I have to make myself clear. I have my limits too. The limits are high high up, but yes, there are limits.
While on the boat this evening, I actually felt sick. It’s a strange feeling. I felt that I rather fell into the water and rest there. My legs are feeling a bit weak. My head’s a bit spinning.
I wondered why.
But never mind, I recovered.
Took the van. All the way to bukit panjang. Yeah. Strange hor, the van did not go to bukit batok. Bought 1 barley drink while the van’s being refueled at the petrol kiosk near bedok.
Felt not better.
Got off the van, at a familiar place. Walked to the interchange, and saw that 180 had gone. Took 176 instead, a bus that I was planning not to take earlier.
It was fast anyway. Or rather, I did not notice how long I had spent on the bus. Ended up at JE. 9pm.
I really did not like buying dinner at 9pm. It was a bad timing. Stalls were closing, or have already closed. And I did not feel like having zichar. Ended up buying chicken rice. Somehow, it tasted awful tonight.
Chicken rice, to me, was never awful.
I guess, I am really at my limits.
I am thinking, what should I believe in, in order to keep me going?
No… I have 1 more day to go, before I can disappear. Wrong. I have 3 more days to go. Another weekend’s gone.
Weekend? What is weekend? there’s no end to a week.
Limits… limits…
Stupid Lk.
I am tired. Physically. Mentally. Psychologically.