As zhenyao's nick wrote, "key to success is failure".
To be able to succeed, you have to fail once in a while.
But what is failure all about? It's about admitting. It's about acknowledging a wrong-doing. It's about contemplating after that.
And after all these years of waiting, I think I can really say that, I have failed. In the past, I have hoped for miracles, and gotten them. Now, miracles are rare.
I have to remember people and things that have really benefitted me. I thank all of them. From the bottom of my heart.
I have to apologise to people who have encouraged me, or to whom I have failed to recognise their importance. I am sorry. Please, give me a chance. Even if you don't, I don't blame you too. It's my fault to begin with.
I have to accept the consequences of my actions. I accept all responsibilities. I accept all blames. I accept all liabilities. I write off all bad debts. I confirm all losses.
I have to let go. Sometimes, I just have to realise that certain things are just beyond my reach. No matter how tall, how short, how smart, how stupid, how rich, how poor, how lovable, how hateful I am. For the last time, if things don't work out the way I want them to be, look from another perspective, and you can find a better world, a better place.
Yes, accept the failure. Avoidance is not the way to be successful. Hating yourself is not too, and of course, hating other people is a no.
With the above idea, a new me will be seen. A new belief. A new beginning. A new hope.
Tennis later. Time to sleep. Lol. The above are all general thoughts. Please don't start thinking I am not ok. I am just… a bit not ok, but most of the time, I will be ok (besides that back pain and such).
Have a happy weekend! If I have time, I should really 'beautify' this place up a bit…