Cleaned up my room yesterday. Found nothing special. Perhaps, everything that used to be special have become non-special. Things are just sitting around, collecting dust.
I have an empty A4 size photo frame. I wonder what I can put in there. I have an empty small photo frame. Nothing in there too. Sometimes, looking around, there's nothing much in my room, and yet, there are a lot of things lying around. Some useless. Some useful. Some just exist.
Certain things are just there, but I just feel nothing from them. Certain things are just there, to remind me of other things. Certain things are just there, to laugh at me.
So why do I still keep them? Because they have done nothing wrong.
And for people who are wondering why I have been so busy, and if I am pattor-ing or whatever, here's my answer.
No. I have been busy, because I AM busy. No other reason. I have no girl, not chasing any, not buaya-ing, not pattor-ing. I have no desired target, no intention to find one, no desire to find one, no need to find one.
I am not living in the past either. There's no past, therefore there's no living in the past.
And I am not gay.
Sometimes, when I see couples around me, I will think, what if I am in there? Then I will think, luckily I am NOT in there. Or maybe, why I am not having any? Then sometimes, thoughts wander over continents, and questions become: what have I done for the past 2 dozen years?
Nothing much. Nothing interesting. Really.
Why?
1 week after VIP, I am glad for the 2 week break before term starts. Although there's not much to see at I2R, I still miss the tea breaks and the lunch breaks.
Actually, working in a research institute is ok for me. People who do not like and definitely not suitable for research are those who give up finding answers when a problem is found. They will just see the problem, attempt to solve it using simple methods, and give up and go to sleep when their methods failed.
And also, having a good supervisor plays an important part too. My supervisor did not push me too much, and allowed me to do things at my own pace. Therefore, I did things at twice the speed.
The most bad thing that happened during the VIP was the first day, when my supervisor assigned the other guy to do the image processing part, while I was tasked to do this new hardware project. I was looking forward to look into some programming for image processing at that time. But whatever, the hardware project was good too. At least it made me the (should be) highest-spending intern. Let's see, LabVIEW base package ~ 2k. NI-DAQ ~ 2k. ICs and parts ~ 0.1k. Total ~4k. Well well.
Found "Fields of Hope" score sheet. As if I know how to read it. Duhz.