Belief@HazelCafe

ooOoo… went to JB with Eddy in the morning. The time spent there was really short: 4 hours! Lol…

First, we went to eat duck rice once again, ahh.. never take a photo of the store, but never mind, I know where it is. Today’s was a bit off-standard, but still edible. mmMmmmm… they gave us duck drumstick!!!!

After that, we went over to Holiday Plaza, as he wanted to look for games. And so, we set off in a cab. I think, in order to drive in JB, you have to be damn pro to siam and squeeze corners, all because of taxi drivers…

We reached the place, and we spent quite a while looking around. He found his stuff, and we bought some foodstuffs. And then, we flew back to City Square, where we walked around, and I went into shops asking here and there for something that was no where to be found… aw… so sad…

How can we give Secret Recipe a miss? Look at those yummy cakes…

I ordered Chocolate Banana! Yummy yummy yummy!!! It’s like Chocolate Indulgence + Banana in between… mmmmmmm

Eddy ordered a chocolate cheesecake! Also yummy! I like the taste of cheese.. mmmmm

But then, the portion of fries was pathetic. RM$8.. for a plate of fries (large)…. so sianz that I did not take a pic of it…

Yeah, after that, we came back to SG. By 3pm, I was already around JE I think. Fast…

Yeah, and yes, here’s the pic of N6111!

Quite an ok phone, I think…

Preparing to go out of Singapore for a while… in my second attempt to find something…

Don't know why, but I don't seem to find it in Singapore, and so, off I go…

10am… I hope to be back by 3pm. Lol… It's possible, I think…

Hmm… I have not been studying much this weekend… ahhh… weekend, gone… again…

But Friday is the last day of school. Doesn't make any difference at all. I have other things to worry about too… Maybe not say worry, but, to ponder ba…

Gone…

Aw… currently feeling hot, especially around the arms area. The sun must have killed alot of cells there… Yeah, the effect of swim yesterday + bball today, and both days, the sun are all this BIG….

Yeah.. wahaha…

Jason from 3 Mobile @ JE called me at around noon, saying that the N6111 had arrived. And so, I went out to get it. Bought the plastic protective film too, both N6111 and K750i.

About my ‘new’ phone (K750i, because what I want is not out yet, and this one has 2MP camera…), so far so good. I have always liked the camera function. Other functions, I will need more time to explore when I am really free, ie on the bus or whatever…

About my the other new phone N6111. It’s quite nice actually. The interface is not as fast as N6230, but then, the display is very clear. And very BIG also. Funny thing is that, when using earpiece, I cannot click on the button on the earpiece to answer the call? Or maybe, I need the instruction manual first… Wahahaha…

After settling the phone business, I went home and did my stuff, and out I went again at 2.30pm! Lol… Bball time! Today, we had 11 people! So many… Next week is the 1 week break already… More bball? Lol… think will have pool on Friday…

Bball was ok, we played from 3pm to 6pm. Long hours. But shiok. Lalalalalaaa…

Tired…

Aw…

What will happen tomorrow? Hmm… See lor…

What will happen on Tuesday? Lab and lab reports, most probably… At most I can have lunch and perhaps dinner. But… but…

Alone once more… aw…

Eh… since there are songs called 理想情人, 圣诞结，why not write on 理想情人节 and 情人结? Idea…

Nowadays, v-days are very commercialised… but good la… next time I might sell things during v-day, who knows?

Currently, I just don’t have the motivation to do things… But no matter what, I just have to stay happy…

Tomorrow is the start of the week before the term break. Hmm.. nothing special. Just some time to catch up on things. To catch up on ideas. To build up my tolerance level. To protect myself from harm…

Until, a level that, I can say ‘no pain’ effortlessly…

No pain?? Hmm.. looks like lie-telling is a really great skill…

Ok, back to the usual…

Slept at 2, and woke up at 7.. and went to West Coast market with mum. Ate breakfast and bought some things, and home.

Went for an afternoon swim at BB. Shiok swim actually. Never jio Yingzi (opps). Zhenyao went himself (duhz). Swam for 1 hour. Lost count of the number of laps. Don't care anyway. Just swim. If not for some appointment with Kelvin, I would have stayed longer.

Went to IMM to buy superglue. 2 for $3.95. Quite ok I think. And then, back to JE central. 6111 was out of stock. Stock will only come tomorrow. No white, no pink. Only black. For mum. She wanted that.

Met Kelvin at the coffee shop at BLK 49. He is, so far, the best of all the people that tried to “share what they know” with me. It's a good plan also, but it's a bit ex. Next time ba. After I go into working life (if I ever reach that stage), I shall consolidate all my policies and then see how. Currently, my policies are all a bit too messy.

And yes, the main thing about selling “products” is not by hard-sell. Hard-sell will only make people hate you. It's the sincerity.

That's when one is selling products. In other aspects, sincerity just does not work. People still take you as a joker, as someone who is just there, standing around, doing nothing.

