Sometimes, I think, why am I working so hard? Why am I doing so much things at one time? Why am I doing things, while others can go off at 6pm, even though they too, have things to do?<\/p>\n
The reasons that I have in mind:<\/p>\n
Now, I just want to finish up what I have to do, and move on.<\/p>\n
But, I have not much motivation to speed up.<\/p>\n
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Sometimes, I will just throw down my programming, and go off to do some hardware stuffs. It’s refreshing. And anyway, I need to understand the hardware, in order to create the software. Why work on software, when you are totally clueless about what you are interfacing with?<\/p>\n
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It feels cold sometimes. It feels warm sometimes. It’s complex, complicated, and confusing. I need motivation. When I have something in mind, usually, I will not let go, until that something’s gone. That’s something that I like\/hate about myself. Why do I have such perseverance?!<\/p>\n
Why, do I not see the end of the tunnel, and yet, I still walk on? I may fall into some hole, and never get up again. Why, do I still carry on?<\/p>\n
I don’t know. I just know I have to.<\/p>\n
Please, stop me, or guide me along. Please, do not leave me hanging. Please…<\/p>\n
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Worked till 9pm tonight. Took cab with Calvin, and got off at Toh Guan. Bought home a half spring chicken rice. Got home via 105 + 79. Bathe, ate, and stoned, and soon, it’s 10.45pm. And now, it’s 12+.<\/p>\n
I… have nothing else to say already. I have no motivation to carry on typing.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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