Oh well. Things happened. Things happened, and I could not do anything about that. How bad could that be.
I still hold my ground. As long as I don't have the full picture, I will not say, ask, accuse. I will just see the show. I could have intervened, but it's between the 2 of them, and I did not know anything, so what to do.
No one's telling me anything. No one's saying anything. No one. And all these just bring back my memory of a past blog entry:
"…then you have to realise that you might not be the person to be told, to be given in, to be allowed to catch up…"
Now, thinking about it, I think is me. Yes. It's me. All these things resulting to the last sentence. It's my fault. And so be it. It's good that there's another person around. Good.
That's why, usually when one person's there, I will make myself disappear. Because I always believe that, some things are just not meant for me to know.
I have times when Person B will tell me something, and I tell Person A, and the next moment, Person A asked Person B again, and Person A said "nonsense I've never said that". Talking about backstabbing. What a sad world. And that's also one of the inspirations for the previous post. After today, I think again. Yes, it's me. Because no one's telling me anything. No one.
So be it.
That's why I am always saying, if things are meant for me to know, I will know, regardless of when or where. If things are not meant for me to know, no matter how hard I try, I will only disappoint myself, and will keep thinking about it for the next few hours.
Just now, on my way home, I decided to stop at IMM. I wandered around for a while, and went off. Simply no mood for this. I did not know why I was there in the first place. At JE, I walked aimlessly, not knowing where I will go. In the end, I went 7-eleven and bought a packet of soya bean milk, and gulped it down.
I think I would have preferred Coffee Bean at that time.
Sometimes, things happened, and I will just grab a cup of ice blended from Coffee Bean. How I wished there's a branch in JE…
Currently, maybe I should just have a rest, and see what will happen next to people. As I said, I can only look. Because no one's telling me anything, and I guess, no one ever will.
Finally managed to rush finish the PCB thing. On my way home, in between thoughts of what happened, I realised that I had forgotten to include 3 more copies of a particular PCB!!! OMG… So Monday, I will have to send Ben there to do the correction. He's pro in that. I had no chance to touch that software due to other commitments inside and outside the lab.
The DSO talk was quite…. useless. Nothing new actually. They could not say too much anyway. Too much classified information. But the lunch was great. Wahaha!!
Morning lecture was nothing much. The LT was damn cold. That's what I have remembered.
Ok, I want to swim. I want to bball. I want to play pool. I want to do my project. I want to complete my lab. I want to revise.
More importantly, I want to sleep.