Watched <<??>> just now. Maybe, I am more like ??…

Maybe…

Crap la…

Yeah… does it matter? I don't think it does…

Will it change anything? I don't think it will…

So why?

I don't know…

Currently, I am officially 23 years and 1 day old. And so, 2 decades and 3 years ago, I was born… the date happen to be 9 February.

Yes. Birthday.

What does a birthday mean to you? For me, it can be a normal day, with people walking around and wishing you a happy birthday. It can also be a sad day, with people busy with their own stuffs and are too busy to notice that it is your birthday actually.

Birthdays. Almost all of us encounter this day every year. It marks an additional '1' to your age. As you grow older, either you have bigger celebrations, or the celebrations die down.

As the age number gets bigger, you will realise, actually, you don't have many more birthdays to celebrate…

Let me go into history…

When I was young, around 3-4 years old, when my grandma was still around, she would celebrate my lunar birthday with mee sua and eggs. When I went to primary school, we had a habit of giving presents during each others' birthdays. So exciting last time, waiting for presents to appear. I remembered that there's once when my mum bought me a birthday cake. I was in primary 1 I think. And I think, that's the only birthday cake that I ever had…

Over the years, trends change. Ideas change. And I start to hope that, my birthday will end up to be on weekends.

And then, I start to lose my faith and belief for birthdays.

And then, I start to question the need to celebrate birthdays.

Not that I don't like to celebrate birthdays. It's the effect of being deprived of true celebrations after one and a half dozen years.

18 years, 18 years of birthdays, suppressed deep into me. The pressure's great, but I am used to it.

So much so that, I start to not like to celebrate birthdays. Because, I feel, no one really cares. The last celebration was during NS days. We actually went to a restaurant to eat. Just eat. Zhiwei was 10 Feb. I was 9 Feb. Killing 2 birds with 1 stone.

Yes, greetings and such. They are routines. I thank all of you for that. It's nice to know that people do remember and bother to send me a greeting of some sort.

And after losing faith on birthdays, I start to stop thinking about receiving anything from anyone. Lost the belief completely. But then, I do admit that I do have a little bit of anticipation sometimes, but it just proves that it will hurt more than heal.

And when people start to ask me how's my birthday, I will simply tell them the truth. That's my birthday. That's the way it has been, for over almost 20 years.

So actually, what is Feb 9 to me? It's a sad day… A day where I try not to get myself disappointed. A day where I will try to a normal person…

Suddenly think that, I should upgrade some things on the screen. Previously, there are only links provided to link to the previous and next entries, besides the history list. Now, I have added in the function that will not only link to those entries, but also to display the date, time, and the title! Hahahaa…

With that, ELove Blogs is now version 1.1… Hahaha… what version crap???!

More to come, when I am really free…

Tonight is one of the nights where I have decided to take a little break. Have a break before I break…

I have been saying, in my previous entries, about the need to smile, before unhappy, bad, unpleasant things start to happen. It did happen, and yes, it's hard to smile today. Somehow I know that is the outcome, but I am still waiting for miracles to happen…

Sometimes, it's hard to believe that miracles do exist…

Oh well…

Aye.. Reached school at 8am, and called Ben. He's still sleeping. Called Lionel. He's still sleeping on the bus.

8.35am, Lionel reached. His bag had some sort of a rotten fruit in it, and he had to wash it. And he had a lecture at 10am, and so, we ended up at Engin, eating breakfast. Tennis? Yeah.. I played with the racquet lor…

Went to change back into my normal wear. Had to change because I will be having a lab later, otherwise, I will have remained in my sports attire for the whole day. No choice…

Currently in the PC cluster, with only 4 other people. Little people. I wonder where have the rest gone to? But anyway, I am still wondering if I should go down… should I? Hmmm… See how…

Imagine that, I am currently typing directly into the database… stupid computer don't like the script that I have used in ELove Blogs… I even have to calculate the time myself.. It reads 1139585809, and hopefully it's correct. The time on the computer is 10.40am. Maybe, I shall create an 'emergency page' also, for my own use… oh well… think about it first…

It's Friday! Just another normal Friday…

Where am I? I don't know…

It's like… a stack… and over the years, things get piled up, and I am covered by all these piles of stuff…

So where am I? I don't know…

It's like… a never ending queue, with many people cutting into the queue, stealing from me…

So where am I? I don't know…

It's like… a problem that never gets solved, because the problem is not really a problem, but it is a big problem…

So where am I? I don't know…

It's like… being brought high up and then thrown down mercilessly.

So where am I? I don't know…

Don't know why, but suddenly, I am feeling quite sad… I wonder why…

Why??

It's time to give thanks.

Thanks to all that have sent me well wishes. Thanks to all who have sent me smses. Thanks to all who have sent me messages over MSN. Thanks to all who have offered to have a handshake with me. Thanks to all who have sent me a card.

Thanks to all who have remembered…

It's been a great pleasure to have you people around… =) 

Ok… sleep time…