Went to play pool once again. We had much more people today, and we opened 2 tables instead of one. In the end, the cost was still very low. Good.
Who was there? Zhenyao, Linchuan, Junguang, Xiuli, Lijian, and me.
I wondered what was I thinking about while playing pool. Bad day I guess. Tiring day. Bad day. Whatever. But overall, it's a good night.
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Wahhahaaa!!!
Dual coffee tonight. One coffee with milk at the pool place, and another Nescafe Latte from the Mobil petrol station at Taman Jurong area. Coffee has virtually no effects on me. Somehow the trip to JP reminded me of some trip some time back… A really sad trip actually.
Whatever, it's over. But it seemed like it happened only yesterday.
Yeah. Time flies.
And who says that Time can heal all wounds? As long as you remember it, no matter what, the wound will still hurt. And so, the best way to heal a wound is to forget. How to forget? Bang the wall or what, get your brain damaged, or until you get amnesia.
And before that, you need to ask yourself: is it worth it? Does the loss of memory justify the healing? Will it be better if you remember, and that will somehow protect you from future harms? Or will it over-protect you in the long run?
One solution. Many consequences.
Went over to IMM on Thursday, after the 2005 test. Nothing much to buy actually. I just wanted to walk around. See-see, look-look. And it seemed that, my probability of going IMM on Thursdays is quite high. Thursday is virtually the only day that I will take a bus from Engin. That's the only day that I will have a higher chance to end up at IMM. And so, on Thursday, I was planning to go there.
I have to draw a line. I have to be very clear of my actions. ??.??.
Bought a little Lux Spa Awaken shower foam, the one with the orange smell and the mint feel. Very cooling. I was using it after my swim on Friday morning. Shiok ah.
Besides that, I was actually looking at watches. Nothing much caught my eye. Just a very brief look. Not much chance to have some very detailed look. Never mind, I shall open my eyes big next time. Somewhere out there, there's one waiting for me.
No. I don't believe in birthday wishes and valentine's day wishes and christmas wishes and whatever wishes on whatever days. They don't exist. At least for me. I don't expect anything to drop from the sky. I don't wait for things to drop from the sky. It's too disappointing. I don't want to render myself hopeless ever again.
Sometimes, events and happenings can make one stronger. At least, it will look like, from the outside.
After tutorial on Friday, I decided to play the bus game again. This time, I think that, actually, I should end up at Ikea or Queensway, as 33 came first, but I did not board it. I was still thinking whether to play the bus game. In the end, I took 188, alight 1 stop later, and 197 was behind. Took it. Somehow, nowadays, I liked to alight at the JE library, and walk all the way through JEC and come out from the other exit. I wonder what's that for. Fun? Maybe. Went home instead, since 197 meant home trip.
And now, I am stoning around. I need to smile.
Smile.
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