Opps… I have been happily keeping a book from National Library in my bag. The date due was 2 days ago I think. Opps…
Always like that, forgetting to return books, even when I had an email reminder 3 days before the date due. Hahaha… And the thing is, I pass by the library almost everyday… Well… Forgetfulness…
Well well well……done… Donating money to the library once again… aw…
Yes. It's raining. Just when I got my feet nicely under the bus stop shelter opposite Engin.
The bus came. And the rain suddenly got heavier. Maybe, it's Nature's way of cleaning me? Or washing me away?
Perhaps it's just both.
Talking to that love sick guy again. I look at his msn replies, and I smiled to myself. Somehow, the emotions he had, I have been through them before.
Anguish. Jealousy. Disappointed. Neglected. Low. And anything other relevent negative feelings.
“…used one-word replies…” “…takes a long time…” “…ignore me…” “… log off …”
Somehow, so familiar…
That's why. Over all these years (how many years actually? half a decade? Or more?), I have learnt to accept things. I have learnt to look at things from another viewpoint. Ofcourse, there are things that I have not learnt yet.
I am continuously in the learning phase. I am always trying to adapt, instead of people adapting to me. I learn to make sacrifices. I learn to understand. I learn to communicate better.
And I am not really expecting anything in return. That's the way I do things.
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I learn to be contented. I learn to be forgiving. I believe that there are more things to learn, and some things just cannot be learnt on my own.
Regarding this love sick guy, I can only help that much. I can only tell him my way. He can think of other ways, I am sure of that.
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Rain does affect my thinking…
Went for lectures and tutorials as usual. Nothing much today. For the 2010 quiz, the tutor decided to stun us by setting a quiz question instead of just telling us to do one of the tutorial questions. Wahaha… so fun… but I wondered if my argument was correct? Hmm… For 2006, the class got even smaller! 2009 was ok overall. Then we had lunch… Tried Ten Don. Erm… not that good, but still edible.
I think I should cut down on costs for lunch. Why eat so ex??! Lol…
Went up to the PC cluster to program Matlab into 2 girls' brain. It was quite successful, I hope. Went for SS tutorial at 4. I tried to speak, but before I open my mouth, people had already said something!!! Ahh!!! See? I know how to answer, but I got no chance to do so!!! So shitty!
Yeah yeah… positive feedback… wahahahaa
Talked to Kevin for a while after the tutorial, which ended at 5, 1 hour earlier! Nothing much, as actually, I had no other question to ask him except for the way to tackle a particular question. And so, after talking a while, I left… hahaha…
Went back to EA 7th floor. There, someone decided to become a sportswoman by doing sit-ups, dips, and push-ups! Lol.. I also join in lor… want to siao must siao together 1… Lol
At around 8.30pm, I went over to 5th floor, where the Couple was stoning. After stoning for a while, talking crap more than doing things, we all left. Or rather, I left NUS, and I walked down the bridge, and a powerful lightning flashed across right in front of my sight… Suddenly very bright…
I was all wet from the rain, even when I was armed with an umbrella! The rain was so heavy! But it's shiok. I have not used the umbrella for a long time. At least I get to test it once in a blue moon. Ate Sambal ??? for dinner! Bought it at JE. Yummy!!! Ahahaha…
Tired… I think I will sleep soon… *yawns*
Today’s an OK day. Went out of home at 8.30am instead of the usual 6.30am or 7am!! Wahaha sleep like pig like that, and the alarm rang like don’t know how many times, and I just refused to get out of bed until 7am! Lol!
Went to the Co-op after Ben arrived. Went to shop for ink refills and pens and such. I think the auntie must think that I was siao when I told her I need 4 refills. Hahaha… This guy drinks ink or writes with it?
And after that, it’s lectures and stoning in school. And then Eddy SMSed me, asking me about the discount rate of the Giordano keychain. I replied 10%, and asked him when he wanted to go shop. And off I went to JP, after taking a short break at Engin canteen at around 5.30pm!
Met Eugene (my BMT sergeant) on 96. He was very tired, so he slept all the way from boarding the bus to Clementi! Lol…
And yeah, I saw Yushun so many times today! ????, as I was telling Ben and Xinli. Lol.. opps let’s hope he will not be siao siao and tried to search for his name on some search engine…
And now, back to the shopping trip. Reached JP at around 6.20pm. Eddy was already there, and so, we went in and shop and shop… I tried 2 pair of jeans, and finally decided on this straight fit.
