Dumb dumb dumb me!<\/p>\n
Huh! Why am I staring at the screen??!!<\/p>\n
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Been repeating 依然是朋友 over and over again. I just love the chorus part. <\/p>\n
Ok, breathe in, out…<\/p>\n
Sometimes, I based my tasks too much on my preferences. Sometimes, there are 2 things awaiting to be done, and opportunity costs are involved. While waiting for some confirmation from one side, I have to put the other side on hold also. In the end, the one side I am waiting will suddenly back out or black out, and so will the other side after much waiting. In the end, what will I be doing? NOTHING.<\/p>\n
I mean it. NOTHING.<\/p>\n
Like just now. Like now. Like last time. Like everytime. <\/p>\n
I tried my best to put myself everywhere already… I looked at all angles. The results are all the same. Same verdict: Nothing will happen if I just keep quiet. Why bother when people are all busy with something else, when people are not interested, when people are just trying to avoid contact with you? <\/p>\n
Why hurt myself time and again over such things?<\/em><\/p>\n If there's only 1 such case tonight, I will still be able to take it. But no, not 2. That only makes me feel like a super 白痴. <\/p>\n Felt like playing junk music on the keyboard now, but that will only hurt my ear drums… <\/p>\n Continue to hurt myself? Am I mad?<\/em><\/p>\n What rubbish…<\/p>\n Poseidon outing(s)? Don't know. A visit to Fujitsu Care Centre? Don't know. Swim? Don't know. What I can say is, motivation is inversely proportionate to changes. For example, high motivation gives low chances of changes, or high level of compromise.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Listening to 依然是朋友 for the dunno-what-th time, paying close attention to the chorus lyrics. <\/p>\n So, song writing. That song has written it. So, what else can be written?<\/p>\n No 灵感 already… And tunes. I have been stuck to a tune for a very long time. Why like that? I need 灵感.<\/p>\n 迟到的雨 就让它冲去 所有的点点滴滴 Alright, a fool will go swim tomorrow morning. See? Fools can also make decisions…<\/p>\n Crap. Huh!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Dumb dumb dumb me! Huh! Why am I staring at the screen??!! Been repeating 依然是朋友 over and over again. I just love the chorus part. Ok, breathe in, out… Sometimes, I based my tasks too much on my preferences. Sometimes, … Continue reading
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迟到的雨 就让它慢慢调谐我的心理
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