{"id":6889,"date":"2010-08-12T22:26:29","date_gmt":"2010-08-12T14:26:29","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/belief.hazelcafe.com\/?p=6889"},"modified":"2010-08-12T22:26:29","modified_gmt":"2010-08-12T14:26:29","slug":"disappointed-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/belief.hazelcafe.com\/?p=6889","title":{"rendered":"Disappointed&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Not even a last dinner&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>But life still goes on!<\/p>\n<p>&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8211;<\/p>\n<p>Alighted at tanah merah this evening, and took train back home, instead of following lt all the way to bp. No one gonna have dinner with me anyway. And so, I took my own sweet time to go home. It&#8217;s actually quite fast. I reached home by 9pm.<\/p>\n<p>When I have no one to have dinner with, I will not spend too much on food. I always think that it is such a waste to enjoy good food all by myself. When I am alone, I just grab any edible food, and go home.<\/p>\n<p>Really, it&#8217;s been some time since I last spent on good food on weekdays. Actually, it&#8217;s been some time since I last felt very happy about dinner.<\/p>\n<p>&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8211;<\/p>\n<p>The hardware&#8217;s gone siao today. But I just have to solve them, or let them resolve by themselves. It felt like shit, but hell, I have been the clear shit party ever since I started work. Same for some people too. Some people are just more lucky than others.<\/p>\n<p>If there&#8217;s anything that I believe in, that will be myself.<\/p>\n<p>Yes, I believe in myself. I know I can do it. But I am always wasting my time looking for motivation, even when actually, deep inside my mind, I know that there isn&#8217;t any. Motivation doesn&#8217;t come from within. Strength, yes. Motivation, not really.<\/p>\n<p>&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8211;<\/p>\n<p>I wonder what I should do with the goods. Bury it?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Not even a last dinner&#8230; But life still goes on! &#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8211; Alighted at tanah merah this evening, and took train back home, instead of following lt all the way to bp. No one gonna have dinner with me anyway. And &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/belief.hazelcafe.com\/?p=6889\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/belief.hazelcafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6889"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/belief.hazelcafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/belief.hazelcafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/belief.hazelcafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/belief.hazelcafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=6889"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/belief.hazelcafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6889\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":6891,"href":"https:\/\/belief.hazelcafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6889\/revisions\/6891"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/belief.hazelcafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=6889"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/belief.hazelcafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=6889"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/belief.hazelcafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=6889"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}