Too tired to put a sad face, so I use ^_^
I have to say a few things tonight.
(1) I am not a genius. I am not a smart guy. Please treat me like a normal human. I want discussions about problems, and not being an answering machine. One of the reasons why I want to study in groups. Can discuss. Discuss online? Can be done, but inefficient. Over phone? Can also, but the best is still face to face discussions.
(2) I am not a nosey parker. You are free to answer my queries, and you are free to remain silent. I understand people have the right to privacy. I can keep secrets, sure enough. If some things are not meant for me to know, tell me, and I shall forget about them.
(3) I am beat-about-the-bush-intolerant. Have something to say to me? Don't hesitate. Say it out. Good or bad, I don't care. Hesitation makes me irritated, and I might just do something nasty in return. Don't blame me for that if that ever happens. Of course, to maintain that previous point, if that something is really not for me, I will not persuit further.
(4) I am quite sensitive to the surroundings. I can sense things sometimes, but not everytime. If I have done something which I shouldn't have, tell me. Don't just keep quiet. This links to the first point.
(5) I tend to be helpful, but please do help yourselves too. I cannot pull someone out of a black hole when that person is pulling on something that is being pulled into the hole too. If we both are sucked into the black hole together, never mind. That just means that I am as blur as you. We will then think of some ways to get out together. I am not a pirate. No rule states that anyone that falls behind, gets left behind.
(6) Sometimes I tend to ignore people, but that does not mean that I do not know they are around. As I have said in (4), I know. Sometimes people tend to ignore me, but I don't blame them. It's normal. At least for me. Used to it.
I think 6 is enough. Take it as midnight crap if you like.
Aww… can't believe that I have typed them out… I must be really free, or really sad, or really happy. I don't know what's my mood now. I think it's frozen and kept in liquid nitrogen at some negative temperature range.
Sometimes, I think, in terms of friendship, it's not the duration that matters. It's the amount of time spent together, and the amount of things people go through together. You could have known a friend for 10 years, but you might not even know anything more than what another person who has spent just 1 month working together with him/her. Friend? Yeah friend. Just friend.
Having to write such a heavy piece of blog gives me an headache… it always does…