Hello world!<\/p>\n
It’s been a while since I updated stuffs here. It’s the first day of 2014, so I am thinking of writing something.<\/p>\n
2013 has been quite a fast year for me. I have been moved up the ranks, and currently sits on a position that I am still not very comfortable in.<\/p>\n
As I informed my boss when he broke the news to me, I do not have a big head, so don’t give me such a big hat to wear.<\/p>\n
My comments went on deaf ears. I am still being pushed into the position. After almost 1 year, I am still not very comfortable in that seat.<\/p>\n
Many moments, I have thought of giving up, as this is not the path I have wanted. I am an implementer, not a commander. I am better at doing things than telling people what to do. I do not have sufficient experience to tell people what to do yet.<\/p>\n
And I hate to mislead people. I hate to bring people in a circle, only to realise that my previous decision was a bad one.<\/p>\n
Going in circles, who likes it?<\/p>\n
However, I think I am going to give myself another chance to try. To lead, to guide, and to mentor.<\/p>\n
It’s difficult, I know. But, I don’t have much choice, do I?<\/p>\n
My passion is still in programming, in web-based applications, in finding alternative solutions to problems.<\/p>\n
Holding this position has placed my passion in the back seat. I lost my passion for my job.<\/p>\n
I used to go out and play. Now, I go to work.<\/p>\n
And that’s sad.<\/p>\n
2013 has also been quite unfruitful, in terms of work. I realised that we were like in a washing machine, jumbled up together, without a very clear direction.<\/p>\n
We need someone to point us in the correct direction. But, I am not ready for that role. And, I don’t see anyone that is able to do that yet. Yes, I believe I have a strong team. I need a strong leader. And that leader, is not me.<\/p>\n
2013 has also been unhealthy. I have gone to drink with friends and colleagues more often. More late nights. Lots of beers and liquors. Less time on weekends.<\/p>\n
It’s very bad.<\/p>\n
The last quarter of 2013 has also been an interesting one. I found The One. You will not believe how we met. We talked via whatsapp. We went out for dinner. We went on long trips. We have even gone overseas.<\/p>\n
It’s great to love, and to be loved.<\/p>\n
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2014, what is going to happen?<\/p>\n
Work-wise, I hope it will be smooth.<\/p>\n
Love-wise, I hope it will be great.<\/p>\n
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And, to set some resolutions for 2014…<\/p>\n
Love my body<\/strong><\/p>\n Yes, I am heavy! I want to just cut down on weight, and maintain my size-L shirt sizing, for now. How? Eat healthy, and drink less alcohol!<\/p>\n Love my close people<\/strong><\/p>\n I love my gf! Starting a relationship is relatively easier than maintaining a relationship. How to make a relationship last? This is a question that I need to learn. Or rather, WE need to learn. It’s not easy too, but I believe that we will be able to do it!<\/p>\n I love my parents! Without them, I will not be who I am now. So, I must take good care of them!<\/p>\n I love my friends! Without them, I will not have the support that I require now and then. So, I must keep in touch often!<\/p>\n Love my job<\/strong><\/p>\n In order to deliver the project, I need to love my job, and somehow, make the others love it as well. I cannot be the only one chionging and chionging.<\/p>\n We need to chiong together!<\/p>\n So how? I need to set some clear directions, most probably. Before that, I myself will need to be clear first. And this is also not easy.<\/p>\n Love my life<\/strong><\/p>\n For 2014, I hope I will be able to optimize my time, spend quality time at work and at play, and enjoy life.<\/p>\n For 2014, I hope I can spend more time for doing what I love during non-working hours.<\/p>\n For 2014, I hope I can still be myself.<\/p>\n ——————————<\/p>\n Alright, that will be enough, for now? LOL. It’s been some time since I wrote such a long post eh? I wondered who will read this, but nevertheless, Happy 2014, everyone! May 2014 be a lovely year!<\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Hello world! It’s been a while since I updated stuffs here. It’s the first day of 2014, so I am thinking of writing something. 2013 has been quite a fast year for me. I have been moved up the ranks, … Continue reading