Eddy bought his shorts. Did not take a picture of it, though. And I bought 2 more polo-Ts to add to my wardrobe.
A grey shirt! And can you believe it…
It’s pink! Lol… My first pink shirt! So nice! Lol…
OK la…. I better stop here…. I still got lots of things to do! Ahhh!!! Tomorrow’s tutorial day, and I did not do any of the tutorials that I have wanted to do!! Ahhh!!!
Hahha… that’s just too bad…
Went to Popular just now to stock up on printing paper! Decided to give this paper a try, and so, I bought it.
Sometimes, I really cannot find the ink refills at Popular. I think they have kept them somewhere for security reasons? Can’t seem to find any ink refills anywhere, and so, I decided to ??, and buy at NUS Co-op tomorrow instead.
Took a walk in CD-Rama, and of course, walked out without being empty-handed…
Tada! 2 CDs!! Lol!
Just received an email regarding the application of SEP. Too badz, I cannot go due to the usual financial constrains. And this just brings my point further, that higher education and experience are meant for the rich and well-supported.
And that application for the bursary has been somehow rejected due to insufficient support documents??! What’s this? Why my friends submitted theirs with no problems at all, and mine require my past results, and even my parents’ CPF statements???? What kind of admin is this?! IRAS form not enough/acceptable to prove income? Does that imply that a false income statement has been submitted, or what? And I simply don’t have much time to try dig out some CPF statements out of nowhere.
This is absurd. I know they have to prove the income, but why only me??
If I were there, I would have be so unfriendly as to ask the admin people there if they will need my CPF statement to prove that I am NOT working, and so, the family income will be from my dad only? It’s crapp, I would say. KNS!
Now I have more things to look at… zzZ lar…
Yes. So interesting. Regarding how much a guy is willing to go. Just for a girl he likes.
It's Jianliang. Girl lost her bag, her wallet, her ballet shoes. Everything, including notes that are required for some test which is in 2 days' time. She asked him to print them for her. He did. And…. he had gone to send the notes to her.
In Bishan. He lives in Chua Chu Kang.
Maybe, people may think, what a ?? he is, but then, I think otherwise. At least, he did take his first steps, never giving up, regardless.
Sometimes, I really think, are we alike or what? Lol… But then, will I be able to do that? *thinks* Try me then… wahaha…
*censored text – for my eyes only – too badz*
I wonder what the outcome will be tonight? Hmmm… shall wait and see…
And let's end this with a song…
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Was trying to blog while using Xinli's laptop just now at the Comcentre. Mr Law was there too, doing whatever on the comp. Can you believe it, but 3 computers there were down, most probably due to some network error, which prevented me to log in! And I used her laptop while downloading some stuff…
It looked like, her IE don't really like my Blog Editor. It gave me javascript errors which I have not encounter before. Maybe, I should find out why. But not now. Some other time. So far so good. The code worked fine on my computer, on Mr Law's, on any IE actually, but not hers. Strange eh? Lol…
??? coming to NUS for a concert at TH? Wah…. finally, something that's not too “classical”! Not violins and pianos and whatever. Yes… grab all these concerts over from NTU! Bring in the Superstars! Lol…
Dream on. But there's a chance that it might just come true. One day. One fine day…
And yes, we had an even ridiculous dream! I was discussing with Joan on Kbox, and we thought of dragging Lionel to join Superstar next year. And then, we will set up a company to market him as an idol. Something like, selling T-shirts with his face on it, blah blah, such things. We even got the positions set!
Lionel – The Product. lol!
Joan – Marketing Manager (since she took MKT since sem)
Weimin – Assistant Marketing Manager (since he took MKT before)
Edwin – Image Consultant (hmm.. he took part in some pageant before. Experienced le)
Jiahui – Make-up Artist (hmmm… lol)
Caiqun – Assistant Make-up Artist (hmm…)
Fen – Dance Instructor (obvious, right)
Xinli – Assistant Dance Instructor (obvious also, right?)
