No, ELove not up yet. Today's the third day!
Suddenly, it started raining just now. It's just like my mood, a sudden change. I do not know why.
It's now cool, for the time being. The sun will be out later, drying up all the wetness, providing warmth, providing rays of hope. That's what I need now.
Borrowed a book yesterday. No one will actually believe that I borrowed this book! Macroeconomics is the title. I had dropped Econs during J1, but why, of all books, did I choose to bring that book home? Will start looking through once I have the mood to do so.
I don't actually like the library at JP. Most of the time, I cannot find the books or references that I wanted. This is so unlike Woodlands, where I can always find some books that interest me. Perhaps 'regional', being bigger, will have a wider range of books… Still waiting for Jurong Regional Library to open on 5th June!
I don't have the mood to do anything much today. I actually decided to go back to bed when my alarm rang this morning! Something's wrong. Even when talking to people, I don't feel right. Something's wrong somewhere…
Hopefully the rain did wash away some remorsefulness…
So Free…
Written on Tuesday, 18th May, 2004, at 08:34pm.
Location: Home. Weather: Warm. Mood: -_-
Can't believe it. I am actually watching the ending of Daddy's Girl and Heartlanders on Channel 5! I am so free! Got to watch Incredible Tales later. I had missed quite a few episodes due to forgetfulness and timetable clashes. Interesting stories of the supernatural. It was this show that started out our 'Sessions' at night, talking about those happenings… It's an interesting topic, as all of us are curious. Do they really exist? …
Went for a swim just now. The weather was so hot, even though there's an hour of rain in the morning. The water's warm, even in the wave pool! Can you imagine… Swam at least 10 laps. I had lost count, going laps after laps. I just want to forget everything, but it's difficult. Can someone just hit me on the head, so that I can lose some part of my memory due to amnesia? Haa touch wood…
Tomorrow's FFI Day #2! Going back to camp late afternoon for my ORD medical checkup. All should go well. There's no reason for this to go wrong…
I don't care when ELove's going to be up. I have given up hope for this week. This's just not my week. Not my provider's too. Not everyone else's… but things will recover, don't they? That's something I will choose to look forward to, instead of complaining this, complaining that, and nagging, and nagging, and nagging…