Today's topic. To understand others, you have to first understand yourself.
Sometimes, I think, I do not understand myself too much. It takes me quite a while to even think of a simple word to describe myself. It's not a simple task. Even though such things always happen, I don't seem to be able to use the same word everytime. It's not a simple task for me.
Yes, I don't know myself. Some of my friends think they know who/what am I, but what do they know? Most of them only know the most basic level: Quiet and cold when unknown, friendly when known. Some more observant ones will manage to read (and read correctly) in between, and discover more.
But that should apply to everybody, doesn't it? And very observant people are rather rare.
I agree that I do not disclose much about myself. Not that I do not like to talk about it, but I see no need to do so. Not many people want to know anyway. It's the same for happenings. Be it past, present, future, I don't really talk about it.
Maybe, I have another bigger problem: the lack of a strong ability to express myself sufficiently. Maybe I don't think that's required, that's why it's bad, or vice versa – it's bad, that's why I cannot.
Oh well.
So what do I understand about myself? Don't know…
Since I don't really understand myself, how am I going to understand others?
"You don't understand…"
Yes, that sentence will often come back to haunt me.
One problem that I don't really like to touch on is BGR. I have no authority over this topic. Often, people will not like to talk about their own BGR, especially one that's gone bad somehow.
"No point talking about it…"
"It's complicated…"
"Sianz…"
"It's nothing…"
Some of the typical replies.
Since people don't want to talk about it, fine, I shall not ask. Even if I ask, I can give no good advice. Because, I have not been really caught in one.
Experience is virtually ZERO. Nothing to be proud of in this case. Therefore, when people start discussing about BGR, I will be listening. I have nothing to say. Nothing to contribute. Nothing to share.
And where unnecessary, I will not dig into other people's affairs. I still hold on to my own belief: whatever I need to know, will be known, sooner or later. The more I try to find out, the less I get in returns.
And ofcourse, whatever will happen, will.
Went back for quite a not-too-useful FYP briefing session. It's more like a ECE get-together, since everyone's back.
Went to Munchie Monkey with wm, ed, joan, law, grace, xinli. Makan and talk talk session! Not that I have much to say anyway. Went there to listen to latest gossips and SEP happenings. Not that I have much to contribute also.
But then, it's a good gathering. I just felt sianz sometimes. One thing I like though: the drizzle.