Benjamin – Hairstylist (he cuts his hair the most… wahaha)
Emmanuel – Language Advisor (sweet-talking skills too pro le. Good use)
Chun Jian – Webmaster (to make webbie swee swee and sell merchandise online)
Junrong – Vocal Trainer (Wahahaa)
Liang Kwang – Assistant Vocal Trainer (listen and complain only, not teach)
Eh… did I miss out anyone? Wahahaa… Win liao lor…
And I told Joan to name the company HazelSky Studios, and she blah blah blah blah blah blah and said “no!”. lol.
We must be mad, thinking of all these things. But the way, we did have some really good imagination there… wahsey…
Wahsey… it’s been 1 year since I touched my field pack stuff. I took out everything 1 year ago, in order to wash the bag. And it’s been one year… more than that actually. Haha… Here’s what the stuff looked like before I put them into the field pack…
See? Everything’s still intact. I don’t wish to open any of the bags!!!
And after packing…
Yeah… Everything’s in! Yay! I am operational ready! Wahahaa!! But then, I am on the sidebenches leh… should still be recallable ba… lol.
By the way, I did all these yesterday afternoon. I am only posting the pics today as I had somehow forgotten about it…
Ooooo I heard from Melvin, that our dear Wee’s getting married! oOOoo! Big Wee, not the small Wee la. That big big Wee Jyi Loong! Lol.. so nice… Aw… I have been trying to find a photo of him in my online photo album, but it looked like I did not put up his pic, which was him along, showing a ‘V’ sign, dressed only in his towel! Yes, TOWEL! Wahaha!
Wondered what his wife looks like? Hmmmmm…. lol… Hope they have a sweet sweet and loving marriage and be together forever!!
Talking about marriages, I think I will have to save up. Not for myself ok, but for friends who might be inviting me to their wedding dinners or whatever ar! Siao liao… Who will be the next one??? Or rather, who will be the first one?! Wahaha interesting eh? I think, 5 years later ba. Lol…
Actually, I used to hate wedding dinners. Last time, wedding dinners were so sianz. It’s like the main purpose for me to go there was just to accompany my mom. So sianz. Most of the time, I did not really know anyone there, although they were all my relatives. It’s not that they lived on another planet or what, but, if I am lucky enough, I will get to see them once a year. Close? No way.
And all my cousins… well… the closest age was 2 years older than me. Some were, maybe, 10 years older? Or more? But that’s not the point. I can get along with people of all ages, but not when there’s little chance to do so. I will think that it’s very strange for me to pop by Bukit Batok after my swims… It’s just a 5 minutes’ walk away… lol…
Ok, back to dinners. If I know people in there, it will be so much fun!!! Yes! So interesting!!! Wahahaa!!!
Oh man, am I getting too excited or what? Lol…
From my online photos page, I was able to find my past Hopelists. Hahaha… so strange, having Hopelists. I wrote them and forget about them! Lol… However, I did accomplished some of them ok. Yeah. At least.
I have been talking about photos, but the links are no where to be found here? Too bad… If anyone’s interested, just change the location. direct the browser to the “/smiles” directory.
Why am I so happy? Because I choose to. I want everyone to be happy! Come on! No matter what, smile! Blah blah! Smile or else I tell you some lame jokes… wahahaha…
Crapp…
Hmm… taking another break from signals…. yeah.. so fun…
Next on the list will be systems and control… kill them all…
But then, I cannot really concentrate when my mind is put on hold, waiting for something, yet it's like waiting for nothing. Why?
I will have to pass all my signals through a HIGH PASS FILTER, in order to remove the LOW signals. But then, I guess, the signals after filtering will be weak, and so, I will require an AMPLIFIER, perhaps, to amplify the signal by 10 times. And I have to make sure that the HIGH signals will not have too much NOISE, or else, they will be amplified 10 times too. And so, in order to reduce NOISE, I have to remain COOL. That will mean that the SNR value will be smaller. It will be best, if I can just FREEZE myself. Freeze my heart, and be cold-blooded.
???. Yeah.
