I've got this siao friend.. .wahaha… who suddenly dropped me an MSN message.
This is what he said on MSN: "I love jiahui!!"
Wahaha!!! Ok boy, if you want to protest and expose yourself, go ahead and leave a tag message. Lol…
He claimed that he was looking through Friendster and saw a chio babe pic, and he started to go crazy… omg.. going crazy in a country up above in the Northern Hemisphere. Lol…
Oh well… Love. What is love? Wahaha not again…
Love for me means care. Since I am an only child, I do quite believe in 'love and be loved', but so far, it's still quite ok. 'Love and be loved not' is more commonly seen, even though there are good cases here and there, once in a blue moon. The 4-letter word can make me smile… yeah really.
Sometimes I see couples on the streets, so loving, and I felt their love for each other. So sweet. Sometimes I see parents and children walking together, holding hands. So nice. Sometimes I see owner and dog chasing each other, having fun on the grassfield. So fun.
Somehow, I think I am the 'I-need-to-be-loved' type of person maybe? OMG I am beginning to sound more like a pet than a human being….
Some things I have already forgotten. So don't remind me about it. It's history. But I don't blame people for bringing it up unknowingly or as a case study. I do that myself too.
It's good reference for a total stupidity type of action. And I see people going the very same path as I did, regardless of what I say. Perhaps they will have better luck. Perhaps not. I cannot do anything. I can just sit down, get some popcorn, and watch the show. I am just part of the audience.
Yeah, I love my friends. They can don't love me back, no problem, but… I will somehow re-evaluate certain things. And so, if suddenly, I disappear from your world, think first: Why?
Yes, people sometimes say that I am hard to understand. Why? Because some things, I have decided to keep to myself. I don't wish to implicate other people. I don't wish to hurt other people. And certainly, I don't wish to be mis-interpreted. And also, some people just cannot keep their mouth shut. Tested and proven long ago. Some things about me are better be left unknown.
Keep them as secrets. Secrets that only the most trustable person in my world will know. I thought I might have found one some time back, but perhaps I was wrong. So wrong.
Oh well…
Perhaps one day, I will just reveal everything. Perhaps one day, people will understand. Perhaps one day, I will find what I am looking for, or will have a chance to get what I want.
In the meantime, I guess I should just watch the show.
Yes yes. I love you. And you. And you! Wahaha… suddenly the room so cold… brrr….