What am I doing at home on a great clear night, which is the night for mid autumn festival? Well… watching Mr Bean: The Movie, what else? Even though I have watched in a few times, it's still interesting and funny. Hee…
Been looking around for the moon. Where is it? Maybe it's just above my head, that's why I can't see. Maybe it's on MC…. blah blah… I've seen the moon on Friday night. Quite nice… and big, of course.
Yeah, sometimes, while waiting for whatever, whoever, early in the morning or at night, I will look at the sky. Yeah, the stars, the moon, and sometimes, the planets. So nice… Stars are up there, and I am here… Hmm…
Maybe I should have taken “Understanding The Universe”, like what Mr Law did… But really, there's lots of things I will like to do, but due to some stupid bidding limitations and class clashes, I always end up getting things that are not really my choice. Oh well… too bad…
And the next thing is the usual: $$$. I will really like to go overseas, but I am always limited by costs. Why like this? How I wish I can fly here and there, like nobody's business. And how I will like to spend 1 semester in another country too. Haiz…
Loan? To be in debt further? Scholarship? Do I look like I will qualify for one?
Haiz… I would say that, over these years in education, I have done nothing significant. No awards won, no troubles to report. So sianz…
Sometimes, I see people winning awards, winning games, collecting trophies. Could that person be me? Even if I go back in time, it will still be the same: No way.
My family is quite the traditional type last time (because this time I make sure they listen to MY way, not the other way round. I argue my way through. Just like a few months ago regarding some gadgets, and of course, that m:robe.). With something traditional meant that, education was more important than anything else. Which, in my reasoning, does not apply in today's world. A good education is still important, yes, but there's no place you can go without money. Can't qualify for local studies? Go overseas. They will be more than willing to open their arms wide to welcome foreign students.
And there's more things. Regarding scholarships. They are rewarded to people who qualify for them. So, there's always the probability of a person who came from a rich or well-to-do family getting that kind of award. $10k? Well? Peanuts? -lol-
And for a CDC Bursary, it's $1k/year…
And for some who are really struggling with finances, $1k to survive for a year, is it enough? And some ended working part-time, giving tuition, as waiters or waitresses, and then studying till early in the morning, and end up missing or sleeping during lectures.
For people who are well-to-do, do… do know how lucky you all are.
For me, I only got lucky when I got out of NS. Or else, I will be eating grass everyday, being panda everyday, and having no time any other thing. But no, I can't be spending all my parents' money. They still need it.
After that questionaire thing with Suen Cin, it seems that, in the future, I will have to earn lots in order to survive. Too bad, I am the only child… no choice… Or maybe, I can find myself a helpful girlfriend/wife, but…
From some discussion with Marie last time (I also did not know how we discussed work, and somehow linked to this topic…), it seems that, her girl friends are mostly those see-money = face-grow type. Which means that, first thing they will see in a guy, is: Is he rich?
Oh well I do hate these types. Not because I am a self-declared bankrupt. Is money that important in a relationship? Yes, maybe… It's important to some I guess. And very important to a few. And I know out there, there are people who don't really mind.
Maybe for the above comment, most of her friends are already working, and having experienced the working world, they will prefer to be a taitai…
But which guy will like to see his girl suffer?
And which girl will want to suffer together with a guy?
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And so… that's it. Let's end this entry with a song that I quite like. I tried it yesterday also. Quite an old song already…
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Smile…