Oh well. Things happened. Things happened, and I could not do anything about that. How bad could that be. <\/p>\n
I still hold my ground. As long as I don't have the full picture, I will not say, ask, accuse. I will just see the show. I could have intervened, but it's between the 2 of them, and I did not know anything, so what to do.<\/p>\n
No one's telling me anything. No one's saying anything. No one. And all these just bring back my memory of a past blog entry:<\/p>\n
"…then you have to realise that you might not be the person to be told, to be given in, to be allowed to catch up…"<\/p>\n
Now, thinking about it, I think is me. Yes. It's me. All these things resulting to the last sentence. It's my fault. And so be it. It's good that there's another person around. Good.<\/p>\n
That's why, usually when one person's there, I will make myself disappear. Because I always believe that, some things are just not meant for me to know.<\/p>\n
I have times when Person B will tell me something, and I tell Person A, and the next moment, Person A asked Person B again, and Person A said "nonsense I've never said that". Talking about backstabbing. What a sad world. And that's also one of the inspirations for the previous post. After today, I think again. Yes, it's me. Because no one's telling me anything. No one.<\/p>\n
So be it.<\/p>\n
That's why I am always saying, if things are meant for me to know, I will know, regardless of when or where. If things are not meant for me to know, no matter how hard I try, I will only disappoint myself, and will keep thinking about it for the next few hours. <\/p>\n
Just now, on my way home, I decided to stop at IMM. I wandered around for a while, and went off. Simply no mood for this. I did not know why I was there in the first place. At JE, I walked aimlessly, not knowing where I will go. In the end, I went 7-eleven and bought a packet of soya bean milk, and gulped it down. <\/p>\n
I think I would have preferred Coffee Bean at that time.<\/p>\n
Sometimes, things happened, and I will just grab a cup of ice blended from Coffee Bean. How I wished there's a branch in JE…<\/p>\n
Currently, maybe I should just have a rest, and see what will happen next to people. As I said, I can only look. Because no one's telling me anything, and I guess, no one ever will.<\/p>\n
Finally managed to rush finish the PCB thing. On my way home, in between thoughts of what happened, I realised that I had forgotten to include 3 more copies of a particular PCB!!! OMG… So Monday, I will have to send Ben there to do the correction. He's pro in that. I had no chance to touch that software due to other commitments inside and outside the lab. <\/p>\n
The DSO talk was quite…. useless. Nothing new actually. They could not say too much anyway. Too much classified information. But the lunch was great. Wahaha!!<\/p>\n
Morning lecture was nothing much. The LT was damn cold. That's what I have remembered.<\/p>\n
Ok, I want to swim. I want to bball. I want to play pool. I want to do my project. I want to complete my lab. I want to revise. <\/p>\n
More importantly, I want to sleep.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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