{"id":6423,"date":"2010-04-09T23:23:39","date_gmt":"2010-04-09T15:23:39","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/belief.hazelcafe.com\/?p=6423"},"modified":"2010-04-09T23:23:39","modified_gmt":"2010-04-09T15:23:39","slug":"when-i-keep-quiet","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/belief.hazelcafe.com\/?p=6423","title":{"rendered":"When I Keep Quiet&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>When I keep quiet.. I may be&#8230;<\/p>\n<p><strong>1) Sad or pissed about something. <\/strong><br \/>\nSometimes, things pissed me off or saddened me, and I just want to shout out, but I can&#8217;t. And so, I supress that feeling. It&#8217;s bad, because, people generally don&#8217;t really know what I am thinking, or rather, they don&#8217;t really care what I am thinking.<\/p>\n<p>Of course, once in a blue moon, there are a few that has that ability to know my thoughts. They are so rare&#8230;<\/p>\n<p><strong>2) Contribution is of no value.<\/strong><br \/>\nSometimes, I keep quiet when I feel that, generally, my voice is being ignored. I feel no point in maintaining a conversation. For example, when I am in a group of 3. 2 are talking. I said something, and they did not make any remark, but still continue with their conversation.<\/p>\n<p>That point of time, I will start thinking, hey, they don&#8217;t welcome you in the conversation. Why bother? Stop wasting your breath.<\/p>\n<p><strong>3) Sleeping<\/strong><br \/>\n\u00e5\u00ba\u0178\u00e8\u00af\u009d\u00e3\u20ac\u201aBut then, most of the time, I am not&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Hmm&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>I am, actually, listening&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;..<\/p>\n<p>Sometimes, I think, why am I often the one doing sacrifices&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>I wonder, will anyone sacrifice him\/herself, for me?<\/p>\n<p>I guess not.<\/p>\n<p>People generally are self-centred. I have said this lots of times, I think. They think of &#8216;I&#8217; first, before &#8216;you&#8217;.<\/p>\n<p>Examples? I am sure you can think of lots of them. Be it work, friends, etc, everyday lives.<\/p>\n<p>But of course, there are exceptions. Some people may still remember &#8216;what about you?&#8217; That&#8217;s something to be relieved about.<\/p>\n<p>&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;..<\/p>\n<p>Well&#8230; today, I managed to push everything away! I could get away early! But then, a change of plans at 4pm changed the plan. Oh well. Change ba. We could squeeze out some time in the future, anytime. Easily.<\/p>\n<p>Do I sound sacarstic enough?<\/p>\n<p>Never mind.<\/p>\n<p>In the end, I ended up eating bedok 85 bak chor mee, and then finishing up all the sotongs&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Never mind.<\/p>\n<p>&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;..<\/p>\n<p>I have my reasons for not often taking the front seat of any vehicle transport. But sometimes, I think it&#8217;s still bearable.<\/p>\n<p>Just sometimes. Not always.<\/p>\n<p>The feeling will only be felt by me. And only by me.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>When I keep quiet.. I may be&#8230; 1) Sad or pissed about something. Sometimes, things pissed me off or saddened me, and I just want to shout out, but I can&#8217;t. And so, I supress that feeling. 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