Belief@HazelCafe

I was trying to submit this last night, but the server went down, and so, I have to paste it now…

[10-01-2006 3.10am]
Just came back 30 minutes ago, from RC once again…

Think that is the last one, before school starts officially, at least for me.

Ok, when school starts, should I just try something new, or just stick to what I have been doing for the past 1 year and a half? Hmmm.. see how ba.

I just know that, I won't stick to any plans. I am too flexible. Or should I say, too lazy? Lol…

I think it is the latter.

Ok. It's holiday once again. I wonder what's on TV later. I guess there's nothing much. Should I go out? Hmmm.. If yes, where? Should I trim my hair? Aw…

Dunno la…

For today, or rather, yesterday, what I did was to re-arrange furniture in my room! And that took me 12 hours! I started at 9.30am, and I only finish doing at around 11pm! Well done… why so long? Because I was doing some sort of a floor repair, trying to cover up all the little gaps… Hmmm…

And yes, After re-arranging the furniture here and there, my room looks a bit more spacious already! Yay!

Ok… I think I better go sleep. Update more next time ba…

Ok, a continued post from the previous…

That’s my msn nick: 我的词，是什么故事？我的曲，是什么感觉？ I shall change it soon.

Seriously, not many people can read between my lines. They may miss the true meanings of my words, my lyrics. They may interpret wrongly. They may be misled by some external forces.

I cannot expect everyone to understand.

My lyrics can be simple, and can be complicated. It depends on how one sees it. If one uses an unbiased perspective, the true meaning is very easily seen. If one is looking through a tainted pair of glasses, everything becomes ugly. It’s complicated.

Sometimes, I don’t understand too. I have not reach that stage yet.

A few weeks ago, I found a backup CD, and in it, were a few lyrics/ tunes that I have wrote during NS days!! 111.txt, 创.txt, 创(2).txt, 创(3).txt, idea tunes.txt, test tune 22102004.txt… wahh… I think I am still missing some… I remembered writing one with Ah Ho, in our workshop rest room during NS days. Hmmm… he gave me chim chim words, and hence I remembered that…

I love collaboration… lol…

But if one listen carefully, my tunes are around the same. People who do not take note will just think that every tune is a new one. Actually, I am like, building up on the old, to come up with a more powerful one. Hahaha…

Looks like, not many people know…

So, my fault? Hmmm.. if one says so, I’ll accept.

If there’s no fault, there will be no comparison to say that another thing is right.

Rights and wrongs are comparisons.

So, if I say I don’t understand, is it that I do not try my best to understand, or that the source does not convince me, to make me understand?

Seriously, I don’t know.

Maybe, I should look at my past lyrics and tunes from this moment onwards. I have opened one of them up for a brief look. Interesting… Don’t remember I have actually those words and numbers…. Oh well…

Oh well… it is raining once again! It stopped in the morning, and now, it's back!

There goes my swim plan. Aw…

School's starting soon. Lectures, tutorials, labs, whatevers. Ahhh… not again…

Time will pass quickly. It will. Stop thinking too much. The rain will stop, eventually. Everything will come to an end, eventually.

Online world is a very dangerous place. How many people actually mean what they say, I wonder? How many people actually remember what they have typed, to whom, when, for what, and etc etc etc?

Sometimes, I do. Sometimes, I do not. But since I do not, who will? Wahahah!

Duhz.. just crapp…

Yeah… sometimes, some people try too hard to make some things happen. And when things do not happen the way they want it, what happens? Many things can happen. For me, I will look away. Forget it. Why bother? Why spend so much time? If people do not care, why should I?

AHahaa.. sounds angry? Maybe? I wonder why…

Ok, currently testing out if xhtml works here… heh…

Stupid me spent quite some time staring at errors, then I realised that I have referenced a file wrongly!! Ahrhh!!!

