{"id":3546,"date":"2004-03-20T22:10:16","date_gmt":"2004-03-20T14:10:16","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/belief.hazelcafe.com\/?183"},"modified":"2004-03-20T22:10:16","modified_gmt":"2004-03-20T14:10:16","slug":"why","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/belief.hazelcafe.com\/?p=3546","title":{"rendered":"Why?"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I hate this kind of feeling, asking myself why, without a valid reason&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>I hate it. I hate it when I click on a search engine and it gave me some secrets about people. It&#039;s not that I am trying to be paparazzi, but it&#039;s just accidental. Accidental Secrets&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>I hate it, when I am actually attracted to read the search results. I could have just clicked on the &#039;X&#039; and forget about it, but I guess I can&#039;t. The temptation is too great.<\/p>\n<p>I really hate myself sometimes. I do not know what I am trying to do. Take today&#039;s activity for example. I was trying to rearrage furnitures in my room, and in the end, they were back in their original positions. No change at all.<\/p>\n<p>What am I doing? And what am I trying to prove?<\/p>\n<p>In my life, I am always the backstage crew. I prefer to be helping others to get into the limelight instead of me standing up on the stage. Not that I am a loser. Not that I am afraid. It&#039;s just the way I work. I don&#039;t work alone. I enjoy teamwork. And as backstage crew, one can&#039;t work alone.<\/p>\n<p>Perhaps, one day, I shall try to be on the stage, be in the spotlight&#8230; <\/p>\n<p>Just renewed ELove&#039;s domain for another 2 years. I wonder how am I going to maintain this domain after I ORD: No more income. I guess I have to find some job to do soon&#8230; Surprisingly, I received an email from someone who is interested in this domain. I rejected his offer. I want my ELove. This is my email, my hobby, my webby, my everything&#8230; not that serious&#8230; haha<\/p>\n<p>I shall go think about the things I have said earlier&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I hate this kind of feeling, asking myself why, without a valid reason&#8230; I hate it. I hate it when I click on a search engine and it gave me some secrets about people. It&#039;s not that I am trying &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/belief.hazelcafe.com\/?p=3546\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/belief.hazelcafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3546"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/belief.hazelcafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/belief.hazelcafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/belief.hazelcafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/belief.hazelcafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3546"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/belief.hazelcafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3546\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/belief.hazelcafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3546"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/belief.hazelcafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3546"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/belief.hazelcafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3546"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}