Ok, long time never play around at BlogThings le, and so, saw all the links from Xinli's post, and so, here goes…
| Your Inner Child Is Surprised |
 Meaning, you're rarely cynical or jaded. You cherish all of the details in life. Easily fascinated, you enjoy experiencing new things. |
| How You Are In Love |
 You tend to take more than give in relationships. You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard. |
| The Keys to Your Heart |
 In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy. You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything… no secrets. Your risk of cheating is 100%. You are not suited for a monogamous relationship. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now. |
Erm… not suited for a monogamous relationship??! Then I better go Malaysia then… wahahah… and me, flirting around ar? Hmm…. lol
| What Your Sleeping Position Says |
| You are confident and ready to tackle life. You are pretty vain and happy with your physical appearance. You are born to be the center of attention, and you're unhappy on the sidelines. You're always up for trying something new – in and out of bed! |
Hmmm.. getting inconsistent… lol
| You Should Learn Swedish |
 Peaceful, beautiful Sweden is ideal for you… And you won't even have to speak perfect Swedish to get around! |
Hmmm
| Slow and Steady |
 They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment. They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it. |
Really?? Hmm…
| Your Career Type: Investigative |
 Your talents lie in understanding and solving math and science problems. You would make an excellent: Architect – Biologist – Chemist The worst career options for your are enterprising careers, like lawyer or real estate agent. |
Well well…
| Your Ideal Relationship is Polyamory |
 Which isn't a bad thing, if everyone else gets to eat too! You're too much of a free spirit to be tied down by a traditional relationship. You think relationships should be open and free, with few restrictions. |
Just one last one… before it's back to books:
| Your Blog Should Be Purple |
 You tend to set blogging trends, and you're the most likely to write your own meme or survey. You are a bit distant though. Your blog is all about you – not what anyone else has to say. |
Ok, enough, for now… Wahahaa… Ok, byebye…
Time to settle all those late assignments, tutorials, projects, and tons and tons of others.
I shall go… I shall…
Hmm.. Slept at 3. Woke up at 8.30!!! Hmm.. anyone interested to go Causeway Point? Hmm.. I don't think so… Oh well…
Ok… Shall continue…
Hahaha.. it's time for more crap! And now, here's how my SMS process will look like:
entity sms is
port(
alarm: buffer std_logic:= 0;
CLK: in std_logic;
in_action: in std_logic;
reply: in std_logic;
reset: in std_logic;
out_action: out std_logic;
);
end sms;
architecture sms_beh of sms is
begin
process(in_action, reset);
variable count: integer:=0;
begin
if reset = '1' then
count := 0;
alarm <= '0';
end if;
if CLK'event and CLK = '1' and alarm = '0' then
if in_action = '1' and out_action = '0' then
out_action <= in_action;
count := count + 1;
end if;
if in_action = '0' and count > 0 and reply ='0' then
count := count + 1;
if count > 10 then
alarm <= '1';
end if;
end if;
end if;
end process;
end sms_beh;
Wahahaa.. siao…
Sometimes, smses just don't work. And calling is inappropriate also. And so? What to do? Sit like a fool and wait lor, what else. I was stoning at the usual place just now from 2.15pm to around 3.30pm. I was there alone, and later, WM came and join, and next came Ben. See? “No contact” works better. Better than smses disappearing into thin air.
No, this month's not the most smses that I have sent. I have a past record of 450+ smses sent in a month. But that's considered little to some other people. Some can manage around 800+, and I wondered if they are sms-ing even in their dreams.
Sometimes, it's nice to have people around, so that they can spot mistakes for you. So far, I think Joan's the most powerful one. She can see things. Minor things that I tend to miss out. Some things that I will never even notice 10 years down the road. Wahahaa… it's good to have such a good sis around ar… Thanks leh… lol
Erm, no, this is not a farewell blog post or what. I am just trying to keep track of happenings. That day she spotted more than 1 thing. And I never even notice them before. Oh well… See? Surprises, surprises… hahaha…
Yes, I tend to overlook things too. Because, I often missed the surface, and ended up deep down, while the answer is on top of me.
Just now, at the bus stop opposite NUS, I saw Fuming and Guowei! And Fuming asked me if I am taking German… hahaha… my msn nick must have used too much German words that the whole world thinks that I am taking German. Hahhaa… never mind, I shall continue to use German in my msn nick. 😛
Took 188 to IMM to jalan jalan a bit. Tried to psycho Ben to go, but he did not want to. Never mind. I can go all myself too. Never mind… Oh well, just wandering aimlessly. Saw some nice nice shirts, but did not buy, as they are ex… Hmmm… Saw Mr Sum too. I was outside Giant, and he went in while talking on his phone. No I did not go back into Giant. I just came out from there! Too bad…
And then, more aimless walkings, and then, to JE interchange, and home…
So sianz… Haiz… It's just too bad…
