Bball drought. That's the word. Why…
People come and go. When there's no people, they don't come. When there's no people, they choose to sit down and look. Why there's no people? Lots of reasons. This is one. One of the main reasons why I decided to call it off.
People come and go as they like. No specific pattern. When they are happy, they will appear. Otherwise, they are no where to be seen. These, I call them walls, just like those that I sms-ed and/or msn-ed, and no replies, as if I am talking to a wall. The walls will respond very fast only if they require your help.
Is it very hard to reply an sms nowadays? I am not getting my share of sms replies, and that can be really frustrating. I hated one-sided sms-ing. If you don't wish to reply to my sms stuff, just reply once with the word “unsubscribe”, and I shall leave you alone, FOREVER.
And I just love it when people who don't reply smses to me ask me the same question. Yeah, you reap what you sow.
The next reason is the ???? point. You can say that I am jealous of them. You can say that I do not understand. I just don't care all these shit. I just want to make the points clear.
People come single and go attached. And will go MIA after that. No, MIA is not My Industrial Attachment. Missing In Action. These will be another group of “Walls”. These are worse. Irresponsible, irritating, and simply hard to tolerate. I am not hitting all with a sledge hammer. I am just citing the minority. These people will be out of my sms list also. It's another wastage, as their smses are reserved for their honey or darling or dear or whatever. Talking to them over the phone will draw blood out of my throat for very good reasons.
Next are the hardworking types.
People come and go busy. They used to be bball siaoz, but due to other commitments, they cannot meet our session time. They are gradually going into my sms ban list, as they are becoming “Walls” too. But I don't blame them. Work is important. Money is important in this world. No money, no talk, no food, no shelter, no power, no SEP, no NOC, no whatever-you-want-to-do-but-ex.
For me, car or no car, that's not so important. People who use private transport just miss out the fun of taking public transport. So much to see, and nice aircon to sleep sometimes. Yeah they said journey's long, waiting time's long. So? Private transport is another luxury… haiz… something that I cannot afford to have in the next few years…
Ok back to topic.
People come and go. But I am still there. Why…
Am I committed? No. Am I foolish? No. Am I being understanding? No. Am I being unreasonable? No. So What am I?
Just me. I want to play bball. That's the point.
I have been Water all my life. I adapt to people, but few really adapt to me. Maybe that's why I like people, and people don't really like me? No, should I say, I care for others more than others care for me?
I've always been asking people to go bball, to go swim. Why? Because, I don't like to do things alone. I've been alone all my life. 22 years. Why will I want to be alone even when I go out? It's just… so like home. But some people can play bball, and can swim alone. I am trying to adapt to that kind of thoughts.
Because I know.
I know that it's hard for people to change. So I have to.
I am Water.
And other things like KBox. People ask for Kbox, but when I ask them about it, they tell me, they want to do other things like, rest, homework, tired, or simply don't want.
If that's the case, I beg you: Don't anyhow use these 4 words: “I want to go”.
If you really keen about such things, please, show some enthusiasiam. Stop letting me doing all the shit work. I am very very pissed with all these. Take note. It's kind of funny. No it's not funny. It's irritating.
See… a missed bball session can cause me to write crap. So, the evil me has decided that it shall rain in the afternoon.
But then, as usual: What I want, I do not get……
Why…