is me. Yes. It's me. All these things resulting to the last sentence. It's my fault. And so be it. It's good that there's another person around. Good.
That's why, usually when one person's there, I will make myself disappear. Because I always believe that, some things are just not meant for me to know.
I have times when Person B will tell me something, and I tell Person A, and the next moment, Person A asked Person B again, and Person A said "nonsense I've never said that". Talking about backstabbing. What a sad world. And that's also one of the inspirations for the previous post. After today, I think again. Yes, it's me. Because no one's telling me anything. No one.
So be it.
That's why I am always saying, if things are meant for me to know, I will know, regardless of when or where. If things are not meant for me to know, no matter how hard I try, I will only disappoint myself, and will keep thinking about it for the next few hours.
Just now, on my way home, I decided to stop at IMM. I wandered around for a while, and went off. Simply no mood for this. I did not know why I was there in the first place. At JE, I walked aimlessly, not knowing where I will go. In the end, I went 7-eleven and bought a packet of soya bean milk, and gulped it down.
I think I would have preferred Coffee Bean at that time.
Sometimes, things happened, and I will just grab a cup of ice blended from Coffee Bean. How I wished there's a branch in JE…
Currently, maybe I should just have a rest, and see what will happen next to people. As I said, I can only look. Because no one's telling me anything, and I guess, no one ever will.
Finally managed to rush finish the PCB thing. On my way home, in between thoughts of what happened, I realised that I had forgotten to include 3 more copies of a particular PCB!!! OMG… So Monday, I will have to send Ben there to do the correction. He's pro in that. I had no chance to touch that software due to other commitments inside and outside the lab.
The DSO talk was quite…. useless. Nothing new actually. They could not say too much anyway. Too much classified information. But the lunch was great. Wahaha!!
Morning lecture was nothing much. The LT was damn cold. That's what I have remembered.
Ok, I want to swim. I want to bball. I want to play pool. I want to do my project. I want to complete my lab. I want to revise.
More importantly, I want to sleep.
I have decided not to ask certain people too much questions. Why? Because even when the answers are given, I cannot really know if it's genuine or not.
You know who you are.
So, instead of telling the wrong stories, I might as well shut up and just do my own things. Who cares what will happen to you. It's not under my rule.
Some people tell me stories. How many really tell me the full story? Rare. They tell me half the story, and then expect me to believe their story, which most of the time I will, and they are happy. And then they go around and tell some other people some other story which completely contradicts the original story. So, which is the true story?
Sad to say but good to know, I prefer friends that are truthful.
Do I really have to say this thing again, early in the morning? I think I have to.
I HATE LIARS.
Thanks.
New addition to my CD collection
Songs are ok. Some are quite nice. Hmm… that's about all.
And while at CD-Rama, I saw this new Jolin album… erm… I will think about it first.
Before I can really enjoy my music, I will need a replacement for m:robe. The connection got loose even though I hang it around my neck instead of keeping it in my pocket or bag.
And customer service is not too near here… oh well. Warranty is out too. Zzz ba
So sianz…
Went to school. In the lecture alone. So sianz.
Went to PC Cluster after that. No one around. So sianz.
Went to swim at BB. With no one. So sianz.
So sianz…
Wahaha… this post is to make you sianz. So sianz…
Ok ok end.
And yes, went over to IMM for a jalan jalan after the swim! Now, IMM has so many things! Yummy yummy… Fish and Co, Pepper Lunch, Mosburger… blah blah blah blah… The new extension is shiok lah… so many kinds of makan. Yay…
Wahaha!
Played a bit of bball shooting with Herzberg last night. Somehow, my bball shooting percentage was quite high last night. Yeah. Why? Who knows. Maybe it was because of my mood. Happy~~~ I am Mr Happy~~~ 'though 'had nobody… for my own…
Well well crapp…
Ok, back to EE3505…. soon.
OMG… 1 week break ends today!!! omg omg omg!!!
And I am supposed to read up on DSP during the break, and I have only touched a bit today!!! omg omg omg!!! Wahahaha
As if I really care that much? Lol. I will catch up. Somehow. I will. At least I believe in something.
I wonder where's the notes for tomorrow's DSP lecture? Duhz… Go in and stone for 2 hours and see how, maybe.
So what did I do during the 1 week break?
How shiok? Lol. Everyday, I see lines and lines of codes. Lots of ideas in my mind, but constrained by time and budget.
Saturday's rain spoiled my swim plan. Sunday no bball due to insufficient people. Can't I have a bit of sports?
Sianz. Wish everyone a good good Monday tomorrow…
Lots of unknowns for PCB!!!
Can we drill holes and put in wires, or must we use the template that's called 'wire' to make a wire connection? What is the pin arrangement for RF? What this and that?
Ok, while typing this, suddenly, I remember. Use separate connectors for the RF. The separation is to be in the number of pins that it occupies on the breadboard. Yeah that should be the way for the PCB thing. Lol.