Crapp…

Hmm.. nothing to write tonight. Just now that fund-raising show… wahh…. pro… But still did not manage to hit the targeted number of calls. All these failures, just because of 1 single person. See.. it only needs one bad egg to declare the chicken as bad… Duhz…

Whatever ar…

Today is even more powerful than yesterday! At least for yesterday, the rain did stop before it continued. This time, it's totally continuous rain since early morning!!

Ooooo cool weather…

And there goes bball session. Haiz…

Oh well… look for alternatives ba… like… stoning around? Hmmm…

Very sianzzz arhh!!!!

Went for pool again this afternoon!!! Wahahaha… Same old people, me, Zhenyao, Lijian. Today was our 4th time playing pool already. I think there will be more in the future… lol…

I still want to play… play more, play more!! I can play for the whole day, if it's free. AND if I am free. Actually, I will like to have practice sessions too.. lol.. placing balls here and there, and trying to hit them into assigned holes. That will be interesting…

It rained and stopped and rained non-stop the whole day! When I was walking towards RC from West Coast Road, it suddenly started to rain slightly heavier, and I had to pull out my “rain coat” and walk slightly faster. On our way out of RC, it was drizzling slightly too. Misty rain… Hmm.. I like, but it's the type that makes people get sick easily. No, I don't want to be sick.

Aiya…There's nothing much to do online nowadays. I have done what I have wanted to do, and I have also not done what I have wished to do. What that means?

I am slow. Yeah.

Sometimes, I think, I don't have the chances, but then, if I look at it again, maybe, I have let chances slip by too easily?

As in, how to put it… maybe, just that, I am siao?

Ahhhahaa. Just like pool. Easy ball don't hit, and wanted to do stunt, and in the end, lost. Who's to blame? Me…

Yeah. Me.

Hmm….  

Reached home around 30 minutes ago… went to play pool with Zhenyao and Lijian at RC. Ooooo… night life… quite fun…

Pool and cheong. I prefer the former. More peaceful. No point getting my ears blasted at the latter, unless necessary.

Played till 2, and went over to Mac @ West Coast Park for something light. Went home after that.

I still want to play more pool though… aw… need more training… wahaha…

Ok, hair's drying… I need to get some sleep soon. It's Saturday. Nothing much. Maybe… I should go out and jalan jalan a bit? But then, maybe not? Jalan jalan can make me happy, and can make me sad. It all depends. But I can really sleep on buses. I need that… Lol…

Hmm… hopefully, the show will help bring in the game…. I cannot find the one I want!

And… rain and rain…

And… it's pool time once again… lalalala….

Wahh… it's the start of the year, and I have already started to dig out long-lost friends. Primary school, secondary school, etc… dig and dig… so interesting?

4S3 list is almost full now. More to go. Yay… so interesting, digging out contacts…

I was just looking at past contacts, and was trying my luck on MSN. Alot did work.. haha…

Interesting eh…

Found a few more primary school friends already! More to go!!!! Wahahaa…

Am I siao or what? No. In this internet age, finding people is not that hard. I found some through internet search…. Yaobang found Angela through googling… lol…

Hmm.. I think I did not put my full name around here? Maybe I should, so that next time, people can find me? Lol…

Oh well, who wants to find me? To get back debts maybe? Or to settle old scores? Wahahaa…

Madd…

Yeah. There are no secrets on the web. Secrets are meant to be found… somehow.. wahaha…

And ofcourse, I always try to find them… dig them out…

Ok, been too sianz to write anything here. Too tired actually, doing this and doing that.