Ok, I have a bit more to go, before I can say that PCB is done. Done, but is it good? My PCB designed all depends on holes… No hole, and I can just throw the whole project out of the window, and start protesting. How can we be limited by the number of parts used…
That's just too bad then. See how on Monday. Have to clear all the doubts before any ultimate PCB design. Wahaha…
Ding ding dong… ding ding dong… it's 1st October, and the Alarm goes off.
And 1 more thing: Happy Children's Day~
I've got this siao friend.. .wahaha… who suddenly dropped me an MSN message.
This is what he said on MSN: "I love jiahui!!"
Wahaha!!! Ok boy, if you want to protest and expose yourself, go ahead and leave a tag message. Lol…
He claimed that he was looking through Friendster and saw a chio babe pic, and he started to go crazy… omg.. going crazy in a country up above in the Northern Hemisphere. Lol…
Oh well… Love. What is love? Wahaha not again…
Love for me means care. Since I am an only child, I do quite believe in 'love and be loved', but so far, it's still quite ok. 'Love and be loved not' is more commonly seen, even though there are good cases here and there, once in a blue moon. The 4-letter word can make me smile… yeah really.
Sometimes I see couples on the streets, so loving, and I felt their love for each other. So sweet. Sometimes I see parents and children walking together, holding hands. So nice. Sometimes I see owner and dog chasing each other, having fun on the grassfield. So fun.
Somehow, I think I am the 'I-need-to-be-loved' type of person maybe? OMG I am beginning to sound more like a pet than a human being….
Some things I have already forgotten. So don't remind me about it. It's history. But I don't blame people for bringing it up unknowingly or as a case study. I do that myself too.
It's good reference for a total stupidity type of action. And I see people going the very same path as I did, regardless of what I say. Perhaps they will have better luck. Perhaps not. I cannot do anything. I can just sit down, get some popcorn, and watch the show. I am just part of the audience.
Yeah, I love my friends. They can don't love me back, no problem, but… I will somehow re-evaluate certain things. And so, if suddenly, I disappear from your world, think first: Why?
Yes, people sometimes say that I am hard to understand. Why? Because some things, I have decided to keep to myself. I don't wish to implicate other people. I don't wish to hurt other people. And certainly, I don't wish to be mis-interpreted. And also, some people just cannot keep their mouth shut. Tested and proven long ago. Some things about me are better be left unknown.
Keep them as secrets. Secrets that only the most trustable person in my world will know. I thought I might have found one some time back, but perhaps I was wrong. So wrong.
Oh well…
Perhaps one day, I will just reveal everything. Perhaps one day, people will understand. Perhaps one day, I will find what I am looking for, or will have a chance to get what I want.
In the meantime, I guess I should just watch the show.
Yes yes. I love you. And you. And you! Wahaha… suddenly the room so cold… brrr….
OMG… Friday soon…. omg… lol
Is that fast, or what? It's like, I am at labs and labs and labs, and the one-week break is going to end soon. Test on Thursday, and I have not even touch anything on that subject. Well done.
What to do. Fun things are meant to be done first. Sianz things can wait. Wahaha…
Crapp…
Anyway, some people said that I sound like, or copying someone, when I say 'crapp'. It just shows how far a person knows you – too shallow. I have been using the word 'crapp' (note the extra 'p') for the past few years, and no one say anything. What a sad sad world? Yeah maybe.
Crapp…
But don't care such things la. So many such encounters, still not enough? It's enough. Lol.
I want to swim on Saturday!!!! Anyone anyone??
Hahaha… I am so happy to be in school! OMG… am I really mad? I actually enjoy going back to school on a mid term break week? Oh well, maybe, it's not the assignments. It's the company! Yeah! Everyone's there, helping each other in anything, food, hardware, software, etc etc etc. So shiok.
Yeah and I like the Student Project Lab when it's empty! Yeah! Like today, I was there before 9, but Joseph opened the lab slightly early too, so I went in. I think, I was the only one in there, and it's so quiet! Perfect for stoning! And I wrote my RF algorithm, and after some stupid tries (one wire has to be grounded for the receiver to work correctly), What I pressed on one side was shown on the other side, across a table! Yay! So shiok to get things working the way you want it to be.
Maybe, I should try for a higher security function? Currently, I think mine works fine, because it is based on the "some people will not bother to close the door after opening" theory. Lol…
I shall work on it further, when I have the time to do so.
Anyway, perhaps after the semester, I will buy my own programming board and start playing around with whatever I can play with, and come up with possible and fun circuits for entertainment purposes (Valentine's Day, Christmas ideas already… heh…). And then? Open an online store. And then? Huat ar! Wahaha dreamzzzzz…
Tomorrow's the next 3302 lab. Going to freeze there for another 4 hours. Oh well. Hope PLC is fun.
Yeah, I was drinking avocado milkshake this afternoon when I came across this thought: How about avocado + vodka? What will it taste like? Hmm…. wahahaha
Well well.. that's lame!
Or so I thought.
Had to give that movie a miss. Hmm.. aww… I will wait for VCD ba. Hope you people enjoy yourselves.
Tomorrow? What will happen tomorrow?
"I don't know… about tomorrow…" Lalalalaaaa