[01/01/2006]
Bball session’s timing has been shifted, permanently, perhaps. Now, it’s 3pm, 3.30pm… Hehee.. quite ok la, the bball session. At least people did turn up… after one month break, erm.. maybe more than that… And while going home, it rained… Heavy rain, but quite cooling. But the moment it stopped at around 9pm, it was back to normal… aw…

Went for a Pandan Primary 6A ‘1995 gathering! We met the same old people this time once again.. oh well, that’s the group that has constantly kept in touch with each other. Who? Waiman, Junwei, Ivan, Yaobang and me! This time, we did not have Weibiao, as he was sick.. aw… 5 people. Not bad. We went Swensen’s. Stoned there, ate, crap about 11 years ago, blah blah… And then, we decided to dig out those that we have lost contact with… Yaobang found some, and I too, found some… Friendster is good for such things… Shall continue with the hunt..

Photo? Here’s it!

As usual, I was the blackest in the photo… compare to last year’s pic:

Hmmm…. well well… After the gathering, we managed to miss the last MRT train, and so, Junwei, Ivan and I shared a cab. Earlier, Zhenyao had asked me if I wanted to play pool at RC, and so, I called him, and then we met at RC. The time was around 12.40am. ooOoo.. played for 2 hours till 2+! Wahaha… We shall have more pool sessions next time. And then, he sent me home with his van… ofcourse la, arbo take cab? Might as well walk home.. 3am anyway… On my way home, I went into 7-eleven and grab a burger… black pepper chicken I think.. and a soy bean milk. I think it looked like breakfast to me…

[02/01/2006]
Nothing much. Stoned at home and watch TV and looking at this and that. Scanned in lots of past pics, and have already put most of them up over in the Photos section. More will be up soon.

Digged out a 11-year-old-pic… and *gasps* a 13-year-old pic!

Hmmm…

Aiya.. too many to be put here. Go to Photos section and see….

[03/01/2006]
Swim day! Went swimming with Lijian. I had already changed the timing to 11am, and at 11am, I still received one sms saying that he just woke up. What the… duhz…

Not much people in JE pool. So sianz. I still prefer BB pool. Used to that place already. JE’s ok, but then, nothing much I think. And also, it costs 50 cents more… Hmm…

After that, we went to JP for lunch at Kopitiam, walked around abit, and then I suggested going to Ikea! Yeah! We went, and I bought a quite-big mirror, ice cube moulds, and a weighing machine.. Wahahaa!

Why no one believes me when I say I am 90kg? Hmm… Maybe they think I should weigh more than that? Yeah true I guess…

Went home after that… Hmmm….. nothing much liao…

[04/01/2006]
Nothing much in the morning. Went thinking about how to re-arrange my room, and it did not look too good. Thus, I shall put the plan on hold until I see a better plan… I managed to shift only the wardrobe…

Went out for 4S3 gathering. 12 people in total. Not bad, the attendence, but it looked more like a 2D outing to me? Hmm.. lol.. Ahh.. but it’s really a 4S3 outing.. Hee..

We went Nooch Noodle Bar.. and I think I ordered the wrong stuff…

Pathetic udon…. $8 some more!!! Argh!!! I can DIY at home!!! But at least it’s edible…

Talked crap here and there, and then we moved up to Pacific Cafe, and more crap… We managed to recall the whole class, where we were sitting, with whom, whatever… Yeah… nice nice!~

And here’s the group pic:

clockwise from left: Linchuan, Junguang, Sun Qian, Huijun, Xiaohan, Seening, Huiling, Ziwei, Bochuan, me, Lijian.

Lydia ran away after the makan session at Nooch, so she’s not in the pic. Never mind, next time when I am free, I put her into the pic lor.. wahaha!

More pics are available in the Photos section…

[06/01/2006 (current)]
Stoning around. Done with my bidding yesterday. Got what I have bidded for, but might think twice.. See how…

The rain’s still not dropping down… aw…

Thursday… nothing much actually. So sianz. And yes, another reason for no update is that, I was busy doing the photos thing. I am lazy, and so, I made a navigation page for me to add photos to here, from the photos section, simply by clicking! Lazy la… cannot meh?

Ok, back to find things to do now…

I just realised that I have not evaluate my HopeList 2005… Never mind.. Take my time…